The P.A. doesn't seem to care

Saw the P.A. that writes my bi-polar meds one day a couple of weeks ago. It was because (1) I thought I was having a manic epsiode and (2) I needed a treatment plan done up to see if Group Supportive Therapy would help.

I had seen the P.A. supervising doctor about a month before for a "normal" review of my meds and such. She was tickled pink when I told her I have mood charts. As was the Supportive Therapy care cooridantor. BUT when I showed the P.A., he looked down his nose at them. Didn't even ask to see them. Then he went on to tell me that what I have been going through the past week wasn't a manic epsiode, it was just from where I was over stressed and wasn't handling it well.

I have heard from others though that this P.A. looks down on everyone else. Has a chip on his shoulder. Stuff like that. I'm really tempted to ask to see a different doctor.

Also, if this Supportive Therapy care cooridantor cancels another appointment with me, whether she calls or not, I'm finding another Mental Health office all together (if anyone else will take my insurance). The front desk people are great, and so was the therapiest that referred me to Supportive Therapy, but the P.A. and care cooridnator are really starting to get under my skin. And something needs to be done because, even though I believe I am starting to control my irribility better, an outburst every other month is unacceptable when it comes to the health and safety of my son.

By all means don't be afraid to ask for another P.A. if he looks down on you. *And* the care coordinator cancelling w/o a call? Yeah. Sounds like it's worth looking into other options. It's certainly nice that the front desk folks are nice, but since they're not the ones treating...
Keep us posted, ok?

Well, I have filled out paperwork to request another doctor. My mother had met this PA and knows how this person is, so my mother totally understand me wanting to see someone else.

I finally got to see the care coordinator, she seems to think my mood stablizer (Lithium) isn't working at all and my guess is that she is going to mention this to the new person I'm going to see. But in the mean time she wants to me to stay on the medicaiton that isn't working. She gave me a tumbs up on the medication and mood charts and the meditation I have been trying. I've showed her all this stuff that I've gotten trying to help myself. But then I'm overwhelemed with all this stuff that I've gotten because I can't learn but one thing at a time before I move on to something else. And I feel that learning this stuff one thing at a time is going to take too long.

Just keep me in your thoughts and prayers.

Called the office yesterday and they told me that they didn't see a valid reason as to why I should need a doctor change! They said the only reason the P.A. should want to see my mood charts is if I'm not stable! Hello, I've been in a hypomanic/mixed state for a WEEK now, yeah I'm totally stable!

I'm so upset right now that if I didn't understand what was going on it would say "**** the whole damn thing". And with the state I'm in, if the P.A. doesn't do something to help me, I might just go off on him, then maybe something will be done. (I'll be put in a straight jacket.) (Speaking a straight jackets, I have got to do something so my parents can legally take care of my son should something like that happen so he doesn't get shipped to SC to his dad. Any suggestions?)

I'm mentally tired, but my brain won't stop. I know right now I'm in a mixed state. It's 1am. My 5 yr old will be waking up around 8am and he'll want me up too.

Is there anyone that would be willing to do a mercy killing?