How I Feel Today. . . Open to all.

Today I am feeling pretty good, excited about going into town and spending the day with my family.

I feel...

HOORAY!

Suga, I'm sorry you aren't feeling well. I know you said before that you prefer being at work, but perhaps now is time to reevaluate if you need a little break. Even if it's just a couple of days. The alcohol may soothe your nerves at first, but it's a depressant and not to be a nag, but it's not a good mix with our meds. Okay that was naggy, but I'm worried about you!

Trippin so glad you're feeling good.

Rhiannonsmoon, is there something going on?

Melissa, sounds like a great day, I hope you enjoy your time with your family!

I am home yayyyyyyyy! My friend came home early, so I got to go home last night after my shift ended. It feels great to be here, but I'm going to the stables to see my boy. Sooooo just want to relax at home, but it's a beautiful day and I don't want to waste it!

Pedicure was great yesterday. I go to a school for esthetics, so it's not as costly as going to an actual salon and the students do a great job. Highly recommend doing that if you need a little bit of pampering, but finances are tight.

I dont know how I feel today I think im aggravated again for no reason

Yea, Lauru and best of luck with the second interview!
Today I am NERVOUS. There's been a metric ton of stress converging, so I'm just trying to not freak out by thinking of everything all at once -- a hard impulse to fight, but I'm trying my best. So far, pretty good. Just accept, ride it through today and a couple of biggies should disperse quite a bit. Things have been going well lately, so I really really want to stay on course. (And I had to laugh a bit when I saw the second interview mentioned, as that is one of the things on my plate today! In about an hour, so wish me luck!)

I've had a good day today. The mosquitos got brutal at the stables and my poor guy got eaten alive, so I bought him a fly sheet today. I uploaded a pic of him in his new blankie into my horse picture folder. He looks soooo cute!

thinker22 it is great to hear you are feeling so well. I hope for your sake it stays that way.

sugahorse sorry you are so stressed out and things have got you down. Hoping things get better for you.

melissa.recovering glad to hear you are feeling well. Enjoy your time with your family!

Trippin2.0 glad things are going great for you.

blueoctober I'm glad you are finally home and having a good day.

I've just been existing the last couple of days. I don't feel bad, but I don't really feel good either. I did manage to get out and get my lawn mowed so that is a plus. Kinda wish I could crawl in a hole somewhere. Thankful for PC, helps me stay focused on being a mom and not falling into a hole. Thanks to all of you who are so supportive.

Sorry to hear you are buried under stress. Hope things get better for you soon. I also hope your interview goes well.

Feeling and acting normal for the kids is one of my biggest challenges and I am horrible at it.
NYCGURL

Gosh I haven't been in bp forum for awhile. Had been sick for months so wasn't anywhere. I'm feeling both up and down at the moment. I never cld figure how that works but its happening. I take my meds everyday the anxiety has been killing me. Just had pdoc appt uping one med to see what happens. So irritable as well. Tired so so tired. Yet I can't sleep. If I do fall asleep its not for long and I don't go back. Want it to be over. Want to be able to be done with bp and anxiety forever.

vjdragonfly I hate that "going through the motions" feeling, but you should be proud of yourself for mowing the lawn! Hope today brings a better day for you!;

nycgurl I'm sure you are harder on yourself than your kids are.

bridgie, sorry you aren't feeling well, but you have taken steps to change that by speaking to your p-doc. I hope this med change helps.

I feel sad today

im super manic and so happy to find this thread...hope all who are down get to feeling better soon!

NYCGURL I understand the feeling. At times I find it hard, but I have no other choice or at least that is what I tell myself. I'm not the best at it, but at least I try.

bridgie glad to see you back on PC and that your feeling better. I also don't understand how one can feel up and down at the same time. I hope things level out for you soon.

mommasuesue sorry you are feeling sad today I hope you feel better soon

Thanks for your support. Unfortunately today isn't any better. I feel really anxious on top of it today. Trying to keep it together cause I'm the only one here to take care of my kids right now. Finding it to be very difficult with my husband away.

I'm glad you are feeling so happy kadesgirl09. Glad you found this thread to be helpful. TTYL

Sorry your feeling anxious vj, I know how it can be when your alone...

Today I am really not sure how I am, just existing I suppose. Still miss my tdoc bad. Had nightmares about her amongst other things. Wish I could talk to her and know she's ok...

I'm tired today I switched from working afternoons Tuesday/Wednesday and now I'm back to day shifts, but I have taken 4 hours banked time this afternoon for my horse's farrier appointment then I'm meeting friends for dinner and a movie, so it's better now that I'm off work!

I understand how you feel Denise26. I been just existing for that last few days. Have you looked into getting a new tdoc yet? Hope things get better for you soon.

I know how draining it can be to have a change in your schedule. Hopefully you will adjust quickly. Enjoy your time with your friends!!!

Thanks dragonfly! I unfortunately regularly work shift work for my job. I love my job and though the shift work isn't ideal for the BP management, for the past 2 years I have been able to manage it. I wouldn't recommend shift work for someone with BP, but this is the same job that I had before I was diagnosed and other than the shift work the job is a great fit for me. It's something that my p-doc, therapist and I keep an eye on and when I mood track I note when I'm nights, so I can see the effect on my mood. I actually had to get a note from my P-doc allowing myself to go back on nights after my leave of absence.

I hope you start feeling better dragonfly!