[NuckingFutz]

I feel depression and anger over my caseworker. She has lied a lot about what she could do to help. Most of the stuff she said she could do and the things she has done made things worse. I can't get a new one right now. She also accused me of drugs which I do not do which was hearsay. She gets defensive when I talk to her. Hopefully once my atty is on board, things will get better, but now I am feeling really depressed and progress is slow. I am trying to get some income together so I can switch over to VA housing and get away from this woman. I have called a VA counselor and an attorney (bed bugs). It is a slow process and everyday, I get more depressed.

[Rohag]

I'm so sorry, NF This is a nightmare scenario -- to have someone responsible for you be untrustworthy and even dangerous. As unwieldy as it is, the VA can act efficiently every once in a while. I certainly hope it will come through for you now!

[NuckingFutz]

I hope the VA comes through for me as well. I can't stand this lady. She doesn't know what she is doing. Hopefully I can ignore her.

[sugahorse1]

So sorry to hear you're going through this NF. As if our lives are not difficult enough without the extra stressors and unreliability. From those same people that are hired to help us!

[NuckingFutz]

My thoughts exactly. Not focusing on her too much. Can't change her. I actually go to group at the VA to work around her. Since '91 until 3 years ago I used county mental health. Every year they did a financial update on me. Every year they would ask if I was a veteran and every year I said yes. It took them that many years for someone to say hey wait a minute, you are not qualified to get help from us. You need to go to the VA. I was in housing by then but they have to keep me in housing until I get my VA disability or some other income. I am working on that. They did come by and see where I lived. The VA housing coordinator did say that the apartment building itself did not meet the VA's standdard of safe and supportive housing. That made me feel better. It should only be a few months. I can hang until then. But I can tell you that until the county got me housing, I never lived around so many felons, I have never seen my neighbors doing hard drugs, never seen so many people who fall through the cracks.

[thinker22]

Just sending you warm thoughts and big You're a very strong person. How do I know? All you've been through and you're still hanging in there. I would be reduced to bawling and probably take to the streets if I had what happened to you happen to me. You're a fighter. I'm glad to have you as a friend. Keep on posting.

[NuckingFutz]

Thanks Thinker. I see myself as strong. I also see where choas can come from. I stay away from chaos when I see it. But when it is around it, I look at it, I try and balance things again. I read somewhere about Maslow's heiarchy and how survival mode is at the bottom and self actualization at the top. Right now I am at the bottom. I know I will take a few steps up up once the bug killer guy kills my little vampires. As long as I know it is temporary, I can deal. Thanks for being here for me.

[sugahorse1]

You are doing well, and by the sounds of things, there is lots of positive stuff to look forward to. You are putting yourself first - Proud of you!

[vjdragonfly]

I'm sorry to hear about your caseworker NuckingFutz. Sounds like she needs to find a new line of work. It looks like you have things in order in what you need to do and I congratulate you for that. I hope everything works out for you and in a hurry. Keep strong and I'm rooting for you.

[owllover99]

Hang in there, NF. I work for the government (keeping their books which is insane) so I know the VA takes time and you have to keep on them but eventually they come through. Please keep posting. Something tells me that it helps you keep your sanity. We are all on your side. Hugs, Owl.

[NuckingFutz]

Yes, it helps keep my sanity. I had to throw out my spiral bound journal...great places for bed bugs to hide. After Thursday's, group the Therapist wants to meet with me to see what she can do to help me. That gives me hopd and you all give me support.

[onomonapetia]

So sorry to hear about this! I am about to embark on a long journey with the VA as well. I was dx'd while in and they totally ****ed me (LOOONG story that all started with a sexual assault by superior)! Maybe we can help each other through it. I hope you can find a new case worker and get the help you deserve. What branch of service were you in? PM me if you want to chat.

[NuckingFutz]

Check your inbox.

[thinker22]

Just sending you and support on your quest for a peaceful safe environment. Hope you're having a good day.

Wow NF. I have to say that I'm very impressed with your fortitude. Seriously. Hoping for big improvements for you. Keep us posted, ok?

[BashfullOne]

Hi, NF - I'm so sorry to hear about all that you are going though. You sound like you're making the best out of a bad situation. I commend you on that. I pray that your situation changes quickly and for the better real soon. I haven't been around much - dropped off the grid and down as low as I could get. I don't do drugs or drink - just really, really depressed and down. Hopefully I'll climb back up again. It's going to be a long haul this time. I wish you the best and love reading your postings. ((((HUGS))))

[NuckingFutz]

Hey Bashful! Good to you again. I am goinp to send another edmail to my caseworker to find out what day they are exterminating. All these emails my attorney gets. Hanging in there.

[Lauru]

Wishing you all the best. i hope the situation resolves itself.

[NuckingFutz]

Thank you!

[thinker22]

How are you doing today NF?

[NuckingFutz]

Doing better. Have to throw out all my furniture but am getting a new bed. Got sprayed today. Getting sprayed on Monday for the eggs and to make sure the treatment is working. Met with caseworker who knows it is the crack ***** who is spreading the rumors that all the other women are doing drugs and having lots of drug traffic. She said the one who sings loudest is usually suspect. She actually said she sat in the back of the building and watched a mess of people go to her apartment. This woman has called the manager about real and imagined things going on...caseworker trying harder to find the truth. Said she also saw the neighbor panhandling so she knows what is going on. Hopefully they will get her out of here soon.

[thinker22]

You have some amazingly difficult situations facing you all at once. All I can say is I empathize. You are very brave! How else could you have survived this? Sending you big

I'm glad they've finally sprayed and are doing follow up. I hope you can finally get a good night's sleep. And at last a caseworker who sees through the lies. That should give you some peace of mind.

Keep us posted.

[NuckingFutz]

Yeah. Asked caseworker if I needed to dismantle the meth lab I hooked up in the bathroom and she laughed. Hopefully I will sleep better tonight.