About to hit breakdown with work stress

Dragonfly, I don't think it's a matter of strength or weakness whether one can work full time. For me my career helps my stability in that it gives me structure and I enjoy it. However, I know I couldn't be a mother. It takes a lot of strength to recognize that something won't work for you and not "caving" to what society says should be your role. You are a strong person!

Wow - I'm hoping that after I learn the ropes of my new job, the structure will fall into place. Right now I appreciate the "change of scenery" but it all seems a huge muddle and very stressful.
I'm busy pushing through the first few days and hoping it can only get better. Otherwise I really need to question my ability of holding a job down

That's completely natural when one is in a new position at work. Go easy on yourself. Your expectations of yourself are much higher than your employer when starting a new position.

Yes. What blueoctober said. Most (all?) people feel this way starting a new job, even those without other challenges, so be gentle with yourself.

how are you suga.. thinking about you as you start this new job! (((hugs)))

Thanks everyone - this morning i feel like i've been hit by a truck (Starting out on Lamictin too, so it could be that as well)
Last day for handover- then the existing planner / merchandiser is off. Then I can find my own feet without an information over load. And I can ask my friends and those I consider experts in their various fields, for help. And I can work out how I want to do things.

I know it is hard to put up with s___ from bosses and coworkers. I also know it's hard to find a job. I also know how it is to be homeless jobless and pregnant (although it was a long time ago). It was before I knew I was bipolar. I was epileptic, though. I care about you 2 and I understand. But there is one word missing here survival. Sometimes you got to let your head rule over your feelings even for a little while. It is a good idea to look for another job. I hope it helps. But in this world there's little or no help. Now if you're on assistance, you can get some help, but someone like me, no. I wish you the best. Hugs, Owl.

Sounds like a great way to approach the job thing. On the other, it could be the Lamictin/Lamictal. I had that happen on it, but it was short-lived. Was looking at some notes yesterday from the titrating up phase, and I used that exact same expression! A bit of headache too, but neither side effect was very troublesome. Just a few days at a couple different points.

Thanks guys! Really appreciate the support.
May be a little scarce, but I will be checking in. I need my PC family next to me...!