[FitPrk3]

Well, tomorrow is my 25th birthday, I'll be a quarter of a century old. (Still young to some) But I don't really feel like celebrating. Yea, I'm having like 6-7 people come over but they all aren't staying long. Like at all. And the ONE person I do want there, isn't gonna be there. And even if I asked her to come, she won't because she hates every single person that I know practically. I wish she would want to come, but I know she won't.

I feel pain, I'm hurt, I'm lonely and scared. It's my birthday but no one seems to notice. Im turning 25 years old, my liscence expires tomorrow, my tags for my truck expire as well, I have my doctors apt tomorrow to up my Lamictal dosage. Moneywise all in all I need almost $170 plus living expenses for the next 4 days. (gas, food...etc) But I don't have any money besides to get me to work and home tomorrow. Thats it! a whole $5 to last me till Tuesday. Somehow I don't see that working. I literally have no food in my apartment. I wish that was a joke. I've eaten at my parents houses during the week for dinner but thats it. I've only been having one meal a day for the whole week cause I've been that ridiculously broke. I'm overwhelmed.

What a great way to spend my birthday...

misrable...

~A

[blueoctober]

FitPrk3, I'm sorry you are having such a hard time especially the day before your birthday. Have you spoke to your parents about the financial situation you are in? Even if they could help with getting some groceries because eating once a day isn't enough and it can be horrible for the mood. Try to stay in the moment tomorrow and enjoy your day.

[blueoctober]

FitPrk3, Just wanted to wish you a happy birthday!

[goldielocks]

hope you have a happy birthday fitprk3. i am in a different time zone so am not sure if today is your actual birthday. be proud of yourself on your 25th regardless of who is with you. hugs.

[owllover99]

Sorry to hear you are broke. Now if I remember right you just got a job so that should be temporary, but still hard to deal with until you get ssome money. I've been there so you have my deepest sympathies. Now this bit about being a quarter of a century old. You need a kick in the butt. You are young. Yes, you are. I know you have problems, but you will have some kind of problems the rest of your life. Sorry to burst your bubble. At least right now your body works pretty good (oh, I know you're BP). That's a big plus. You will realize that when you're 50. Sorry.
Have a good of day as you can and try to make it to payday. I wish I had some money to send you. Hugs, Owl.

[Trippin2.0]

[vjdragonfly]

Happy Birthday!!! I hope you are feeling better today. I know that things are hard right now and really sucks to be down and out on your birthday. I know the feeling, I felt the same way on my birthday. I hope having your friends around will lift your spirits some.

[PT52]

Awww...I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time! I wish there were some way we could all show up at your place with cake and ice cream and funny hats

It's a fact, and there's no getting around it...this really sucks. If you can, just remind yourself that it really is going to get better, seriously. I had a time many years ago, when I lived in a camp trailer in a friends backyard, hooked up to the garden hose, with a long extension cord running from the house...couldn't find a job, had debts I couldn't pay, destroyed my credit, did not believe it would ever get better. But it did...it took a long time, though. And there's no getting around that, either. Just remember, we are here for you and I hope for your birthday we have given you a little hope.

Originally Posted by PT52

Awww...I'm so sorry you're having such a tough time! I wish there were some way we could all show up at your place with cake and ice cream and funny hats

Yes on the showing up and ooooh, funny hats! Or those things with the long springs and styrofoam balls in the ends that whoop around (what are those called?!). They are very amusing.

Sorry you are feeling so low, FitPrk3. Birthdays and holidays and such sometimes just plain don't feel so great. One day it struck me that there are good times and bad times and they come when they do, taking no account whatsoever of the calendar. Thinking about that helped me to not put such pressure on given days, as it was the expectations of what that day "should" be that was actually causing the pain. Don't know if that helps at all (took me years and years to actually think of it... never you mind how many years! )

You've been going through a real rough patch lately, but I hope very much that our birthday greetings and such bring you some measure of happiness or at least comfort that we're out here, care and are pulling for you.

[thinker22]

Just wanted to send you hugs

I agree with whoever said you should ask your parents for help. I know it can feel humiliating, but I think they'd rather not see their kid go hungry. It's only temporary and if you're worried about it, you can always pay them back, just keep the receipts for later.

Take care and hold on.