Tomorrow's d-day

Tomorrow I will recieve news,that will possibly alter the rest of my life. Please say a prayer for me, I promise to be ok no matter the outcome. I want this s0 bad,and can't even admit to it in RL. Btw Teletech SA is shutting down so I'm being retrenched in a few months, for some strange reason I'm okay,maybe it hasn't sunk in, or maybe my meds kick arse, whatever it is, I'm certainly not complaining. Thanks in advance my PC family!

Super positive vibes for you Trippin, hope everything that comes to you is everything you want!

Hi- I will pray for you and send positive thoughts your way.

Let us know what happens - thinking of you!

Oh well, didn't get what I want, guess it's not the end of the world tho...

Thought I may be pregnant, body's acting like it. Tests say otherwise...

Decided never to procreate again ( b/c of my BP) but thought if I am pregnant, then it's great anyway b/c it wasn't on purpose.

Worst part was acting like I didn't want to be pregnant in-front of friends, sOo0_____ this means Jordan stays an only child and such... yea, yeah I'm only 26, things can change, blah di blah di blah... point is, I won't let it, not in good conscience anyway...

Just thought maybe, maybe I wasn't so terrible after all, maybe unintentionally I could... just maybe.

Ugh, it's okay, who am I kidding?

Don't worry. I'll be fine, what choice do I have at this point anyway.


Thanks tho, you guys are awesome

So sorry you didn't get what you want I know how that feels as I am in exactly the same boat. I hate my stupid body!!!! Have you taken a test? Maybe it's too early?

Went as far as taking a blood test b/c I don't trust the urine tests... Not too early either. I was stupid to even hope. I'm an effen idiot.

So sorry you didn't get the results you were hoping for. I am wondering....Are you now considering actually trying to get pregnant again, now that you're noticing your disappointment?......Obviously, you don't have to answer--just a thought question. 26 ain't too late. I had my first kid at 35 (second at 36!).....

Stop! You are SO not! Hope is what keeps us going - and not just our little group - everyone! It gets us out of bed, it helps us see the blue skies and not just dark clouds, it gives us a reason for so many things. Disappointment goes hand in hand with hope, but hope is also what makes us push forward after each disappointment. Do not be hard on yourself for having hope - it's the greatest gift you can have!!

Want an0ther baby,quite badly,but can't have 1 on purpose. Not with all my "challenges" it's selfish. I thought if I had actually had an accident (which my body is pointing at) that I could have 1 guilt-free. I know I'm n0t too old, it's just that I've decided to be on my own,but was silently hoping my x left me a prezzie before I broke up with him. Guess n0t hey. Now to get over it,and on with it... I suck, I hate my hope,coz I always got to be so unreasonable, work myself into a frenzy over the impossible. PT52, I understand,and appreciate what you're saying,but please understand that I ALWAYS hope for stuff I can't or shan't have! Maybe I should stop hating hope and hate me instead! Grrr

Sorry you did not get what you wanted trippin. I can understand the disappointment. If it is something you really want I wouldn't give up on it.

I am paranoid about getting pregnant. I'm on so many meds and they final got a combo that keeps me feeling above average but not manic and to think that I would have to quit my meds to not hurt a developing fetus scares the **** out of me.

If you are on meds, try to think about it that way. At least you didn't hurt anything by being on them. Your first priority is your mental health. There will be time in the future to have another baby if you still want one. Time to taper off your meds if any episodes you are in go into remission. That way you can have a clean slate and no worries about hurting a future baby.

I know it may not help you feel better because of your disappointment, but there is that one upside. I hope you have a good day and can stop hating yourself. You're not to blame. Treat yourself to something nice. A bubble bath, some chocolate, a cup of tea. Whatever you need to indulge yourself. You're a good person and your future is not yet written.

Hey there, I think you need to be realistic and be glad the responsibilty of another child has been taken off your plate.
And it is true that you need to be off your meds if you're pregnant, which is just another complication you will have to deal with.
There is still plenty of time for you to meet the right man and decide to have a planned pregnancy.
Please don't take my post the wrong way - I'm just an eternal realist..!

NEVER! Why would I take your words in a negative manner??