[PromisesToKeep]

Save for this last month, I have never used forums before so these concepts such as "original intent of a thread belonging to the owner of the thread", "thread hijacking"... etc, are just more brick walls that I have to break through to reach others, but now is not the time to work on this skill set and way too much pressure is starting to build to try to learn now. I will continue to communicate via email on this account if any of you would like to keep in touch as I feel much more comfortable on one-on-one basis.

May God bless, and heal, you all....
Colleen

[PT52]

s'okay, you know

I wish you would continue to post here --I very much enjoy interacting with you here! I also understand if you feel you need to take a break. (FWIW, I had an experience on another site, being a total newbie to... guess you'd call it a role-playing game, made an unwitting mistake, got kicked out of the game, and it really gutted me. And during a time of mismedication. Yikes! )
You know best what to do for yourself. This is a firm belief, even when it conflicts with what I'd like. If you'd like to communicate with me that way, it would be most welcome, but your contributions here are valuable to so many, so hoping you reconsider...

PTK- I also hope that you will reconsider. I was telling my therapist today, about the support and advice that I have received here and how my feelings of lonleness had lessened. She was very impressed and was going to recommend it to other patients.

[vjdragonfly]

PTK I also wish you would reconsider. You are very knowledgeable and contribute so much. I am sorry for what you went through on that other thread. I really hope it won't stop you from interacting with the rest of us. But if it is what you have to do I hope with time you will rejoin.

[thinker22]

I agree with what the others have said. We understand if you need a break, but you are always welcome here to post any thread and thoughts and receive support from us. It's too bad that you had that experience with the other thread. It's not your fault. I didn't know the rules for the eating disorders forum and got chastised and my post was rewritten to edit out things that weren't allowed. Makes me not want to go back there, but I guess it's my own fault for not reading the rules first. Seems to me that you were skewered by more than just a moderator and that has to hurt. Sending you hugs and happy feelings. Hope you will come back soon.

PS: Love the Frost references. Love that poem.

[PromisesToKeep]

I will put up with insanity and abuse sometimes for years before I finally get the courage to stand up and quit pretending I am a doormat. Yet when I decided to start living rather than surviving until my next suicide attempt, I realized the choices I made before got me to where I am now, and not where I want to be. Over a one week period 5 such situations have arisen and the stress, anxiety, physical pain and depression are overwhelming me. Don't know how to say this in 3 sentences and the other day I just sat here trying to figure out how to write what was going on but I couldn't make it fit but still cant. Wanting to give you an explanation and that its not permanent that I am away, just while I iron out some issues and establish some boundaries. When I tried to post before I rewrote of 8 times and was so frustrated and anxious that I had a full-on panic attack and weeping at the same time, the pressure..... lest I offend someone, somewhere over something........ I can't deal with any additional conflict. Already on overload. Will post when I can stay small without much pressure.
Thar she BLooooowwwssssss, Cap'n!
hugs all,
Colleen

[Trippin2.0]