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I juts have to get thois out don't even know if anyone will understand I do great for days and I think I am makin lg friends I'm being funny and peppy and its all love and joy and then hlthats not fullfilling in any manner and the conversations seem so empty I want to talk about deep things not just talking to fill in space. I don't want to just make noise I want to have meaning to what comes out my mouth. And everyone else is still on the first attitiude of fun fun let's not have anything serious. Well where is the serious conversations who wants to discuss the lunar eclips being on the solstic and how that is effecting everyone and everything around us. And how you can feel the weight that ppl are carrying and how much of that has to do with barometric pressure as well as the moon and its pull on us and how it all flows and is integrated to be a part of something bigger. But since I have this urge to talk about tuch marvels and everyone else only wants to be saucy with each other then where do I go. If the feeling is to heavy and I need something light. Where are the dual people. Broadminded witty conversationalist. And if I can't be around one kind of ppl for very long they don't be friend you and bcz you need that other stimuli from other grps you dnt get to know any of them well. Its just where do you go when you've tried to find what you need from this contact I don't know how to explain and its just too much to even try and make it clear to anyone else but its makeing me a little on tjhe down side to know I will never have close relationships with these wonderful ppl I meet. They only want that one part of me. Either the fun no serious flirty. Or you just not fun anymore. And then never find anyone to talk about the other stuff with. *sigh I don't know idk

[robw]

That is what the internet is for. Personally there are very few people in my life who I can have a deep intellectual conversation with. Not that everyone in my life is stupid or they are all idiots, far from it. But, they just are not all that educated in book smarts, mostly common sense and street smarts.

What I suggest is finding a message forum, not too much unlike this one, where you can discuss things that you enjoy (astrology, science, math, literature, etc.) and keep posting topics there regularly. If you search the internet long enough I know you can find one.

Also, not sure what your particular level of education is, but have you thought about going back to school again? That could be a great way to find other people to have deeper conversations with, even if you only take one class here and there it would probably help.

[Fresia]

If there are particular subjects that you are interested in, you can also look for societies, organizations, clubs, talks and seminars in your area to go to or meet with and to talk about more of the things you enjoy talking and learning about. Might meet other people with more shared interests as well, even if you don't actually want to join anything. Do a search online and look at community bulletin boards at schools, groceries, halls, etc.

[bpd2]

And if it's the frustration itself that is bothering you, the level of frustration, what you feel like it makes you do, or what it interferes with, then you might try some of the anger forums, etc....
hugs

[PT52]

Sometimes, too, it's just a matter of having different relationships to fulfill different needs instead of trying to find just friends who fulfill all needs all the time. My hubs is the person I share dreams and plans with, and have political debates with. My sister and daughter (my two best girlfriends) are the ones I share girl talk and silliness with. And all three and me together have fascinating intellectual and philosophical conversations with. I have casual friends that I can have a laugh with, but wouldn't have deep conversations with...anyway, I hope you find the relationships that work for you.