[blackdragon]

My gma still thinks that i am not bipolar... I guess since my cuz bethany is, means i cant be. I MUST be copying her... This is what i get.. My gma doesnt want me labled as bipolar. OK. What is wrong with this label? She tells me no one will accept me with this disorder and that i will never get a good job if i was diagnosed. What can i do about it. I have this disorder. Weather she likes it or not.. SO does my cousin So HYMMMMMMMMMMMM i wonder wich one gave it to us. My gma (likley) or my Gpa. I know my mom has it.. She is a flipin psycho. I know my uncle has it. Cause he married a psycho and hates his own daughter. Soo i dont get this family..
when my mom found out i was cutting my grandma said i was doing this to get attention and back to her. So she basically didnt beleive me. But when bethany started cutting 2 i repeat 2 years after i started she beleives her and says its her family that is the cause of it. DID I MISS SOMETHING? When beth became bulimic it was all a big deal to gma. IM bulimic and she says that i do it for attention. YA some attention. I ben self inflicted for 5 years, depressed for 7, bipolar for a record of 3 weeks, General anxiety and panic disorder (which she doesnt beleive i have) for 5 years, and bulimic for 4 months. Beth has been self inflicted for 3 years, depressed for god who knows how long, bipolar for 4 years, bulimic for 4 years, and a drug addict for 5 years.Oh lets not forget 3 months pregnant. AND IM THE ONE THATS FAKING. dont get me wrong i know my cousin wasnt faking. she was allways the princess of the family and i was the perfect representation of the family. When the princess failed its up to me to pick up her slack. So the strings get tighter and i am forced to be more perfect. So beth can still be the princess who gets her butt wiped and served too. I am the dissapointment cause im not the perfect image that this family wants me to be. Maybe if i did meth and Screwed every guy in town maybe JUST MAYBE i would be treated like her. Makes me want to go out and get drunk take a bunch of prozac and crap and screw everyone who looks at me...

Sotrry if this is very long. needed to vent..

[Fuzzybear]

sorry your grandma doesnt believe you and thinks you are faking for "attention" GGGRRRR

I hope the professionals are more helpful?

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[bipolar_bear]

I am so sorry that your grandma does not believe you. It is so hard when we don't get the support we need at home. It is more so if you are being treated in a different manner than Bethany. You deserve the validation and support you need. I hope that you have outside sources for this as you apparently are not getting that from home. Please try and take care of yourself and stay safe.

[BlueFaith]

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I'm so sorry things are going this way for you. I have a family that's the same way. They think nothing is wrong with me at all. But I know better. And I'm sure you know better about yourself as well. Sometimes we have to just get past what everyone else thinks, and then only worry about how we can help ourselves. Because, after all, what's more important? Everyone else's opinion or your health and well-being? I know it's hard....VERY hard. You have to think about what's best for you though, even if that means not worrying about what the family thinks about the situation you are in.

-Jennifer-

[kimmydawn]

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families, and the dynamics there, can be so hard.

please take good care of yourself right now.

kd

[silver_queen]

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Sometimes we have to just get past what everyone else thinks, and then only worry about how we can help ourselves. Because, after all, what's more important? Everyone else's opinion or your health and well-being?

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I agree TOTALLY with what MP says. The most important thing is just to look after your own needs and believe that you know better than your family what you need for yourself. Your grandma and other relatives may deny you have those illnesses, but you know better and they are not you. At least you're not denying your illnesses yourself too. That really makes things complicated.

[blackdragon]

last nite when i picked up my cousin beth we got on the topic. Bethany totally agrees that we get treated differently. Bethany said that i was considered gma little baby. Which was true and i hated it. And she agreed with me that she was considered the little princess. And bethany even told gma this too when gma was all pissy with her. Gma said like mother like daughter. beth interupted her like saying like mother like son like daughter. So we had more of a vent. Im glad she believes me.

Man my family is wacko. I know i shouldnt let them get to me. Beleive me im trying not to. Its frustrating ya kno?

thanks for all the support. I really appreciate it.

[CompGeek]

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i was the perfect representation of the family. .

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This may be the reason why your grandmother can not accept the truth of your disorders. It may be a conscious effort but i am guessing that she is in denial - one of Freud's defense mechanisms unconsciosly employed by the ego to help deal with anxiety/stress... Since other members of your family also have disorders your grandmothers mind probably can not handle the anxiety and stress her worrying causes her. I am sure she is not intentionaly trying to hurt you. I really think that she may be in denial.
Hope you feel better,
-Jason

[dexter]

>>I know i shouldnt let them get to me. Beleive me im trying not to. Its frustrating ya kno?

You are right that you shouldn't let them get to you and also right that that is much easier said than done. But it is good that at least you know that it is a problem with them and not with you. I hope it is also very comforting to have Beth see the same things happening, so you don't feel like you are completely alone in this struggle... not necessarily the struggle to get you gma to believe you but the struggle to get the support that you need from some source.

Are there any support groups in your area because they can be helpful too, as well as this place. We all know all too well what it is like to be "not believed" unfortunately.