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#1
Jan 11, 2011, 10:39 PM
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Why do I mess with my meds when they are working. I keep thinking that I don't need them or want to get rid of some side effects etc.... then end up out of balance and risking another episode. WHY WON"T I LEARN!!!!! Why do I have to be so stupid.....
don't worry, being a good girl again... hoping not too much damage done on my moods before the drugs catch up.
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Jan 11, 2011, 10:45 PM
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I hope things balance out. I think it is natural to want to feel as good as possibleand wanttotweat meds. I am constantly battling the urge.
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Jan 11, 2011, 10:55 PM
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ha ..me too..and when i do my world crumbles...and i always think..wow that's not worth it..i will never do that again...and then..couple months later I'm like "I'm pretty sure i am all better...in fact i bet i don't even have bi-polar"...i hear ya...and i am also on day 4 of restarting my meds after a month..or two..break.
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Jan 11, 2011, 11:51 PM
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Thanks guys, you make me feel more "normal"!!!
Ryask, you crack me up - its exactly the kind of dialogue that goes on in my head....  feeling a bit happier already thanks for your support.
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Jan 12, 2011, 12:41 AM
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Hope you get better real soon! And DONT stop your meds again - the side withdrawals are terrible
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"I'd rather attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. Robert H. Schuller" Current dx: Bipolar Disorder Unspecified Current Meds: Epitec (Lamotrigine) 300mg, Solian 50mg, Seroquel 25mg PRN, Metformin 500mg, Klonopin prn Last edited by sugahorse1; Jan 12, 2011 at 12:42 AM. Reason: Addition |
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Jan 12, 2011, 01:19 AM
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It's hard. I've reacted to every antipsychotic thus far- total of 4. But my meds are working now.
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Jan 12, 2011, 01:25 AM
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I don't think it's stupid to try and get rid of side effects! But when our meds bother is its probably better to ask a pdoc for help rather than DIY pdoc....(I do that all the time)
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Jan 12, 2011, 07:48 AM
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Meds for many of us are a necessary evil. I think it is natural to want to be free from them. I had a nice period of stability this summer and convinced myself all my problems were behind me and went to my pdoc with a plan to come off everything. Luckily he tells me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear.
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Jan 12, 2011, 08:33 AM
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That is all part of the diagnosis. You take medication and are fine and then begin to question why you take meds. You tell yourself things like "I am fine now, I don't need these anymore". But once you go off them it all goes crashing down and it happens so fast you don't realize what is happening so you can go back on your meds in time to catch it from hitting rock bottom. I have done this many times and going off my meds is never a good idea....but I do it anyway even though I know better. I wish I had the answer for you but I don't. I suffer just as you do
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Jan 12, 2011, 09:32 AM
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I don't want to have to need my meds. I want off of them even though I know logically how much they help. We're human, it happens. Having similar stories as above in going off of them when the urge struck with disasterous results, someone once mentioned writing down what happens when I go off of them in FULL detail: with symptoms; effects to my body and life, work, and relationships; then the consequences (perhaps housebound, hospitalization, or end of life, etc.) and what this will mean to me and others; and then doc's, T's, and/or friends' numbers at the bottom that you can call if the urge strikes again. Then putting it somewhere you can reference or posting them: side of the fridge, bathroom mirror, drawer, carry it with you, etc. that you can refer back to when the urge strikes to go off them.
This reminder has saved me more times than I can count and I no longer need to read it now. Perhaps this will help. However, I doubt wishing that I didn't need them will ever go away. |
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Jan 12, 2011, 10:53 PM
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Thanks for your understanding. It's nice to know I am not alone in this... I have lost count of the times I have messed with my meds... you'd think I'd learn! My friends just shake their heads at me... but they don't understand why I think its the right thing to do, why I need to do it, why I hate my meds even though they keep me alive... It's a constant battle to actually swallow them every morning and evening, I feel more in control if I say which ones to take and which ones not to take...
Fresia - sounds like a great idea... my pdoc constantly reminds me that I NEED my meds - he says to think back to my last major depression...
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Jan 13, 2011, 12:05 AM
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So, make a contract with us
Next time you have the urge, you have to get permission from everyone here who cares about you! 
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#13
Jan 13, 2011, 02:50 AM
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Nice idea PT52!
I mess with my meds every now and again - and pay a serious price for it.
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"I'd rather attempt to do something great and fail than to attempt to do nothing and succeed. Robert H. Schuller" Current dx: Bipolar Disorder Unspecified Current Meds: Epitec (Lamotrigine) 300mg, Solian 50mg, Seroquel 25mg PRN, Metformin 500mg, Klonopin prn |
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Jan 13, 2011, 05:41 AM
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Great idea PT... you'll keep me honest...
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Jan 13, 2011, 05:49 AM
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My prob is my meds work so well, other people start pressuring me to stop. They don't think i have any problems. This is hard when I am like the rest of ya', I have a hard time remembering how I actually felt when I am cycling and I have to ask my relatives how it really was. Sometimes I even get this from some ofthe less than competant P-docs here who still haven't learned that # of meds and strength of dosage do not equal severity of symptoms. They cylce them through so fast they never stay long enough to learn from their mistakes, but I'm not so lucky!
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Jan 13, 2011, 05:51 AM
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OOOOOPS so definitely, hon, let us know when the demons start whipsering, and we'll put them straight! HUGGGGGSSS
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