[p.smilez]

i might be bipolar or depressed. my concentration is a million pieces, i cant focus to fill out job applications or even watch a movie. my bf sugested i had either one, and his mom( RN nurse) co-signed. we all moved in together, and even though they keep saying i have it, i feel like their makin it worse. when im on the low slope,dont want to talk, horrible angry attitude, im the bad person. my bf recently told me how his mom was telling him 'you dont deserve that', 'why are u putting up with that', 'does she even love you?'. so now im feeling so crappy, feeling like more stuff is being said about me, his mom isnt really acknowledging me, his daughter(6yrs) says hurtfull things.i dont have insurance, but i know i need to get treated. i dont know what to do.

His mom may be an RN, but she has no real business diagnosing you. Maybe you do, maybe you don't, maybe it's something else. Only a Pdoc can make an assessment that isn't simply based on anecdotal info. I obviously can't speak for anyone else financially, but I do not have insurance either. So I ranked medical things in order to prioritize. For me it was psych, med, then dentist. I've only availed myself of psych so far, because without that the rest would soon become irrelevant. And I hope not to be out of place here, but I went with a PMHNP instead of a Pdoc and T, because a psychiatric nurse practitioner can do both meds and talk therapy. Granted, they may not have as much training as a Pdoc, who would normally be the one handling meds, but I had to look at the situation as a whole and that's the way I went (along with a solid self-education). I DID already have a dx from a Pdoc, and that may be a difference too, but it may also be something to consider on a longer term basis (ie. maybe you can't afford a Pdoc long term, but at least if you can get a dx...? PMHNPs can dx too, but whatever would make you more comfortable...) All this is to say that there are options and dx is not the business of bystanders.

Wecome to the forums, p.smilez!

[blueoctober]

Welcome p.smilez. Innerzone has made some excellent points. I hope you find this site supportive.

[Trippin2.0]

IZ, said it best, all i can say is, I hope you get a dx soon and some legitimate help, and lets not forget a warm

[PT52]

Originally Posted by p.smilez

i might be bipolar or depressed. my concentration is a million pieces, i cant focus to fill out job applications or even watch a movie. my bf sugested i had either one, and his mom( RN nurse) co-signed. we all moved in together, and even though they keep saying i have it, i feel like their makin it worse. when im on the low slope,dont want to talk, horrible angry attitude, im the bad person. my bf recently told me how his mom was telling him 'you dont deserve that', 'why are u putting up with that', 'does she even love you?'. so now im feeling so crappy, feeling like more stuff is being said about me, his mom isnt really acknowledging me, his daughter(6yrs) says hurtfull things.i dont have insurance, but i know i need to get treated. i dont know what to do.

This organization may be able to help you find resources:
http://www.nami.org/MSTemplate.cfm?S...ontentID=85985

I'm glad you found your way here; there is a lot of support, knowledge and unconditional acceptance on these pages.
The main thing I would suggest is to be your own best advocate. If you want to stay in the relationship you're in, try to listen to what your bf says, thank him for it, then do what you need to do for yourself. Even if it comes from love and concern, nothing they say is going to fix your problem, so why waste the time having to defend yourself? Your #1 priority now is to get a diagnosis and treatment; it will make finding and keeping a job much easier, and it will make coping in general easier. Sending you strong, confident vibes. You can do this; there are a whole lot of wonderful people here who are living proof.

[Anneinside]

If you don't have the resources for a pdoc/tdoc or medication, you should contact the mental health program of your county. All counties in the US have human services departments and they offer help on a sliding scale so you should be able to afford. Also, there are free clinics in most major cities so you might investigate this option. If medications are too expensive for you then you can contact the manufacturer and get assistance. Some companies completely cover your costs.