Omg! Psychotic!

Sounds good that your doc is keeping an eye on your meds... it might cause a blip, but hopefully you should stabilise soon. Don't worry too much about the parkinson's limbs... it could just be a one off, and get better. Just be sure to note symptoms so you can share them with your doc.

Keep well, we're rooting for you.

Thanks! I love this board. Out with my middle and youngest kids. Whee! We shovelled out the car hich was no small feat!

Hope they're having fun with you.

So far! Eldest is mad he got kicked off xbox but he'd been on it for at least 6 hours so oh well.

So it's not just my son who reacts like that with video games! Thank goodness for the wii... at least sometimes he'll get some activity out of it.

Nope. He acts like he's addicted.

I think a lot of boys are like that.

I wouldn't have a video game in the house for years, but my Dad of all people got him a handheld video game against my wishes, and then his biological father got him a console, and the next thing I know my beautiful, articulate sensitve boy is blowing things up in a darkened room, and scowling at me like a vampire snared in its layer by a mob of angry fire brandishing villagers when I try to get him to switch the bloody thing off.

How's that for a convoluted hard to follow sentence? I think I understood it... lol

Lol I understood it!

I am sorry I missed this thread when it started so I could offer my support to you earlier. Looks like you have been well taken care of by the great people of PC.

It sounds like things are starting to look up again. I hope so for you.

And on the topic of video games.... yup... I have an addict in my house too. I have only myself to blame. I needed the baby sitter and it worked TOO well. You just loose all sense of time with those games. And now with multiplayer gaming getting him off is even harder because he has a team depending on him. Yea right. I am depending on you to get your chores done.

Dreamed I won the lotto- AND a hot tub! Woo! Oh well. Lol

Nice dream! Let us know when it comes true. lol.

I know....

At bookstore having soup and tea.

Bookstores.... my favourite place. Soup and tea sounds good too. Bookstores sure have changed.

Youngest at Boychoir rehearsal. I've gelt racey and talky and like I have to keep going. Right now I'm sitting quietly as I also feel like I should be alone. My perception is like I'm too shakey inside. Had a tea as I said but that wouldn't ramp me up. Had my new dose too.

I know what you mean Moose. Being alone sometimes is the only way I can cope. I can be very hypersensitive to sounds and sudden movements and just trying to focus on someone talking to me when I am wound up is near impossible. Other times I might just start babbling and I retreat to slow down.

I feel like falling into depersonalization might just get rid of this feeling. Or maybe this is this nagging anxiety still? I am sitting in a room behind where they are rehearsaing as the music os nice but being in there feels like too many people. I also have to keep it together as I'm responsible for Noah.

You seem to be making some wise choices to keep yourself safe. Separating yourself from the pack is a good strategy when when it starts to feel uncomfortable and crowded pulling bak is the best option.

I know that pressure to keep it together so we can take care of our children. You sound like a great mum. Give yourself the gift of kindness and treat yourself tenderly. You will get through this to the other side of distress again.

Hangin with you Moose. We have your back. Wishing you wellness and peace.

Thanks so much for the replies!

I am at the bookstore with Noah and waiting on two friends. Noah's reading Harry Potter and the goblet of fire.

I feel a bit better. I'm ok with the people. I seem to get better and worse again.

My ex-BF is on my nerves. My new BF is not but I am being cautious because I so want this to work- be the best at whatever it is. He seems to understand my brain issues- he has a phd in behavioral pharmacology after all. So I can babble to him about hallucinations and feeling embarrassed and he just tells me it's ok. That's so great.

Sorry about your ex but what a blessing your boyfriend must be to you. That is awesome.

I used to read the Harry Potter books with my son but we never made it past the 3rd book. It just got too dark for me. Ha Noah seen any of the movies. I like the first 2 but again they started getting too dark for my liking.

I saw an interview with the author (arggg... my brain... can't even remember her name)... anyways she said she wasn't finished with Harry so another book might actually be written yet.

I am glad I have been here today to talk with you. I have been staying close to my computer waiting for phoebe the humming bird to lay a second egg. It is webcam set up in a garden in California.

Here is the link if you are interested. It can be very relaxing to watch and informative too if you read the ongoing chat.
http://phoebeallens.com/big.html

I started a thread here too who are watching her nest. Here is the link....
http://forums.psychcentral.com/showthread.php?t=168619

I hope you join us there. We are having a lot of fun.

Hey! I will go see if my iPhone can follow your site.

Noah likes the movies, yes. I saw a quote by the guy that plays Harry Potter saying if she wrote another book he wasn't goi g to be in the movie!

Yes I am glad my new boyfriend understands. I try not to talk about my brain every time but it seems to be taking all my attention this last week.

Your first link seems to br a search site.?

Ok I got it. Lol

What name are you on the chat with nest?

Cool. I hope it works from your phone.

I would think that without the original Harry Potter there can't be another movie made. Time will tell.

Try not to worry about talking about your brain all the time right now. One thing that works well for me and my ex (still my best friend) is to give him permission to limit the time I spend at one time talking about what was going on in my head.

It proved useful for both of us. Talking for too long at one time would often wind me up. When he would observe symptoms (talking faster and faster, loosing my train of thought, repeating things etc) he would tell me to start wrapping it up. Even when I felt like I wanted to say more I had given him permission to monitor its impact on me so I would take a deep breath and accept his assessment. If I still seemed stressed out and off balance he would give me a massage or join me for a walk.

This agreement freed me from worrying I was burdening him too much with my problems. It was up to him to tell me when it was enough talk and time to give my brain a rest.

I am glad you found it.

I haven't joined in on the chat. I just read it now and then to pick up information. I think there are a couple of people here chatting there now and then but I don't do chat well.