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#1
Mar 25, 2011, 10:26 AM
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I took the mood tracker on this site and it showed me as manic right now. When I looked at the numbers, I had a 20 for depression and a 21.something for manic. I would consider that mixed.
I guess that makes sense since I have been having the paranoia and anxiety and lack of motivation that comes with my mixed episodes for the last few days. I don't want to tell my p-doc because I don't want to go up on my meds and gain more weight/deal with side effects. Blah. |
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#2
Mar 25, 2011, 11:41 AM
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I emailed my T.
This is what I wrote: I am having some trouble the last couple of days. I don’t know what happened. I was doing really well, especially on vacation in airports and at Disney. I didn’t feel at all paranoid. I came to my appointment with you the other day and I was doing pretty well, but later that day, actually as I was walking home, I noticed that I was feeling uneasy and going out of my way to avoid people. I was afraid that if I got too close to people that they would have an impulse to hurt me and not be able to control it. I felt really uncomfortable walking home. I hoped that I would feel better yesterday, but I didn’t. I was having a hard time with the idea of walking the dogs because I didn’t want anyone to see me. Today I am still feeling this way and I noticed that I went out of my way to get to the yard before anyone would see me out front. There is a street directly behind my yard and in the summer it is private because the bushes we have there have leaves. Since there are no leaves, I can see out of the yard. Today someone walked by while I had the dog in the yard and I was afraid the person would attack me. I was having the feeling that someone came into my house and is hiding somewhere, because I had to leave the door open because I forgot to take my keys when I took the dog out to the yard. I guess that’s it. If you have time could you write me back? Last edited by BNLsMOM; Mar 25, 2011 at 12:08 PM. |
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#3
Mar 25, 2011, 05:59 PM
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He emailed me back and gave me some advice.
I am noticing that my thoughts are turning toward paranoia more and more. It was bothering me while I was in the car driving to get my son from school today. There were people driving behind me and I thought that they were following me. Also, I was driving fast and wondering if a police officer would pull me over. I saw someone else getting a ticket and I almost felt jealous. The thought, "Why didn't he pick me?" went through my head. I was getting mad at people who were driving the speed limit because they were in front of me and blocking me from going fast. I live so dangerously, don't I, ha ha. I am not planning on telling my husband about this because he is under enough pressure and thinks I am doing well right now. I will fake it with him for as long as I can. |
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#4
Mar 25, 2011, 07:06 PM
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?? No comments??
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#5
Mar 25, 2011, 07:19 PM
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when's your next appointment with your pdoc? I would defineatly ask about something more to help with the paranoia
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Mar 25, 2011, 07:25 PM
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April 8. I am afraid that she will change my meds or my dose and then I will gain another 10lbs which I have done each time my meds are tweaked. I am fat enough and I just bought all new clothes.
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Mar 25, 2011, 07:33 PM
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do you gain weight when you switch instead of add a medication? Is there any way you could ask for a medication specifically for paranoia but also place a stipulation on it not having weight gain as a side effect? There are a few that either dont cause weight gain or actually have weight loss as a side effect...for example i know abilify doesn't have weight gain as a side effect while wellbutrin has a weight loss side effect....i dunno...maybe there is something else out there...you will never know unless you ask...make em work for thier money..and find something that suits your needs....if they can.
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"Love is patient; love is kind; love is not boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things". I Corinthians 13: 4-7
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#8
Mar 25, 2011, 07:51 PM
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I have been through so many meds, and had different side effects, allergic reactions, or have them just not work, so I am down to the nasties that lead to weight gain. I gain every time I have my dose tweaked. I was hoping that I was getting better so that I could go off them sometime soon.
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Mar 25, 2011, 07:53 PM
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 well...it seems that if there is nothing else to try medication wise...what about CBT?
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#10
Mar 25, 2011, 08:03 PM
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That's what I do with my T. I have also been through DBT, Partial hospitalization, inpatient... I am looking into a three week residential DBT program that I might be able to do. It is more intense than the DBT I did before. Last time I was in the hospital, the doctor there said that if we go through the rest of the meds that I would be out of luck.
I haven't hear the words treatment resistant, but I am wondering... |
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#11
Mar 25, 2011, 10:46 PM
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I here hoping you can find something that works for you, meds, or otherwise
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#12
Mar 26, 2011, 01:40 AM
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what about ETC?
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"Love is patient; love is kind; love is not boastful or arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice in wrongdoing, but rejoices in the truth. It bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things". I Corinthians 13: 4-7
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#13
Mar 26, 2011, 04:58 AM
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Quote:
Maybe time to look out for some treatments outside of the medicine field?
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