[Warrioress]

My mental problems have taken away everything that might have been important to me. I couldn't finish high school because I couldn't concentrate in class. I tried to replace it with sports (karate), but now I can't do well in my karate class either, because the meds drain me of all energy. The Olanzapine has also made me gain weight and now I'm getting obsessed with that too. I think I might be developing an ED on top of Bipolar. AND I'm having suicidal thoughts again!

I feel worthless and pathetic

[lynn P.]

((((Warrioress)))) - I wish I could say more today but I only have lots of hugs.

[love2drum]

Hi Warrioress, I saw your post and felt compelled to say something, at least reach out to you. I'm sure you can't say anything here that one of us can't relate to. You are safe here and I'm glad you shared your feelings. It can feel hopeless sometimes, but you sound very young (which is good you have this much insight into your illness so early on) There IS hope! Just don't stop seeking it. Maybe discuss different medication opts with your dr. Have you told him/her how they are affecting you? I urge you to.....the only way to get help is by asking for it. No one knows you better than you.....
Have you thought about/looked into GED (I have ADD and BP - I GET IT) I took the tests and did well....surprisingly well....you also are probably very intelligent ....that's something you can do at your own pace until you are ready to go take each test.
The suicidal thoughts are just that, thoughts.... they are taunting you and tearing you down...treat them like un unruly child! Try to focus on a good goal......maybe even journal to see if that helps.....I've had people tell me to journal for years, and I never have until now, and I am so amazed at how helpful it really is! It helps you see yourself a little more objectively, and you can sometimes see a "pattern" that can help....at least you know then that it will pass.....
keep us posted, pls?

[sugahorse1]

Hi there. I hope things are looking up for you today.
There is some good advice in the earlier posts.
Journaling is very useful, as it allows me to look back. Apart from the things listed above, it also often makes me realise if some thoughts were totally out of line, incorrect or unnecessary. I also use a journal as a starting point for therapy.
Try and see a T, which will help you come to terms with the diagnosis, and also teach you coping skills.
Some meds have suicidal thoughts as a side-effect; ironically. Is it possible that your meds have these side effects?