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Feeling sad and sui again. The zyprexa is maybe keeping me in bed crying to music but the same thoughts as last weekend- just different med bottle. Didn't help that someone at lunch- which is supposed to be a fun, weekly thing- was talking about sui and other like topics. I can't go back to PER... yuck. And this is silly. I am not being rational. WTF.
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I'm n0t exactly a bag of sunshine and rainbows,but i can offer you a c0mforting (((HUG)))...
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I hope you feel better, Moose. Does your pdoc have an after hours onn call person who can help you? Feeling sui is dangerous.
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I feel weird. Half like I'm weird for going twice in a week. half like I'm weak for having these thoughts. I'm enjoying the music, so why sui?
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do you just feel sui, but in "will not do anything" way... or are you actually danger to yourself?
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I keep seeing myself swallowing a bottle of pills. They are 6 feet away.
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do you have somebody to call or something to distract with?
and how long usually these thoughts last before they go away?
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You aren't weird to go in twice in a week. You are smart to go. I have a friend who went every couple of days for over a month. Sometimes she was admitted and other times she was sent home. The people at the ER gave her nothing but respect.
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music ... soothing
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called PER. They are paging her to my number.
I hate this. I am not myself. I haven't been for a week.
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Im hope you can get some relief. Tell pdoc everything so that she can better help you. Keep us updated.
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Yes PLEASE keep us posted!
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waiting for pdoc to call
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((((((Moose72))))))
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Still waiting..... It's been two hours
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That's ridiculous! You need help N0W... I wish i could make you feel better Moose!
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Don't you hate that? Can you call back and say that it is urgent? I know you don't want to go there but maybe if you showed up you would be taken seriously and get some help quickly.
It makes me angry when I am asking for help, doing everything right and then I get the brush off. Oh well, don't get me started. |
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I called. They said my NP said shed call me Monday. I told the nurse on the phone everything that was going on and that I didn't think it was a med change only. She was nice and asked how I am now and I said feeling better but that those thoughts scare me. I guess NP wants to see me in two weeks instead of a month.
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Sounds like a plan, Moose. If you start to feel worse, call again and let the nurse know. I hope you continue to feel better. I was having similar thoughts last year and I went to the hospital because I started self harming to try to get rid of the thoughts. It sounds like you are on top of things and have insight about your feelings. Hopefully you will get some good sleep tonight.
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Thanks.
I feel like two people when these happen. One is rational and the other thinks all the things I've described. And sometimes it's just the unrational. And I get so confused and don't recognize myself anymore.
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Yeah, I get that feeling too.
I need to go to bed now. Hang in and hopefully things will be better in the morning. |
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Oh wow. Just woke up. I was dreaming that non-bf proposed and it was the 1950s. I saw the ring and the small house, the young kids and crayons and toys. It was this huge surprise he put together. Crazy. I've never dreamed that before.
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It's funny what our minds can do while we are sleeping.
Are you feeling better today? |
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It sounds to me that you are doing all the right things Moose, though I am a little pissed off a your doctor. It seems to be that she should have called or had PER call, so that you didn't worry. If it comes to you being unable to control your suicidal thoughts, go to the hospital, it doesn't matter how many times you go in a week if you need it. Keep taking care of yourself.
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