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My husband has been out of state since Saturday, because his step dad was dx with terminal cancer after having brain surgery last week. My husband doesn't come home til this coming Saturday. I didn't think I should go since I just came out of an episode, but I was nervous for him to leave me. I'm now feeling sad and lonely. My 18 yo son is here, but he works and doesn't hang out with me much. I don't have reliable friends unfortunately or much family in this state. Oh well....felt like whining, so I did.

Aww Dij, I am sorry you are feeling sad and lonely. I am also sorry about your father in law. I know sad and lonely all too well. My bf works a lot, we live apart, my kids are at school all day, and I haven't made friends here in the 8 years I have lived here. I'm on here a lot, you can always talk to me if you want, I don't want you too feel lonely.

I hope everything goes well with your father in laws health. Hopefully your husband will be back before you know it.

dijmart!
(Hear you on the son thing... it's kind of hard when they're that age...mine's 19 and it took many months of trying to get a 2 minute call back....he's 2 states away. Still...)
Yup, we're here!
(Hehe, well, I will probably have to step away for a bit... been zombied-out on all day, and should probably move around a bit. Perhaps even a much needed shower(!) Eek.)
Will definitely be around though!

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Yeah, I know sad & lonely too ...
Sorry your husband's gone & why he's gone. That's rough, for everyone.
I'll be thinking about you as I try to get back to FL.

Lay it on us. My shoulders are feeling especially wide this morning.

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Thanks so much everyone
I'm okay, just wishing hubby would come home, but can't ask him too under the circumstances. However, I wish he would. He called last night and I just couldn't put on an act that everything was fine. He asked if I'll be ok til he gets home and I said yeah. So, I just have to suck it up.

It's my son's birthday today. So, I told him we'd go out to eat. Something to look forward to today.

As far as friends... My friend who lives 5 min. away has been a total idiot the whole time I've been home. I gave up on her, because if it's not all about "her", then she's not interested. So, On Sunday I was suppose to get together with another girl I met at the hospital , I was fully ready to leave, ready to walk out the door and she called saying she was sick. So that was the start of a baby funk and it's been snow balling since I haven't had a "new" friend in quite a while and have been bored out of my mind.

Also, while I'm at it.... I don't have the best relationship with my mom. Some people may remember me posting she's selfish. However, she called the day before yesterday and said her and her husband (who's a paraplegic) were terrorized the other day- Her bell rung, she opened the door, 2 men wearing black and ski masks barged in to their home. One of the men ransacked their house, while the other man kept pushing my mom down repeatedly (she was trying to get up), then she was punched in the head a few times before they left- she's 65 yrs old! She tried to call 911 when they left and the phone was dead. Come to find out their phone line had been cut from the outside of their house by these criminals, but my mom had a cell phone. One of the men were caught by police and is in jail, but the other one got away.

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OMG... Husband called after I was done writing my last post and we got into a fight...

Long story, but my son swapped cars with someone yesterday. His Nissan 240 for a different Nissan 240...even trade pretty much. Well my son asked my husband and he was fine with it. My husband has been restoring a chevelle in our garage, but when my son got home with the new Nissan it needed some work and it was pouring rain, so he pulled it into the garage next to my husband chevelle (mind you my husband just painted this chevelle last week). Anyways it was fine. I made sure my son didn't touch my husbands car. My son took some pics of his car and sent them to my husband and he noticed the car is in the garage with his chevelle and he was mad.

So, he calls me this morning going off... saying my sons car shouldn't be in the garage, now that he's gone he can't trust that I'm looking after things, my sons getting away with murder, saying if my son keeps it up he's kicking him out, on and on and on.

Anyways, I told him "hey, you've taken my garage spot for over a year now, because of your stupid chevelle!".....he said something else (can't remember)...then I screamed like a lunatic .."I DON'T WANT TO ARGUE WITH YOU, I DON'T WANT TO HEAR IT!!!!!" and hung up on him. He called back about 5 min later. I didn't answer and he just said on the machine for me to pick up....but I didn't.

When I hung up the phone on him I was screaming and crying afterwards.... I can't believe this just happened!

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Oh, dijmart, what a morning already. I ache for you .

Of course I understand. Doubt I could have held it together a bit better. Your moms news was such a emotional wrench, then the rest. Awww... NotFair!NotFair!NotFair!

((((dijmart))))

I'll be thinking about you...

[Trippin2.0]

Thinking of you hun... Sending Lots of hugs your way...

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I didn't think it could get worse...but...it has. My work called just a bit ago and said one of my co-workers that I was close to, who had cancer, died yesterday.....

I feel like I'm in a dream....

[Charlie_J]

I don't know what to say except for....

[BNLsMOM]

Hugs to you. Man, you are going through a lot right now. I hope it settles down for you soon. You'll be back at work in a few days and will have a routine to help you get through these hard times.

as Roadrunner said, not fair not fair not fair. This is really not fair. I wish I could give you a huge hug, or lend you my shoulder, take you out for a coffee. I am so sorry it seems to be snowballing. One thing I have noticed in my life, is that when things start to snowball, is that at the end of it all things usually turn out better than before, you just have to get through it. That is a lot of losses you are being faced with right now, and at the worst time.

But I think will be able to pull through,I believe you are a strong woman Dij, and you have all of us standing right here behind you , if you need anything at all.

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Thanks very much for the hugs and kind words. I'm a little better... My husband and I worked it out. But boy did I cry like a baby for most of our conversation...I just can't take anymore stress and I thought he was over reacting a lot anyways.

Thanks again...

[~Christina]

Im so sorry all of this mess is just getting bigger and bigger ..
Only advice I can give is find what ever it is that can help calm you down and do it !
Mediatation? yoga? punching the hell out of a pillow?
Just Relax and know that thinds are going to improve . Remember to be KIND to YOURSELF !

Vent all you want ... Pm if you want ..

Sending you a HUGE hug

I am so sorry too

[alwaysrejoice]

When it rains it pours! Sending hugs your way...things will get better!

Ohhhh, dijmart!!!
At a loss for words... so much in such rapid sucession...yikes.

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I went out to eat with my son for his B-day...I feel lots better.

My eyes are still extremely puffy from all the crying and screaming I did, but oh-well. Boy did I have a melt down today. Hope NOTHING ELSE HAPPENS, cuz I have to get my act together....I'm suppose to go back to work Monday.
thanks to everyone

Im glad you got to share a nice time with your son on his birthday!! Especially when you needed it. I think your gonna be ok kid No really , I think your gonna do good!

[AniManiac]

Wow, talk about a rotten day! Definitely not fair. We're all here to listen if you need ears. Glad you were able to pull things together and enjoy going out with your son - and you have going back to work to look forward to, so hang in there.