WTF... WhatsTheFuss?

Right now I'm just numb, bordering heavily on apathetic...

Is there anyone, like a teacher, neighbor, friend's mother--anyone like that--you could talk with? I hate your feeling so along. People at PC care about you, but you need someone there with you.

RRBB, Really, there isn't anybody. The people I thought I could reach out to, I've tried, and some of them tried too. But either they're emotionally unavailable these days, or really don't get it. Don't worry bout me. For some stupid reason I always make it thru, even when I don't want to. (what can I say? It's a curse)

HaHa! Jordan says I'm just 'a little useless' I'll be fine once I get a job. LMAO Well a little useless is much better than completely riight?

I really know how you feel Trippin, I am so low right now, Ive lost three jobs in the last 5 weeks, all of them saying that I couldnt do the job that they wanted me to do. Its been so devastating to have that happen. I've been fighting so hard since I lost my last job, I have to figure out a way to pay for my living expenses. It was made even worse with it being the holidays, and having to tell people that I dont have a job. Pretty much I suck at life.
Its hard to plan ahead at this time, I feel that I dont even have control over the things that can happen in the next couple of weeks. I want to go back to school, but lack of finances may prevent that, so I may be forced to make really hard decisions and try to get jobs that are going to make me hate my life... if thats even more possible then I do right now.
I have turned so suicidal, but I feel that if I do that I let people down.

Yeah, I know you feel. I'm currently unemployed, so I feel so useless, and I can't find a job. Ive lost 3 jobs in the past 5 weeks, and it being the holidays just makes me feel horrible. All the rest of the people in my family and have jobs, both of my brothers have significant others, and I cant find anyone. I feel really suicidal, but I feel that if I do that I let people down to. Either way I have failed so many times, and I feel that the next thing that I try I will find some way to fail too.

I feel that I have failed so many times, I have lost 3 jobs in the last 5 weeks. Especially when it has been around the holidays it makes it extremely hard. Seeing my siblings one with a wife and the other with a fiance and myself being a failure on that front too. I feel so suicidal but I feel if I do that I will also be a failure too. I see no way to really win.

I'm going to go back to school. Had that job in October. What is it with us and jobs?! Are we afraid? Do our symptoms just over power us?

Oh, Hoots--losing 3 jobs in 5 weeks during the Christmas season. I would call that proof that life sucks, not that you suck at life. Nobody's that inept. You are caught up in a tidal wave of NotFairNotFairNotFair. It's a complex world & if I had time & could remember all the intricacies, I would try to explain all the reasons you might have been fired--& given that reason--that had nothing to do with you.

I can sure understand how that experience, in a generally depressive context, would make you feel devastated and left wondering how you are going to survive. But you haven't always been in this position, and there's no reason to think that you always will be, is there? Suicide, you may have heard, is a final solution to a temporary problem.

Please hang out here, post a lot, visit the forums, see what you can find here in the way of support. Start your own thread--this is Trippin2's & she's a generous sweetheart, but you can have your own.

Update Update People, friends FAMILY! I'm feeling more positive (bout the future that is) my present might not be what I'd like, but I can make an effort to improve my future. My daughter says i don't completely suck, i just need to keep at it, LOL. So ya, that's where I'm at!
Thanks to all my wonderful peeps who continue to support, understand and love me no matter how hopeless I seem at times. XOXO

Ah, Trippin, when I think of you the word "hopeless" never comes to mind! You are sweet & lovable & huggable. And your daughter is right. In fact, I don't think you suck a bit.!

I'm so glad you're having a better day.

Roadrunner

To me, this is the key insight - next time you feel down, I hope you remember it!

When we're depressed, it's hard to keep everything (anything) in perspective, but you can always try to do something about your situation because there are always options (whether they are agreeable or not) and the future is changeable. I don't buy the "anything is possible" BS, but there are many more possibilities than we can imagine.

As everyone likes to say around here, live in the moment. I'd note that sometimes living in the moment means working on the future, too - just don't let tomorrow's "possible" eclipse today's "actual."

Glad you're feeling better, Trippin - hope it lasts awhile!

Thanks guys! You're all so MAJORLY FANTASTIC! h u g MWAHZ

YAY !! glad your feeling better

Awweee...You sound like me sometimes....It will get better...One day at a time...