[dirt69juggalo]

Its been months 6 to be exact since I had what could be called a manic episode instead I've been cycling between "normal" and brutal depressions that last a week or two at a time and almost always end with me in the hospital after doing something stupid. Four times in six months I've been in the hospital and for the last three days or so I can feel another depressive swing starting I don't want to end up in the hospital again. I just started getting my life back on track from the last two weeks I spent there

[kindachaotic]

(((((dirt69))))) So, so sorry you're having such a struggle & feel after all this you are dipping again.

Except for a couple close calls, I've been able to avoid the hospital. So please excuse my ignorance here on some questions.
Don't know how long you stay each time but don't they see you are cycling or not understand it when you tell them? After 4 times you have got to be beyond exhausted. Is there some aftercare or day hosp when you get out, therapy?

You say you usually go in after doing something stupid. Again, after 4 times, hasn't semone picked up on how the cycling affects your personal life, between hospitalizations? Maybe I'm confused on your situation?

Hopefully this dip won't lead to anything that would have you cycling.
Sending many good thoughts your way & keep posting.

[RapidFlyer]

On of the things I had to do when I was going in and out of the hospital was identify what it was that set off the cycle. It took a lot of hard work with my T and Pdoc but we finally figured it out and got me on the right meds and slowed down the trips to the Hospital. We also started working out ways to not have disasterous endings getting me to hospital. I started going in before I acted out.

Things slowly improved. I don't have a quick fix. I used to be in and out of the hospital constantly. Today, I don't have to be. (So Far) it's still an option if my meds don't straighten me out.

Good luck. Hang in there. It is an option to go in before acting out. I didn't know that for a very long time.

(((((((((((((((((((((((((dirt69juggalo)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

[kindachaotic]

(((dirt69))) How are you today?

I know yesterday was starting to worry you with the depression & your many hosp stays so close together.

Don't know what kind of support system you have, besides T & pdoc, but hopefully there is someone IRL to talk to.

Sending good thoughts your way.

[tutitaylor]

Dirt69- I am sorry that you are having such a hard time. I hope that you are feeling better soon. keep in touch and let us know how you are doing. Tuti