[blossom12]

That is what pdoc told me my concomittant anxiety/irritability/depression is called. I am not moving back and forth. Just sticking with it all at the same time. He said like a smoldering fire. It sucks. It is new for me.
Usually just have the standard depression with rare hypomania (since medicated).

So he added Trileptal and interestingly, said the previous pdoc had me on way too high doses of Neurontin and Lamictal and said Neurontin has not been shown to provide much help for bipolar, though does help with anxiety but thought we could better treat it with something else once we get the Trileptal regulated.

[Playgirlluvpup]

I have alot of mixed state. I am not in medication no more. I have set up my own way to deal with it. I run and do zumba. I have 3 kids, and a full time mom with a full time work. When I start feeling like my world is going to end and no one understand me and I keep going in circles and saying I'm going to die while trying to cut my self....... I break plates and stuff I don't need. Haha, sounds crazy but I end up laughing and I stop.

[bluemountains]

My diagnosis says mixed states, not sure if that means mixed states at the time of diagnosis, or all of the time. Right now I am cycling upward instead of in a mixed state. I feel anxious, elevated, irrational, racing thoughts, little sleep, rapid speech, but not depressed.
Ask me next week and all may be different.

Bluemountains

[Merlin]

I usually cycled through mixed states. I always found that they were the worst episodes and most dangerous. I think I was in a mixed state every time I attempted suicide.

[beauflow]

I have recently started to wonder --- with this week and recent events, if I am in "mixed state" or if this is rapid cycling for me... I just don't know.

At times I feel Awesome but Suicidal at the same time even-- Then I can have hours of feeling suicidal (actually planning not just the flight ideas or wishing- getting the plan down and the supplies ready and going out) but then fear of failure and finding out the if the cause of failure happen what could happen... so i said wait another day; still was depressed for about 4 hours after that but yet I went out to the store and stuff (unusual thing for me when feeling this way- I usually dread to see people, let alone go out)... then when I got home I talked to my boyfriend-- Mixed state there of happy and depressed, then I got all happy and almost like hypomania (I stayed up the rest of the day - I work nights by the way so I was up all night and then the day) and doing crafts, posting on here and stuff (wednesday) then, ugh- Wednesday night I was awesome, but Thursday morning/afternoon I started to seep back down- and it felt like my inside emotions were being a ping pong going up and going down- ... and now with my friday night shift-- I have exploded again (i did this on Tuesday as well but not as huge as today).... and again I felt this awesomeness but yet suicidal feeling... I don't like this at all.

Does this sound like mix state or rapid cycling-- I am writting it down for my Therapist as well -- I have a lot to go over and doubt there will be enough time ( i have not seen her and when i do it will be 3 weeks-- which when I saw her last I was upset, down, suicidal but did not want to talk to her; then I felt better when talking to my boyfriend about the problem,... and then now this is going on)

sorry -- I just saw this and was about to post a question on it-- but figured I could write it here sory it is long. thanks

[blossom12]

I have not felt happiness in months, or mania, or hypomania. just irritability, guilt, anxiety, and depression.
Sounds like yours is rapid cycling.

[Forgive77]

My mixed state is like I'm going to go up...like I can see some light...but I crash down again...not all the way down just a little down...my anxiety is so freaking high that I feel it in every part of my body, and all I can think is "You will feel so much better if you put your hands on the stove...ya ya...that'll make it all go away." Then I have to talk to myself, and remember I'm supposed to hold ice when this happens. I hate mixed states...there have been times I would have rather been depressed. b/c my lows are so low that it's beyond feeling suicidel....I'm almost catitonic. Hope that helps.

[~Christina]

I rapid cycle constantly its terrible up down up down up down and all around !

[xp1155]

Originally Posted by Merlin

I usually cycled through mixed states. I always found that they were the worst episodes and most dangerous. I think I was in a mixed state every time I attempted suicide.

I rapid cycle and I sometimes get mixed states. Usually, I can get through them; but last Saturday I almost took myself to the hospital. It was absolutely terrifying inside my mind. I can see myself through some disturbing stuff, but this was pure madness. I can relate to your experiences.

[Forgive77]

I'm in one right now...yeay....such fun. Gotta go hold ice.

[blossom12]

Originally Posted by Forgive77

I'm in one right now...yeay....such fun. Gotta go hold ice.

[dragonfly2]

My mixed states can be absolutely gut-wrenching, and are definitely the most volatile. Something will usually get broken during one. It's like an emotional tornado has ripped through me, and once the fury dies down, that's when things are the most dangerous for me.

[dragonfly2]

Originally Posted by Forgive77

I'm in one right now...yeay....such fun. Gotta go hold ice.

Stay safe.

[blossom12]

"something usually gets broken during this state".

Yes, mixed states broke my relationship. But it took me saying the things I did and him being unable to stand by me that really broke it. I dont know me and he doesnt either.

[dragonfly2]

Originally Posted by blossom12

"something usually gets broken during this state".

Yes, mixed states broke my relationship. But it took me saying the things I did and him being unable to stand by me that really broke it. I dont know me and he doesnt either.

[Lou8]

Originally Posted by bluemountains

My diagnosis says mixed states, not sure if that means mixed states at the time of diagnosis, or all of the time. Right now I am cycling upward instead of in a mixed state. I feel anxious, elevated, irrational, racing thoughts, little sleep, rapid speech, but not depressed.
Ask me next week and all may be different.

Bluemountains

I find that I have anxiety quite bad, esp. in the mornings, so I am upping my zyprexa from 2.5 to 4 tonight and seeing if that will help my anxiety. Do you think this is a good idea? I take it with celexa 20 mg. but if I go up to 30 mg. on the celexa then I get the bad mania with hostility and fear.
Thanks

[xp1155]

I got back into one today. I don't think it's dangerous yet. It's not as bad as it was last Saturday.