Bi Polar II and Depression

Well ever since I was diagnosed, I have always been battling the depression part of my illness.....Lately, I have been wishing that I would want to go into a hypomanic state.... I know that this probably sounds silly or weird, but I am tired of feeling so depressed..... UGH !!!!

I don't think it sounds silly to want some UNsad after being depressed. Mania is not all that fun though and even hypo mania can get you into trouble.

No, that doesn't sound weird. I suffer most from the depressive end of my bipolar and I frequently wish I could have a good hypomanic for a few days. Of course, I hope that the hypo doesn't slide into a full fledged manic episode, too.

I'm guessing we aren't the only 2 wishing for this.

I am right there with you on that. I have been wishing for a little hypomania. It would be a welcomed change in my life right now. Not weird or silly, we just want to feel good after feeling bad for so long.

I know how you feel, wishing for the hypomania... it feels so good when it comes, it's almost addicting. I'll admit, I've had my moments where I've contemplated going off my meds so I could feel the hypomania.

The funny thing is, when the hypomania turns dysphoric, I find myself wishing I was depressed. Yeah, depression sucks, but at least the restlessness, anxiety, and racing thoughts don't plague me.

Depression dominates my life and has for many years. I was initially diagnosed with depression until a few years later when I became manic and everything started to make sense. Last summer I tried to force myself to become manic by trying to trigger it similar to how I accidentally triggered it the first time but it didn't work this time. My point is mommyof2girls you are not alone.

Totally get you, but hope for normal, it's better than hypomania because it's sustainable for longer! Hugs and hope you get over your depression into a whole lot of really good normality soon!

The thing I miss most is hypomania, but I had so much more depression that it's worth giving up the nice highs to get rid of the miserable never-ending lows.

I sure do wish I could have a little of that euphoria, but I'll take stability any day. Thank goodness my meds make that possible!

OMG - I can so relate. My depression is so dark, it is hard to get out of bed. A good day is I get dressed, brush my teeth and make something to eat. A really good day is I actually leave the house (usually has to be with someone). I have been actually entertaining the idea that perhaps I have borderline personality disorder and that is why every medication they have thrown at me hasn't worked. The next thing for me is ECT. Hears praying for all of us suffering and hope that it is around the corner.