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Old Feb 19, 2012, 08:15 PM
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I read somewhere that sometimes it takes a lot of "mini break-ups" before it really sticks.
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Old Feb 19, 2012, 08:58 PM
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i just wrote him an email- I feel some better. I couldn't express myself via text or on the phone- I'd get too upset- but emails are just that bit more detached so they can't reply right away and ruin your train of thought.
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Old Feb 19, 2012, 09:01 PM
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Oh and I'm still having visions of taking many sleeping pills, but I guess I'm distracting myself enough. I do feel much calmer than I did last Monday. I feel sleepy now. And Tuesday at 10 is when I see my pdoc. This board has helped me SO much to make it through each day one at a time.
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 12:26 AM
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Moose just keep posting and we will all keep supporting you

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Old Feb 20, 2012, 02:24 AM
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PER again - NO HELP!!!!  *TRIGGER*
My other fiend is breaking UP with me as I tyPe. Six yeasZ. Fml
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 11:27 AM
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PER again - NO HELP!!!!  *TRIGGER*
My other fiend is breaking UP with me as I tyPe. Six yeasZ. Fml
That's my post from earlier....?

Having emails back and forth now. Hard but easier than the texting. Going to go see a friend in the hospital. Might do me good.
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 03:22 PM
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It's hard. Still emails back and forth and tomorrow is my pdoc appointment. I don't think I've ever wanted to see my pdoc more.
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 04:17 PM
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Im glad your looking forward to seeing your Pdoc ... I sure do hope your able to find some ways to destress and get yourself feeling better ,, you have had too much hurt lately (((( Hugs )))))
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 05:14 PM
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I still feel rotten. Not only do I have to grieve but I have to grieve retroactively!
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Old Feb 20, 2012, 10:23 PM
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Will be back here to update about my pdoc around 11 am est.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 11:20 AM
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We talked hospitalization. She didn't seem to think I needed it but rather talk therapy and she told me she couldn't change my situation. For the underlying depression I got a script for celexa which I'm waiting on now.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 02:29 PM
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The Celexa might help. It helps a lot of people. Talk therapy is great. I love talk therapy.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 03:59 PM
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The Celexa might help. It helps a lot of people. Talk therapy is great. I love talk therapy.
Writing sad but brutally honest emails to "nonbf" and listening to requiems. Just like a scene out of a movie.

I've seen this same therapist for years and she never needs to read notes during my sessions.

My pdoc just really just said that what I want I can't have. Everything seems to be extra hard!

However, a long-time friend and I have been chatting again. (I visited him a few weeks ago.) He's SO great about the issues as of late. I am so lucky to have him around. Never judges me for anything to do with bipolar- ever. I need that so much. Instead of judging me he tells me I'm great.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 04:09 PM
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I'm getting a new tdoc. I'm going to miss my old one, but I made her crazy.
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I'm getting a new tdoc. I'm going to miss my old one, but I made her crazy.
You made her crazy? You mean its catching?
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You made her crazy? You mean its catching?

I suppose...lol
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 05:37 PM
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ugh. Feel anxious again and crappy insurance won't pay for my drugs. Well, not the ones I need like allergy stuff and migraine stuff.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 05:42 PM
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ugh. Feel anxious again and crappy insurance won't pay for my drugs. Well, not the ones I need like allergy stuff and migraine stuff.
My insurance is dropping me as of 3/1 because I make too much money on disability.

I get Medicare on 5/1. I don't know what to do exactly.
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my mother is here. Drinking. I feel trapped. I think they're conspiring against me. and my pdoc prolly wouldn't give a flying fig. Just tell me to leave.
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My insurance is dropping me as of 3/1 because I make too much money on disability.

I get Medicare on 5/1. I don't know what to do exactly.
That hardly seems likely. Making to much money on disability, that is.
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Hope your feeling ok Moose
Had spaghetti for dinner. That's rare. So I'm full at least. Watching tv with my daughter. Going to read to my youngest- Winnie the Pooh stories. Feeling okay, yes. I know it will take two weeks, but I hope the celexa will do something soon- even a sedative effect.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 07:58 PM
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The limit is like 150$ below what I make. That's irritating.
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Old Feb 21, 2012, 10:31 PM
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I just had a HUGE fight- HUGE - with "him". After 25 emails and now this phone conversation I am exhausted emotionally. I can't deal. And one little celexa won't un-upset me. Its SOOOOOOOOOOO hard. Hard!!!! Why someone would pick this week to upset me this much is beyond me.
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Old Feb 22, 2012, 11:53 AM
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Really felt like cutting today in the shower. I really don't know what keeps me from doing it except that then they might say him BPD. (YUCK IMO)
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