[venusss]

I mean no offense by this post... But the following passages may be controversial. Reader discretion adviced. Politics and radical sociology mentioned.





So you probably seen me talking about Icarus Project, which prides itself as being a radical MH community, not just in approach on mental health, but life in general.

I wonder if slight (or not so slight) tendency towards anti-mainstream ideologies is part of diagnostic labels (I know not officialy, but on personal level perhaps?).

I had a bit of anarchist edge since like... kindergarden. And that was when we called teachers comrade... and even back then I did sometimes doubt their rules made sense. I was really really into the whole velvet revolution and not just because my parents were. I beat up one kid for being a communist (they did claim so lol).

I wanted to be a dissindent or a politician to make major major changes....

And the thing is... I never grew up from this. I studied politics extensivelly and yet, it only coins in my radical edge. I see problem with society, I always did, even as a child.

Are you senstive to what is going on around you? Does the world make you sad? Do you feel personally betrayed when something happens somewhere, because you feel it's attack on your personal view of how things should be? Do you feel interconnected with world to the level that it hurts you when there is trouble in remote parts of the planet?

(don't suggest to turn off the news. It won't work. I will still see the problems out there and know they are there).

Yes, yes, yes, and yes. Watch away! Sometimes I try to not watch, well much of the time but like you said.. It changes nothing. I know what's going on, I see it. I've always been the way I am, not unaware. Thing is tho I don't deal with it well. I can do what I can to help things but it doesn't fix what's wrong, maybe it helps a little on a small spectrum. Hence I try to shut it down, because it makes me feel scarred from the inside out. I've always had a hard time facing the world for what it is, I feel almost like an alien with this, an alien in pain and disbelief.

I don't really know how to explain it better, but I feel like I am not "of" this.

[venusss]

Interesting article I found.........

http://www.madinamerica.com/2012/02/...-mentally-ill/

At first I thought the question was Are you a bit of an antichrist? ...

Seriously, I did ... I've never been diagnosed with dyslexia, but sometimes I wonder ...

I find that I don't have much use for religion or government the older I get ... They seem to be too corrupt and have way too much power ... And they use it in such an inappropriate manner that it seems they almost delight in getting off on effing up other peoples lives ...

Does that make me either or both? (anarchist / antichrist)

Sincerely,
BrokenCloud

[Trippin2.0]

I relate! I relate! I relate!
I can't find the words to describe, but OMG I feel you guys.
Now I don't feel so weird

Interesting article Venus, thanks for posting that.

[Trippin2.0]

Great article.
It got me thinking...
From a very young age my dad always encouraged me to ask questions, to not just accept and follow blindly

I'm sure he wanted to kick himself when I questioned his parenting and disciplinary methods

New teachers didn't approve of me at first, they didn't like me correcting them, pointing out contradictions or asking too many questions. For some reason, as they got to know me (and my grades) most of them ended up liking me, and we got on well. When I was 10 the Principal called my father coz I refused to recite the Angelis (prayer to angels) or genuflect infront of a statue( Catholic school, I'm Presbyterian) she didn't appreciate me asking if genuflecting was akin to idolatory. Needless to say I was labeled insubordinate from Primary to High school. I even challenged our HS Principal in my senior year, but won't get into that
Some teachers openly threatened to fail me coz they thought I wasn't paying attention, I was mostly just bored out my mind... They didn't know that exam time was my favourite part of school

No offense to any Americans, but for once in my life I'm glad to be South African. Here we are not so quick to chemically castrate... I shudder to think what would've happened to me had I been American.

I've never taken authority at face value. Just because someone is in charge, it doesn't mean they know what they are doing. People are ruining the world with their greed, powerlust, & hypocrisy without even a tinge of good reason: It is just because they can. It's irritating because it has always affected me.
I'm part Egyptian, I dress alternatively, I believe unorthodox spiritual beliefs, I've always lived in poverty... People who are incompetent, bigoted assholes have always had the upperhand & for no good ****ing reason. I'm bright & I've had to 'learn' from people who don't know their foot from their ***. I'm open minded in a world that has blinders on.
I used to want to make a difference just because I think I would make a better authority figure, but ultimately, I would just become one of them. Once I have money & my own means, perhaps I can escape everyone else's society so I can live in peace. Comfortably. Maybe I'll write a book, but so many books have been written & disregarded. The pen is not mightier than the sword...

[grendell]

No offense intended at all but none of this seems all that radical?

[forever]

You can add me to the yes, yes, yes group as well. From a very early age, I noticed that what my parents and family were teaching was flawed. They were extremely prejudice, that did not stop them from hiring a black lady to take care of me. I loved her and she was so much nicer than anyone else I knew. So it made me question their judgement. I was about seven or eight when this occurred and I have been questioning authority every since then.

The news and politics can cause me to become very upset. Occasionally, I do have quit reading the news.