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Hi everyone, I am an avid reader of our community. I don't write much, because I'm intimidated by all the witty thoughtful answers!! I think I've lost some of my brain power due to life in general. So, I have been having this feeling that won't go away, that I just don't belong in this world. I'm not sad about it, it's really just matter of fact. I feel like a robot going through day to day motions. Anyone else ever deal with this? Thanks
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Yup, sure have. My brain just gets slow, and stuff doesn't come out. Really foggy and just I don't know ... Auto. Please don't feel like not posting here tho, I've done that too, I'm not highly educated and I am not really articulate so feel intimidated at times. You have lots of experience under you and that's a valueable asset. You fit here just as much as anyone else.
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Anika, you do not give yourseld enough credit. YOu are kind, wise & articulate. I always enjoy your post!!
![]() (((kj44))) Could have written this post about myself, you are not alone. Every day seems the same. I've been to therapy, take the meds. IDK... Been told to get a hobby, find exercise class, take non-credit class, other suggestions. But, WAAAAAAY easier said than done, for several reasons. Maybe some day we'll figure this out... Take care. ![]() |
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You most definately belong here. I feel that way sometimes too. They are all so bright and I feel like the meds have taken my smarts away. I know that it has affected some of my neurological traits. Sometimes I try really hard to say something but it doesnt come out right. I stutter from time to time. This is all since the medication. Its so aggrivating to me. I am also not completely educated and I feel silly at times.
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I feel as though this world is not my home. I have to go on day to day and try to stay alive. I feel as a robot, doing the things I need to do, and don't get pleasure from it.
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kj44... I feel kind of like what your describing.... it might be the same sentiment but with different words or something. I feel that I am something other than human (yes weird?) and I am surrounded by humans. It's not a psychotic thing (not today anyhow) but more like being unable to identify with most of the values (esp, the superficial ones) that the humans live by or something.
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Wow, thanks for all the replies!! I've tried so hard to be normal, hobbies, and trying to socialize, its just not in me. I do well at work, for a period of time, I can usually last at least a year. People really like me there, and , I wonder why? I am generally a nice person, but, we all have are moments! I guess I just feel fake. I want to come out of the box for a while, live the real life , ya know? Thanks for all your replies, they were wonderful, as usual!!
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Grendell,
I know just what you mean, I feel pretty alien at times. Feel like I am not "of" this world. Same reason too, I cannot identify with many things humans do, I am often misunderstood for my values, choices, and what I live by. |
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What do you think you are holding back Kj? When you say you want to live the real life?
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Anika, Do you ever people watch? It could be as simple as living as they do, normally. Or, it could be the extreme, which I prefer, living on the edge, day by day. I've often thought of just leaving, and ending up wherever I end up. I was homeless from 13yrs, until I was 22. Medication puts me in the box, its a safe box, usually. Who wants to be safe all the time? I'm older now, so, I need to be safer. It really sucks! Hope I'm not rambling?
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Yup I understand, homeless from 14 to 20 yrs old myself. It was a huge adjustment that took years.
Maybe there is something you could do to get the risk feeling, but still being relatively safe? Rock climbing, stuff like that? Even when I go snowboarding or ride my bmx I get that feeling. I'll try to think of some that are not sports related tho, there must be some. I was just thinking... Learn how to make sushi, there's gotta be risk in that, that you might get food poisoning. That's not a good idea I don't think haha. Don't do that. |
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You are too funny! I did go para-sailing, loved it. Just don't live by water like that. If I could ride roller coasters everyday, I would probably be OK. Maybe I should work for the carnival, that would be a risk, huh? Glad you made it through your teen years, I know how hard it was. Thanks for making me laugh today!
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You can also flip it the other way and I think that might pretty much be the point of every zombie film I have ever seen. You know world is full of zombies (normal people)..... but one person isn't one (me)..... they do what they need to do to avoid becoming a zombie (rebel, etc, etc)..... occasionally they come across other survivors (maybe in a forum?)........ and so on and so on... I think fitting in is a zombie thing to do I suppose...... survivors are survivors because of their individuality and the incredible creativity they have used to survive......... try fitting in around a bunch of survivors and they might think you are a zombie or something...... ok i am raving on.... stop now. |
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I know what you mean about not belonging. I feel disconnected from people most of the time. I get along alright and I have good relationships with the people I work with but I only have really one close friend.
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