Aware of the seizure in an ect treatment?

Is it possible to be slightly aware of the seizure in an ect treatment? I thought I had a dream during treatment, but I can't make sense of it. I can't even describe it because I think it was just a disturbing set of images that don't actually exist. That's the best I can do.

I am having flashbacks to it, and it is so unclear. It left me with a severely disturbed feeling, and it is getting worse with each fuzzy flashback. I can't stop them from coming. It is kind of like when I was having invasive images of hurting myself. I had no control.

This is actually scaring me.

I'm not sure what you would have been aware of as at least physically there is no movement during ECT treatment except usually one toe so they can see that the seizure is happening. I would guess you could certainly have a dream during the treatment. I don't have any idea if I dreamed or not, but I generally don't remember my dreams anyway.

Have you contacted the treating psychiatrist with your concerns? They are the ones who have dealt with many patients over time so he might be able to tell you if this happens sometimes.

I didn't realize it until I was out of the clinic. I will check with him on Monday. They're closing right now.

Serious flashbacks, but I can't make sense of any of it. I am so anxious.

I am not even dwelling on it, it just comes to me. I am scared.

Is it possible its from something else? - and the ECT has triggered the flashbacks?

I never had any dreams during treatments - I actually didnt think it was possible because youre under a general anasthesia not actually sleeping. But I have no idea really.

Hope it improves soon

The director of ect didn't know what it was. Neither did the anesthesiologist. The worst part is that it happened again. Same dream, I think, definitely the same disturbed feeling, and plenty of flashbacks. It is getting worse.

Also my blood pressure was up before, during and after treatment today. It was in the 140s-150s over 90s-100s. I see my pdoc and T and PCP this week.

I need help with these flashbacks. I have never had real flashbacks before. Does this mean that ect is giving me PTSD?

Talked to T today and he helped me with some childhood memories that produced the same feeling as these flashbacks. I don't know if it is connected to the ect nightmares, but it is a start. Sadly he goes on vacation for two weeks so I won't see him till July 11.

There is a lack of response here which tells me that this doesn't happen much. I am the queen of weird reactions to treatments. I hope I can get through the rest of my treatments because I am starting to notice small positive differences and I want to continue treatment.

I just don't want to be traumatized by my treatment.

I once woke up after the ECT but before the muscle paralytic had worn off. I suddenly felt totally awake and I couldn't move. Then I was out again. It lasted just seconds.

I'm not sure ECT is common round these parts...I've never known anyone to accept the option, mostly lots of drugs so, although I know some people on these boards have tried it, I don't think it is that common so, you don't get so many replies like you would if you were to ask about some drug.

I just read an article about ECT and it says that in the US 100,000 people have ECT every year. Much more common than you would think, people just don't talk about it.

I had my bp checked and it was 98/70. I guess I am just anxious during my treatments.

Stupid flashbacks, though. I keep having the same feeling I had when I was having the treatment. Maybe it is as I am coming out of anesthesia? Whatever it is, it is scaring me that everyone is so puzzled by it. My pdoc didn't know what it was either, and said that things like that shouldn't be happening with ect.

Yesterday was the worst. I thought I was going to scream. My T is out of town for the next two weeks.

I guess I have to suck it up and deal because the treatment is starting to work in subtle ways.

I just really need my T.