What is your most problematic Bipolar symptom?

For me, it's the inability to focus and the need for excitement. I could never knit. I tried to learn with a church group once, and they said I talked too much! I can't read fiction, but I can read nonfiction if I am interested in the subject. I have no patience for regular tv shows, but I can tolerate some of reality tv. I can't swim in our home swimming pool, but I can have a great time at a water park.
All of these things really bother me because I need exciting situations in order to enjoy life with my children. They ask me to do regular stuff, such as playing a board game or a game of basketball, and I can't do it, not because I don't want to spend time with them, but because the idea of focusing on one activity for any amount of time is too hard!
Bluemountains

The depression and suicidal thoughts are hardest for me. That awful feeling like my soul is rotting inside of me...not being able to get things done...feeling worthless and hopeless...it's awful.

Fighting that one right now. 5 cups of coffee got me to the computer...

Erm... I have a few I think!

Anxiety- everything makes me anxious its actually ridiculous

Paranoia- I have it at the moment, believing that no-one cares about me (can't get over it no matter how much I know deep down I am being paranoid)

Risky Behaviour- Jumping into traffic (manic/depressed) thinking about and wanting and having sex (manic) spending too much money (manic)

Suicidal thinking and self harming- (depressed)

Stopping meds-(manic/depressed)

Self pity-(depressed)

I deal with these on a daily basis, sometimes I have control and other well mostly I don't. Sometimes life is better not to have the control as well I would need to admit I have all of these symptoms. I mostly ignore them so as not to acknowledge I am ill.

Paranoia/Delusions.

RB ♥

Inability to focus and finish things but at the same time bored and want to start things,,,,,but when I start things I don't finish.

Endless cycle of nonsense

My severe depressions have been a challenge recently. They last any where from two weeks to a month and I have difficulty leaving my apartment.

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Yep, I'd say that's par for the course for me, too (as an added symptom).

It really is annoying, isn't it? Maybe it's because we're not sure of the
problems of the others while we're being evaluated by them--they may be loaded with problems of their own which seek our concern. (Sometimes I just think they have greater ability to hide the feelings than I do.)

I can be concerned for those people only so far, though, because it gets in the way of my thinking, too.

I can't tell you how many times I remember a psychiatrist saying to me, "how important is that person?" (I've begun to think it's part of their list of things to say to reduce anxiety.)

You hit a major nerve with me on that subject, too.

Thanks.

Genetic

"How important is that person?"? I've never been asked that although I've been told to do a cost-benefit analysis on them.

Sounds like the average employer's interpretation of the same question.

Anger issues.

Memory problems.

Severe monolithic depressions.
Anger/rage/agitation/pressurized impatience.
Never being able to keep it together long enough to accomplish anything of significance (like advanced schooling despite being really smart).

Can't really narrow it down to one.

This pretty much describes my most problematic symptoms. It leads to so many more problems. I'm flailing at work, and so overwhelmed being single mom of 3, and trying to keep a semblance of organization in their lives.

Mine would be the trouble focusing. I am a college student so it really gets in my way.

Depression wins hands down....

All if this.

disabling depression.........

"What is your most problematic Bipolar symptom?"

Psychotic Ideations about life, death, God, Satan etc. I am always getting into trouble with people for my psychotic ideas and they are worse during my manic cycles. I have been banned from countless bipolar forums for speaking my opinions which apparently upsets the rest of the bipolar world. I can't even make friends because of it. :-(

Then there's always that one person who makes a smart *** comment suggesting that I am in the wrong and they don't give a damn and why don't I just take my "Idiot" self and leave here bla bla bla crap that I hear everywhere I go...at times I believe being bipolar is just "F"ing hopeless.

The problem is that these kinds of bipolar oriented sites and forums are full of people with control issues and are passive aggressively pushing their weight around triggering people like me. So you see, this is my bipolar type problem that is unique to me and quite different than say a bipolar 2 who is always laying around depressed and not psychotic at all.

BipolarI Disorder, some people with bipolar II are psychotic during their depressions. Just saying. I was diagnosed bipolar II until very recently, and during my first depression, I thought that God wanted me to run away from home and become his prophet to make up for something that I had done. Some bipolar II people with depression hear voices telling them that they are worthless, etc. I'm just correcting the common misconception that people with bipolar II aren't psychotic.

Reminding myself to drop a thought that becomes a little too much and accept the fact that some things are out of our control and that I need to let faith work its miracles.

Genetic

I would say the damage the depression and manic does to my relationships I know I am responsible for my actions they just cause alot of burnt bridges.

My severe depression disables me the most.

mine's a cross between my lack of focus, and my helusinating.

but all my cymptoms are pretty bad

Mine would have to be depression and hallucinations. Those darn hallucinations can get the best of me sometimes.

Me too! Pre-meds it was (i thought) caused by the raciness. It was like if my thoughts were butterflies but I was in a butterfly storm so I'd try to follow one butterfly/Train of thought which would tak all of my concentration but was impossible, because following one thought when there were so many was too distracting, and I'd forget which thought I had been looking for in the first place.

Now I still can't think, though it is easier to get routine stuff done (go the humble list) but at work I just can't think at all. I forget what I am trying to do constantly and then feel stressed as I know I'm meant to be able to do us. Worst thing is its a new job in a new country which I have all the skills, but can't seem to get my self together to do, and the drugs have taken away my cover as normally my hypo manic self could put on a "confident" face.

I want my brain back, I know I'm really smart but I'm too mudded up to use it :/

Anyhow, know how you guys feel