falling back into depression

I'm slipping further and further into depression. It's getting bad. I miss not caring about anything. Now I care too much but won't do anything, making things worse. I look at my fish who I haven't fed today.. did I feed them yesterday? I don't even know. But the thought of feeding them sounds like such a huge task. I don't like taking my meds. My sleep schedule is so far off its ridiculous again. I feel like I can't handle anything anymore.

((((kris)))) so sorry you're feeling so low, please take your meds, they're meant to help, reach out irl if you can, and please PLEASE be kind to yourself.
I'm not very knowledgable bout time zones (read: I can't wrap my head around them AT ALL) but I'm pretty sure you posted early morning, my time. How are you feeling now? Same, better worse? Please check in.

Your worth it... so take your meds!

Try using a little chewable calcium about 30 minutes before going to bed. Sometimes that helps. Also try some calming reading, such as meditation before your eyes get heavy for sleep.

Good wishes,

Genetic

Are you still seeing a t?

Sorry your're going through it, Krisakira. one non-medicated help for depression is exercizing, my pdoc used to try to make me do it, but when you're down it's usually the last thing you want to do. Keep posting, hope you're ok

Krisakira Sorry your feeling this again... Please take your meds and contact your pdoc..Maybe just tweaking your meds will help?

Be kind to yourself

I SO understand about the fish!! When I am depressed, cleaning the kitty litter becomes a HUGE task. I do feed 'em though no matter what, and recommend that you make feeding your fish a priority, because should they die, it would throw you into far worse a depression!

I am sorry you are feeling so bad. I think it might be time to reach out to pdoc. I find when I talk to him early it's easier to prevent the depression from becoming severe or, if it is severe, from becoming life-threatening. As hard as it is, there are some habits that it is important to keep doing: meds, diet, exercise, sleep and other individual must-dos. When you let them go, it's almost inevitable that you continue to get worse. In my case, when I got depressed, I lost the desire to eat. I did an experiment one day and forced myself to eat supper and within about 30 min my mood improved from about a 2 to 3.5 (out of 10.) I was still depressed, but in taking care of myself, I improved my mood. I did not want to prepare supper, and I did not enjoy eating it, but I am glad that I did both.

now is the time to reach out for help - to your T and pdoc, friends and family. You need to stay safe. Try to set little goals, like feeding the fish, or making food and eating it like Merlin suggested. Then reward yourself for doing them. When the depression gets bad everything seems to hard so that means that doing anything is a huge achievement that you should congratulate yourself on... try to get out of the house for a bit during the day if you can - maybe for a walk or just to go to a coffee shop for a coffee, its hard work but it helps.

Please keep posting and let us know how you are doing, we are here to listen if you need someone to talk to...