whats the damn point in sleeping?

I've been trying for days for weeks for years to get a decent bloody rest!

I'm at the point where I reckon I am more stupid for expecting it to happen!....

I had one awesome sleep this year but it was over the instant I woke up!.

nutso!

no way to re-capture the elusive eyelid odyssey

...so what it's all over yesterday is finished today is half done I can't do nuthin' about it it's too bad!

I'm a lost soul a lost human damaged ...ouch!...oops...embarassed??

NO way!

this is what it's like for me ....cycling madness ...comfort in the chaos

just close my eyes for no reason I seen it all before darkness is brighter than daylight nasty sh.t!

damn it once again I said too much!

but what else to do ?

I thought I knew the edge been there and each time I come back it's different

like i'ts all new but it's not it's just I aint used to it

and here I am breaking my fu.king heart on purpose just to feel something!

and I don't even know how I am doing it it's just happening

tears are pouring down my face too many problems I hide all this
it comes out now why now? I need rest I need to sleep I can't sleep I want to sleep I want it to go away I hate this I love the feeling of chaos ! the pain makes sense of the emptiness the agony of nothing is brutal I want to cry forever let it all go I want to drain myself

I am so tired of thinking I should be sleeping I am so tired of it

Hope u get some sleep,
What all have u tried?
Around 10pm take a nice shower then eat some high carb food, then lay in bed and stop all thoughts, only focus on your breathing, ur mind will wander but keep coming back to ur breathing.
If it 7am and ur still wide awake focusing on your breathing, you should see a doctor ASAP

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I don't neeed a doctor.....thankyou yep.

been here before

what I need is to experience this bipolar upswing and trust it for once..

if anything?

the doctor needs me....for education...calm like and peaceful

this is a a bipolar upswing......the medical world is nuts at this point...

I am fine I am moving I am feeling things I am ok

I will deal with later later

Cool man, wish u the best!
Take good care of yourself

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damn you are fast

Fast like a NASCAR, iced like a superstar

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hehe...very cool

A long hot shower sounds good

Ah I wish I had a bathtub... I was quite a happy (and popular) lady when I had a hot tub!

hehe

I took a shower earlier. Refreshing!

Can you call your pdic and see if you can get Seroquel for sleep. It helped me once.

thankyou moose...

i am limited to only one medication.

during psychosis I have abused everything ever given to me.