[snugglebeary]

I feel like I have no body to talk to that will understand my problems. My family, friends, and boyfriend won't understand. I tried talking to my boyfriend about my problems and it almost ruined my relationship because I stress him out and worry him. My friends don't even understand me or care. My family won't listen. I can't go to the doctor since we can't afford it. My problems are so unexplainable.

Do you think I could talk to the school counselor? Would she understand?

[Anneinside]

That's exactly what she is there for... to listen and understand. Yes, talk to her.

[Moose72]

I agree. The school counsellor can help.

Hey "Snuggle", have you tried a crisis hotline? There are ways to find a counselor for free. Maybe for only a couple of sessions, but it will get you started. Seriously, do some research, ask your parents to call around and also your school counselor. DON'T GIVE UP ON YOURSELF. I hate to see you struggling and you need to get help before it gets bad. You really don't want it to get worse.

[snugglebeary]

What's the crisis hotline?

I know I need to get some help before it does get worst.

Does it tend to progress fast without treatment?

Its not the progressing fast that's a problem, it's what triggers it and how bad it affects you. But just like any illness, if you don't catch it early it will get worse. Before you know it, you'll be without friends, without family and without a mate......like me. Find a phone book and start calling around as soon as you can. Tell your loved ones to help if they care. Please get help "Snuggle"...please

[snugglebeary]

I've noticed that my relationships are not so good. I hardly talk to my family especially about problems like this because they try to find another reason why I act the way I am, I don't have many friends, and I have trouble with my boyfriend. I do have a friend that is bipolar, but she seems normal compared to me.
But I'll try to find some kind of help as soon as I can.

[Kahrey]

I understand that. It's like no one quite gets it and I think it just makes them tired and pushes them away.

The school counselor is definitely a good option.

As for crisis hotlines, I've never actually called, but I have used a chat one. I've been looking all over and I cannot find it anymore, but they are out there. A lot of them also offer texting if that is more comfortable for you. Please reach out to them, they can't give you advice, but they've sure gotten me through sometimes.

This is how it started out for me too "Snuggle". A very close person to me figured it out and I followed her advice and went for help. But due to his incompetence and my stubborness, it didn't help. He put me on meds that trashed my world. I got off and went on a destructive path of hurting people, my life, stupid manic descisions and ended up in isolation. Don't end up there.

[snugglebeary]

Originally Posted by WNT2bNRML

This is how it started out for me too "Snuggle". A very close person to me figured it out and I followed her advice and went for help. But due to his incompetence and my stubborness, it didn't help. He put me on meds that trashed my world. I got off and went on a destructive path of hurting people, my life, stupid manic descisions and ended up in isolation. Don't end up there.

When you said 'he' are you talking about the doctor, right?

My family stopped bringing me because they thought I was fine without the medicine and the medicine changed my personality. I heard the doctor I had was really horrible. And whenever I was in the therapist and the doctor, my guardian was in the room so I couldn't share all my thoughts and feelings only the ones that concerned my guardian. I didn't want her to leave the room
because I didn't really feel comfortable with the doctor and therapist.
Plus I never really communicate with my family so they don't know much about me even though they live with me.
Right now the person I spend a lot of time with is concerned with me(my boyfriend).
He told me his mom is also bipolar but she also has schizophernia. But I still think he doesn't know a lot about the disorder.
It's hard to explain to people who have no education about this disorder because they think it's just when people randomly get mad.

I'm going to talk to the counselor as soon as I can.

Yes I was talking about the doctor. The meds in my families words, "I can see a change and it's good". But I was trapped; like a zombie. Good for them that I wasn't acting "strange", but bad for me cause I still felt the same, yet acted different on the outside. Trapped in my own hell is the best I can describe it. Your boyfriend my already be bias because of what he has seen, but has failed to take the steps or care to understand. Your really gonna have to be strong and do what you need to for yourself.

[snugglebeary]

The medicine they gave me made me wild and out of control. It was because they put me on adhd medicine at one time. He put me on everything else, but some kind of mood stabilizer.

Anyways,
I was thinking that maybe I can talk to my psychology teacher about my issues. She's very nice.