[Moose72]

My brain wants to leave. I still "pass" for well. I just am easily triggered by emotions, sights and sounds. I want to leave. My T says I shouldn't but I can't help it. I am losing my friends and yet making more ones. I'll at ease, and ramped up yet all things are nuanced. Oh help. Let me melt into the wonderful song that is life.

[Moose72]

I want to run. Cry. Dash through the spaces between my thoughts, like a grove of intangible trees. Nothing is real except the me I see in me that wants to be free.

[~Christina]

Maybe the health issues you have had are doing a number on you emotionally?

[Moose72]

I have no idea.

I want to fly untouched over everything that is bad or good inside or out. My grove is barely there, ensconced only by the love of my children. The running goes faster and flying is all I have left. Untouched. Just me. I don't recognize myself. I am a new me. I am alone. The world is now gone. I am so much me that I am now gone too. All gone. And the nothingness is all nothingness is all nothingness.

[BlueInanna]

I dig the visuals, but you ok Moose? Are you having fun being creative with words, or what's up?

[Moose72]

I feel off and when I came here to post about it that's what came out.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I want to run. Cry. Dash through the spaces between my thoughts, like a grove of intangible trees. Nothing is real except the me I see in me that wants to be free.

This is how I usually feel. Nothing is real except me, and even that is questionable.

You've been going through a lot lately with your health. It's understandable to not feel so well right now. Your typing sounds a bit manicy to me, actually, not the usual Moose. Hang in there!

[Moose72]

Dark, I don't feel right. I just don't. Dunno what to do. I don't think my blood thinners affect my lithium or Zyprexa.

[BlueInanna]

i would think it likely that they could, being how lithium increases blood volume. Can you ask the doc?

[Moose72]

I just had my lithium checked. Let me look it up

[Moose72]

Was paranoid this morning too.

[BlueInanna]

whats paranoia like for you? im trying to figure out when i am.

[faerie_moon_x]

Hmmmm... new meds, plus health issues, plus feeling off and symptoms emerging or re-emerging. Could be a good time to call the pharmacy at least to check for interactions or possible side effects, too.

[BlueInanna]

yep, what DarkHeart says. worried about you Moose.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

whats paranoia like for you? im trying to figure out when i am.

I was feeling that people were out to get me. That they're after me or to do bad things to me.

[BlueInanna]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I was feeling that people were out to get me. That they're after me or to do bad things to me.

oh.. hmmm... i will kill them

[Moose72]

I called the pharmacy. No interactions between warfarin and lithium or Zyprexa. Hmmm.

[Moose72]

Originally Posted by BlueInanna

oh.. hmmm... i will kill them

Hehe. When they show up I'll sic you on em!

[Moose72]

Friend of mind doesn't appreciate my poetry.

[BlueInanna]

are you taking ibuprofen, i just looked up some contra indications for ibuprofen with lithium and blood thinners.

Interactions with other drugs

If you take ibuprofen while you are taking lithium, your lithium level may go up. This can increase your risk of toxic effects from lithium. You may need more frequent monitoring of lithium levels while on ibuprofen.
Taking ibuprofen while using "blood thinners" (such as warfarin and heparin) can increase your risk of serious bleeding.

[faerie_moon_x]

Originally Posted by Moose72

Friend of mind doesn't appreciate my poetry.

Tell them you don't apprecaite their taste, then.

Not sure what is going on, but take care.

[Moose72]

I knew that about Advil so I'm not taking any. Tylenol only.

[Moose72]

Maybe it's just breakthrough just because?

[Moose72]

Last week I was feeling like everybody was too slow. I told my pdoc and she didn't think much of it.

[hamster-bamster]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I want to run. Cry. Dash through the spaces between my thoughts, like a grove of intangible trees. Nothing is real except the me I see in me that wants to be free.

That's a really beautiful paragraph, Moose...