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#1
Oct 15, 2012, 10:39 PM
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Yes that is correct .. I am sinking into a lousy all consuming depression from hell. I have been fighting it tooth and nail for a couple months now.
I now lay in bed more hours than I want to admit daily. I have no desire to engage in this so called life. It's all to exhausting to even consider. Every noise makes me want to scream SHUT UP ! My damn hallucinations are getting worse. All I want to do is stay in bed and away from any noise and try to somehow stop my non stop racing mind. There is my "I'm freaking depressed rant" 
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Oct 15, 2012, 11:06 PM
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Oh no, Im so sorry. I wish I could take that damn depression and throw it out the door right along with mine. Its time for us all to get up and out of these damn depressive states. Im ready to be happy again. I want to feel good again. I know you do too. If I remember correctly you too have fybro, and I dont ko now if yours is like mine but it seems to hurt more when Im depressed. So right now its flaring up, Im out of my pain meds early because I took extra when I had a tooth pulled so I gotta a couple days to go without. I would like to just scream. On top of it all, I have this anger. RAWR Im sorry I think I took over your rant.
Christina, i sure hope you start feeling better soon hun, your such a sweetheart. Many hugs your way.
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Oct 15, 2012, 11:08 PM
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Sounds like hell on earth,
 Is hubby helping at all? Sending so much love to the east coast, you need some relief honey. Please be safe, ok? We love you!! 
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Oct 15, 2012, 11:25 PM
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Sending you lots of hugs and love across the ocean ((((((Christina)))))) we'll be here for you, every step of this horrid journey that is depression. Will be praying that the sun shines on you soon my friend
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Oct 16, 2012, 07:02 AM
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Oh Christinia, so sorry your roller coaster is taking you to a dark place.
I also stay in bed more than I'd like to admit. The isolation seems a blessing and a curse. Also to compare the fibro question, yes depression makes it worse. Really hope between T & med combo you won't descend into the depths & can come back to a more calm, even place. Think about you often my friend, just don't post much anymore. Take care of yourself. 
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Oct 16, 2012, 05:45 PM
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Awww Thanks everyone
I have been trying so hard to find out if there was a trigger or not that has sent this depression seemingly slammed me out of nowhere. My husband hasn't said a lot to me, ( think I'm throwing off the stay away from me vibe) he asked me yesterday if I was ok , I said nope . He gave me a hug. My Fibro pain is ridiculous .. Some days I can get my pain down a little bit .. today NO .. we have a weather system coming thru tomorrow so that always ups my pain level. I just feel like a big fat useless burden I see my T tomorrow maybe he can help me look at my situation from a different perspective. Thanks guys I am so grateful I have a place to come to where people actually give a damn.
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Oct 16, 2012, 05:48 PM
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Sorry you're feeling yukky.
Glad you'll see your T tomorrow. I see mine the day after. Yay for us! Big hugs.
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Oct 16, 2012, 05:52 PM
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#9
Oct 16, 2012, 06:13 PM
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Crystal, Cristina, Chaotic, Tripping ... so many of us not far enough from the edge.
Christina, my heart breaks for you. Crystal. I wish the bunch of us (my niece Chaotic ) ... We could just sit in a circle together & hold hands. Sip tea. I'd feel better. We need being together. I love you gals so much. Roadie 
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Oct 16, 2012, 06:14 PM
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Ahh Love you too Roadie
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Oct 16, 2012, 06:16 PM
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More- you are loved!
 I wish things would let up for you.
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Oct 16, 2012, 06:48 PM
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Hope you start feeling better, Christina.
My aunt also has fibro and I can tell you it is not easy just by watching her. (She was undiagnosed for like 15 years, before they even knew it existed.) Anyway, you're not a burden. Everyone has time when they need to rest and get better. Just take care of yourself. Hopefully the system will pass and you'll feel better physically which will help you feel better mentally, too. I'm sure it's not easy on the mood to go through all that pain.
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Oct 16, 2012, 08:09 PM
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Christina, so many of us are having weird stuff going on right now, nope I think something is in the air.
You are not a burden, and you gotta believe it. I know that your husband and daughter and step kids are lucky to have and know you. I know that, cause we know it to, we are lucky to know you! I am glad you will be seeing your t tomorrow, I hope it helps some. I didn't see any birdies today, but I know they are coming right around the corner, just gotta believe it, and they will be there. I am sorry your feeling so low, the fibro is such a beast . Are you still doing the hypno with your T? We will all get through this time together, cause we have to, we have before and we will again.I like Roadies idea for tea, yup, gonna visualize that tonight! All my favorite ladies, so strong, together well that is ridiculously strong!  I think I'll do a little meditation tonight and visualize just that! Please hang in there, and post more if it helps, trust me.. we do not mind one bit. Love you to bits.. 
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Oct 16, 2012, 10:50 PM
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Love you bunches Roadie!!! I like the idea of us having a getting together
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Oct 16, 2012, 10:56 PM
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Love you bunches Roadie!!! I like the idea of us having a getting together
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Oct 16, 2012, 10:59 PM
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I'm sending you a big volunteer hug. I will also keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
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Oct 17, 2012, 12:34 AM
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Christina Sorry you are feeling so crappy. Do you think the seasonal shift may have been a trigger at all? I'm glad you're seeing your T tomorrow and hope that goes really well for you. Let us know, ok? Do your T and Pdoc have good communication? With your hallucinations getting worse, do you think you want to try a med adjustment? Will be thinking of you
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Oct 18, 2012, 12:24 AM
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Saw my T today and yep he agrees I'm heading into a depression. I see my Pdoc on the 25th and see no reason to get a sooner appt and my T agrees.
All AD's flip me right into a angry manic hell so no way no how will I go down that road. So T and I agreed to just play it by ear. Since normally I only get 2-4 hours of sleep a nite and often go days and days without any sleep .. For now My T said "sleep all you can" Hopes are it will decrease my chronic pain. Also more sleep means more hours a day I wont have to deal with hallucinations  Thanks everyone . You guys are the BEST !
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