Whats wrong with me?

Hi all

im in a real bad place at the moment, im struggling to cope and i have come here to see if anyone can help me.

I did my test and i tested high for mania, eating disorders, post traumatic stress and the highest of all at 94% for obsessions/compultions.

I spend my days either on a high or a massive low and my mood can change to a negative and depressed one very quickly with just the simplest of things.. like i could eat something then feel like im deressed or have a sudden low of mood for the rest of the day or i can hear the smallest of sentances or read a text the wrong way then im crying al day, life doesnt seem worth it or i just start to hate and doubt myself. It scares me that i cant cheer the f up sometmes and that even though i have good things in my life like a boyfriend who really cares about me, a roof over my head, a few good friends and i have now got a new job i just cant stop the feelings that i am loosing in life.

I went through a break up with an ex of 13 years in january this year and i feel guilt inside as i have moved on but i know he finds it hard to meet people and so will be alone for a longtime probebly. i stil care for him but im not in love with him anymore. ive always struggled with my weight and i am obese.. diet after diet and surgery didnt fix me either and i find that when i start to think positive again it works for a day or a week even but then i just fal down again and my days go back to crying for sometimes no reason whatsoever.
i have found a wel that the last few years i have started ticking and i find im stretching my shoulders, arms, wrists and face alot which makes me feel like a freak.. i just cant control it and it really hurts me after a while.

Im very confused and i dont know whats wrong with me. i just want to be normal like my friends and be happy with what i have.. i want to feel the sunshine on my face again and to be able to have a moment in my life where i dont just worry about every little things.. im so tired.

If anyone has any advice or can suggest anything they think may help i would really appreciate it. i have arranged to see my doctor but he always just laughs this sort of thing off.

Thank you

Special xx

haHi Special Welcome to PC

I'm so sorry your feeling so bad

You have so much going on I'm sure it's overwhelming. None of us can diagnose you of course.

If you haven't had a recent check up and blood work from your primary care Doctor you should just be checked out to make sure there isn't a medical reason for what your going through.

When you mentioned telling your doctor about these problems are you talking about a Primary care doctor ? You really need a psychatrist to diagnose you and give you proper treatment. Primary doctors are just not trained to treat an emotional or mental illness. Often your primary doctor can refer you to a doctor. If not just start calling the doctors in your area. Many of us have a therapist that can help us learning coping skills.

In the meantime since you have all kinds of stress going on try some meditation or just deep breathing and focus on how the air feels inside going into your lungs , I know sounds silly but my Therapist told me about it and it helps me a lot and hopefully will help you too.

I hope you are able to get some much needed help, everyone deserves to feel good. Keep on posting here all you need to. Everyone here is very supportive and have buckets full of advice.

again Welcome to PC

Hi, also.

Morethingswrong is on target for suggested help for you, in my view. Having blood work done soon is very important. I would ask for testing of HDL, LDL levels, vitamins A, B, C, D, fatty acids, lithium, iron, and glucose levels. There are probably many other things your internist (I hope you're seeing one) may want to check, as well.

Once you have the information on the bloodwork tests then I would see a psychiatrist if any of the responses indicate that you may be low in lithium, high in glucose levels, low in any of the tested vitamins, or unusual lipid levels. A test for folic acid (one of the B vitamins) is important, but more about that at another time.

Your wish to feel better is the best indication that you're ready to meet the challenges of getting your blood chemistry levels in acceptable ranges for maximum health.

Depression can cause the tears to flow, and I know that is bothersome for you.

I hope you will make this a project for yourself so that you will become far happier and more content with your life.

One thing you might do before doing anything else is to eliminate the artificial sweeteners from your diet. Stop drinking the sodas, please, because only one of the artificial sweeteners to date has been shown not to be harmful: Stevia. Aspartame, for me, will cause the tears to flow strongly. And it is one of the artificial sweeteners used most abundantly in diet soft drinks.

You might have a sensitivity to them and not be aware of it. (There are many other possibilities, as well.)

Good wishes in your efforts.

Since OP is obese, I would not recomment Stevia, as it contains 3 mg of carbohydrates per individual serving. It sure beats all other sweeteners, but it is not a panacea either. Unfortunately.

So you need to fire him.

Hi, Special.

One of the purposes in my thinking that you need to have blood work done as soon as possible is to determine if your glucose levels may be contributing to the depression and tears you're having.

If it turns out that you do not have pre-Diabetes or Diabetes, type II,you may wish to become aware of the American Diabetes Association's recommendations for your carbohydrate intake. The organization recommends that we have 45 to 60 grams of carbs per meal or 135 to 180 grams per day.

If you do have Diabetes, type II, your recommendations for carbohydrate intake, according to the American Diabetes Association, will need to be 60 to 90 grams of carbohydrate daily or about 25-30 grams of carbs per meal. You'll need to check everything with your physician and (preferably) an internist rather than a general practitioner. If it's Diabetes I would suggest that you see an endocrinologist, at least initially.

I haven't checked the carbohydrate levels of Stevia or any of the other artificial sweeteners but think that you will need to become aware of all foods by checking them on the internet for their carbohydrate values. If you decide to use Stevia once daily, it would represent a minuscule rise in blood glucose levels. By comparison, one teaspoon of sugar contains 4 grams of carbohydrate; so you see the level between different carbohydrate-containing substances.

I wish you well and hope we've made a contribution to your efforts to find out why you're feeling so distraught right now.

that should have read 3 g

Hello,

Thank you so much for your help and advice. Im based in the UK and im not sure of what the difference is between a primary care doctor and a primary doctor? over here we have one doctor who we need to go to for everything. He normally just says take paracetamol for any condition and tries to get you out of the office as quick as possible. unfortunatly we dont get alot of choice as to which doctor we can see due to numbers of people registered at each surgery.

i can request blood tests im sure though, i not sure if he would grant me them.. i just dont know what to say i want the for as he will be very hesitant in arranging one for me. god this situation is so messed up.

I also can only get refered to someone for counceling by my doctor but the waiting list is about 3 months. I have been contacting local charities to spea to them when i get very sad but they cant refer e for medication or do tests. ill have to do some more research. i really appreciate your help.. thank you

Hello,

Thank you for your advice.

Im not lucky enough to have a psychiatrist.. we have to pay alot of money in this country to get one and the counselling services you can get sent to from a doctors surgery has a waiting list of 3 months which is terrible. I will have to ask and se what the doctor says and if that doesnt work.. maybe ill try and see f i can find a new surgery to join.

With regards to the sweetners, thanks for the help with that. My boyfriend mentioned in passing recently about aspartame and i have been trying to avoid it lately. i will definatly mention the vitiamins to the doctor too to see what he says.

Hello,

Thank you for your help.

What does OP mean? sorry, not used to the terms..

also, i wish i could just sack my doctors but its not that easy to do here as he is the only person i can goto for everything and its very hard to register with a new doctors surgery in my area.

Thanks for the advice with the sweetners.

Primary doctor means that this is the physician who takes care of you for almost all things. Here, in the U.S., we see a specialist if for any reason our primary physician is really not very adept at managing whatever the situation is that calls for a specialist. For example, I have an internist who checks routinely all the bloodwork and orders special tests. I see a psychiatrist about once every four months for medication and talk (about 25 minutes).

I'm sorry your country's system is not as effective as it might be. We've just had a new system instituted in this country, and I'm waiting to see what will happen after the next election of a president. I hope your country is able financially to clear up the problems you are experiencing as citizens for your medical help.

It sounds frustrating, to say the least.

Take care.

OP stands for Original Post - the first first post in the thread - or for the Original Poster - you.

There are a number of site members from UK here. Maybe repost asking for their specific advice in how to deal with your system.