So Lost in the World of Being Bipolar

My title is exactly what it means, I am so lost. I can't find my bearings. When I am busy working or even watching tv it goes away for a little while. But when I am sitting still, I can't be at peace.

I just want to have some peace of mind, and some feelings of purpose. I feel I am trapped in such an ugly body and I tried to work out but I am not losing much weight so I am feeling even more discouraged.

I am unhappy fooling myself that I am happy?

Or do I have everything I need and am just finding a reason to be miserable when there are others who have it much worse than me?

Sometimes I'm manic and sometimes I just don't want to get out of bed.

So lost, I just want to be found and complete.

Anyone else just plain lost?

Platinum, I'm kind of feeling the same way right now. It's my husband's diagnosis that's got me all wrapped up in it.

I just keep reading as much as possible. I need to sort out my confusion.

I feel that way a lot, too. Just lost. I think the world is set up so that we feel lost in it.

I see you say you're working out but not losing much weight. This is a huge issue with weight loss which depresses people. My advice is to hide your scale and don't use it. Keep working out. The working out part is doing so much more for you than you realize. Your body is changing even if the weight is not coming off in numbers, but it will. However, the scale is demotivation, so get rid of it. I work with registered dietitians so this is one of the main things they tell people who are losing weight!

I don't think you're fooling yourself. Depression is just like that. It clouds everything and you have to fight through it, which is hard. It will change, tho. Remember this is also the time of year for depression to creep up, you're not alone.

PlatinumHeart, I feel for you, and what you're experiencing is not unfamiliar to me. I'm struggling with weight issues as well, it's really hard to stay on track with exercise and healthy eating. I really hate the meds that made me so fat, though I know it's also my fault.
Wishing you all the best, and that you feel "found" and complete soon.

I recently had an experience with finding out that someone else always has it worse than me, but that only helps for a moment, then it's back to focusing on me.

I feel for you - I have no advice for you today other than to get through today, and, if that doesn't work out, there's always tomorrow. There's always tomorrow.

sometimes i feel like Im a different person looking into this miserable persons life, i ask how did it get like this? i used to enjoy things but now i am unable to, I want to live a life and maintain a relationshipp but its getting soo hard..hard...hard

I stopped thinking I am sick. I have temporary issues regarding mood but I am not a reject or disfunctional person. I am proud of being weird and off. There is nothing wrong with having quirks.

When I started believing this, my life changed.

Being lost is a constant theme for me, I thank all those who participated on this thread. Things have been a bit better. I gave up on the weight loss and put it on the back burner. Being sick and under so much stress has gave me a new reason to be depressed. But this comes and goes as all people with bipolar know. It is just so hard to stay balanced. I feel so unbalanced so mismatched. That is the best way to describe it.

........yep

(weird how stupid computer forced me to put dots in there when all I wanted to write was yep!)

.................................................stupid........technology

oh man I'm a freaking computer!...ouch flipped out!...please don't just write three letters...

f-cking dumbass computers...

...yeah I'm lost PH....

but I found myself lost

Hello, Platinum Heart,

So often, I feel, (as I'm trying to lose weight) that it has to do with
cravings--for sugar, grains. I've found in the last several months that
taking the Omega 3 fatty acids has done wonders for me in controlling
the desire for sucrose and for grains. I've been calmer and more positive
than in months.

If you aren't taking the Omega 3 fatty acids, I would try them if you will.
If you need to ask your psychiatrist about it before purchasing any, please do talk about it with him.

It has really been very, very helpful for me. About 4,000 mg per day--2,000 in the morning and 2,000 in late afternoon seem to keep things stabilized (even better than Prozac) and there are no detrimental side effects such as the acid residue of medications that is really difficult to overcome, especially with a slowed metabolism in weight problems. (I use the Omega 3 fatty acids, available at GNC and Vitamin Shoppe, and probably other places, as well. (They're good and readily available--I have no interest in these products via stock or commissions or anything else. I
just chose them and found them to be excellent.)

Cut back on red meat consumption, please. Cut down on wheat, rye,
oats, barley, and corn. (There are reasons for these suggestions, but
we can talk about that later if you're at all interested.) Eat more
green vegetables, fresh salads and drink water--purified if you can get it.

I would almost promise you that if you practice these things for one month you will want to make permanent changes in your eating because of the improved feeling tone.

There's always the possibility that what works for one won't work for another;but in this case, particularly since we are Americans and eating foods that are
considered the American cuisine, it may be that this will benefit you greatly, as it
has me. In other words, there are too many transfatty acids in the Western diet.
They cause inflammation for many. The essential fatty acids reduce inflammation.

Take care and good wishes to you.

Lost. that is a simple way to put it. I would call myself lost because that is much easier than facing where it is that I really am.

sure, there is depression and hypomania.....

and then there is what happens the rest of the time. the rest of the time is why I am lost. It roots back to when I was a child. I hated myself. I despised myself. I learned to do this cuz this is how everyone else looked at me too. I was never ever going to be anything to anyone growing up and I never was, and that is still with me today.

I get pretty far with people anymore, and in life, and then it's like, where do I go from here. that's when my self destruction comes in and I want to burn all the bridges before they burn me and such.

is this the kind of lost that you are feeling. the always desperate kind of lost.

if so, i understand.