Intro & new doc issues

Hi all.

This is really a two-part post.

First of all, I am a new member here. I know that there IS a thread to introduce yourself, but I figured I'd just do it with my first post.

My name is Melissa, and I live in Ohio. Bipolar disorder is just one of my diagnosis, but it is the one that I am choosing to deal with the most right now.

Anyways (on to the second part of my post) I have a new psych doctor. (Really, she is a nurse practitioner.) The old one quit or something.

I'm really grateful for any help I can get. (I'm disabled, and I know what it's like to not be under any type of care. Really, Ohio is great for having all these programs and resources for people with any type of disability.) But this doctor is going to kill me one of these days.

Maybe I got too used to life being my version of "normal". My meds all seemed to be working right for me, and I had finally gotten my sugar under control, even with being on Seroquel. However, my new doc "L" believes in minimalist medications. So, she took me off of Seroquel, and put me on some other new medication.

I was on the new medication for about a week, and I got VERY SICK. (Physically, not mentally) The worst was that my digestive system just STOPPED moving.

I called the Dr's office and let L know that I had to stop taking the medication. I wasn't allowed to talk to her, so I just had to leave a message, but no call came about what to do. Meanwhile I kept weening myself off of the Seroquel.

So, last week I went crazy. I got into horrible sobbing argument with my sister (she was right!). I started to get horrible urges to hurt myself and other people. WOW!

Finally, last Tuesday, I saw L, again. I asked her to hospitalize me, because the urges were so bad. Instead, she changed my meds again, and told me to try to get through it!!!

I started the new meds on Tuesday. On Thursday, I lost it again. I wanted to go to the ER to try to be put in-patient until the meds evened out. Mom and my husband over-ruled me, though.

So, here I am, still muddling through. The thoughts have died down a LOT, but I'm still not RIGHT, if you know what I mean.

Hi and welcome. I'm sorry it's so hard right now. If you are sure you need hospital and the others are not agreeing, can you just go check yourself in? Maybe they got used to you being so stable and are not seeing the seriousness? I personally avoid hospitals, but you know your body best, and your opinion matters.

Hello and welcome! Sorry your having such a rough go of it, and sorry your family nor your doc seem I find it necessary to go inpatient. I figure if you think you need to go then you need to go. I hope it all works out well for you and things get better soon. I'm sure they will it just takes time. I know you've probably heard that a lot but it does work out.

welcome to this little corner of the site.

hugs

Welcome to PC Sounds like its been a very rough time for you lately. I agree with the others if YOU feel you are not safe then by all means get checked into an inpatient program.

This is a great place for support and loads of information that will hopefully help you feel better.

I wish I could of checked myself in, but I live about fifteen miles from the nearest hospital, and I don't drive. I could of requested an ambulance service, I guess, but there was no guarantee that the would of kept me.

Instead, we took all the knives, pills, razors, and anything liquid that could hurt me to my mother's, until I felt safe. Things seem to be a lot better now. Thank Goodness!