[Victoria'smom]

Slipping... Monday needs to come fast.

will probably feel a lot better when i get my drezdon dolls album, and my new EA album, both ordered this week, and both delayed by the snow... but for now just feel really empty

Bipolar2 in check again today. The Remeron is apparently doing its job. I am getting hammered by the ex for what a POS I am and I am still not in the dumps any more than I normally would be, si I suppose that is a plus. It's just too bad I didn't get the help I have now before I destroyed my marriage with all of my bizarre behavior and horrible choices.
But at least that part of my life is over now, so I can move on and rebuild...something.

[Gretchen]

....I was just thinking earlier in the week that I hadn't been seeing anymore darting shadow stuff, then had that DREADFUL fraking day yesterday and now it's happened like four or five times today. I love those little sweet reminders that your psychotic at the moment

[BipolaRNurse]

Argh, that nasty cold I referred to yesterday has turned me into jello, hence I've been lying in the recliner all day, sleeping. Right now I think I'd have to get better to die. Phooey.

How strange! Jello actually sounds good right now(!) 2nd day of flu over here. That probably explains it.
Awwww, BPN, so hear you! Been hiding out in my room (aka Germ Central), but went briefly to the kitchen at one point. Housemate said, "Well, at least you're still breathing.", to which my reply was, "Is that a good thing?!" I was informed it generally is. Who knew?
We'll both be good together and get over these pesky stupid things, ok?

[usbusi]

I felt I was undermedicated. 150 mg Wellbutrin XL generic. 5 mg Abilify. The normal dose is 300 on the wellbutrin and 15 on the abilify for monotherapy. I doubled my Wellbutrin the last two days, thinking it might work wonders, but I woke up today after 4 hours of sleep. I'll go back to 150.

Today is just another day. I am at the ex's house visiting my daughter; spent the night. Ex took my daughter to a very early 9am Birthday party at this place called Splash Planet. Nice to be here in the quiet. Hope y'all hve a good weekend where ever you are!

sitting here listening to with in temptation.

apart from that just another normal day

[cybermember]

I can't take the side effects anymore so I'm lowering my meds. Now I have to go out back and bury my checkbook and credit cards. May the universe help me.

[Christa87413]

checking in.... and umm... so far, my pills seem to have me pretty settled.. I've felt very chilled out lately, and laid back... well today anyways.. Been quite happy and I still feel my body trying to break out into a manic binge, but I'm stayin on the pills like a good girl... but really, do I have to take the anti depressant too?!

[BipolaRNurse]

Checking in......I feel somewhat better today, at least enough to sit up at the computer instead of being horizontal in the La-Z-Boy, typing on my tablet. Funny I mentioned the jello, IZ, it sounds good to me too---something that's cool and slides down to put the flames out in my poor outraged throat. So my husband's off to the store buying some. Hope you get to feeling better soon!

[Sigster66]

Checking in. I have skipped some doses of my night AP med that I need because it's making it hard to breathe at night due to my sleep apnea. Starting to feel crappy.

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[roads]

Originally Posted by Christa87413

checking in.... and umm... so far, my pills seem to have me pretty settled.. I've felt very chilled out lately, and laid back... well today anyways.. Been quite happy and I still feel my body trying to break out into a manic binge, but I'm stayin on the pills like a good girl... but really, do I have to take the anti depressant too?!

I would take the anti depressant too, Christa--then phone my pdoc and discuss reasons for wanting to make a change before the next dose. Wouldn't do it, though, on my own.

[blukitty]

I'm doing okay. Which is better than seriously manic or depressed beyond belief! I'm wondering if this what "normal" feels like?!

[Clinte89]

I'm feeling good a little pissed that my parents lawned my gma off on me again. It happens to much but it's probably my fault somehow. Other than that I'm ok been feeling pretty good fora few months. So that's a good thing.

[roads]

clinte89

my parents lawned my gma off on me again

what does that mean?

[Clinte89]

I meant pawned not lawned lol auto correct. They make me stay at home while they go out and my gma is a pita.

[roads]

HaHa! What does your gma think of you?

[Clinte89]

She likes me alot and cares about me but she gets in these modes where she just attacks people and I'm usually on of those people she has dementia pretty bad

[roads]

Oh. I'm sorry, I know what that's like. Try to find diversions. If she doesn't feel frightened or lost she might seem less angry. Do you have any music she likes?

[Clinte89]

Idk she just watches tv all day and walks around a little she is not bad off yet really but it's bad enough where she gets mad easy and forgets things alot and gets confused alot. But she never listens to music.

I don't want to go on Lithium but I don't know what other options I have. It doesn't seem like therapy is going to help me get my act together soon enough, but I'm so worried. It's not specified HOW Lithium works on Bipolar & that makes me uneasy. I don't even like taking my anti-psychotic on occasion -- they don't CHECK YOU to see if your neurotransmitter levels are off. They don't CHECK YOU to see if they've changed over time. That's incredibly uneasy. If you go on a cholesterol or blood pressure med, they check it. But if you're nuts, they just shove medicine in you & hope for the best... I want to do this the hard way. I want to struggle & hate my therapist & work on getting better from the core of my being, change my habits. But it feels like this isn't going to be soon enough because I'm screwing up everything at the price of temporary satisfaction. And it's not JUST the Bipolar but it's definitely making everything a helluva lot worse.

/Rant.

[roads]

Rant away, you're beyond entitled.
Lithium good for so many if monitored and weight doesn't zoom.
Keep asking questions and seeking info. Check in with you always.
Roadie

I'm in a dark place as of late. Trying to shake the funk, but it's not passing. I must think, think, think. IDK what to do or where to begin, but if I don't see light soon, I'll be 'heading towards the light.' I hate waiting on death to come take me, where is my courage to end this misery called life already.