I'm sleeping more I guess but don't feel better
I don't come round here much. I did get a few things done today, I hope this weekend will go ok. I wish I could tolerate antidepressants

[james70]

Originally Posted by shattered sanity

saw this one in the borderline forums- so figured i'd start one here also.

just a place to visit daily and check yourself in... i guess.

let us know how you're doing and stuff....

well iam new here and dont know my way around or how to do things and its getting to me.want to find polple that can relate.i recenlty found out what spmi meant and it scred me pretty bad.severe and pesistant mentil illness and idont know how i feel about it i guess its saying it dont go away and i have to deal with it for ever i guess any feed back would be great. thx james70

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by kelly4519

I'm sleeping more I guess but don't feel better
I don't come round here much. I did get a few things done today, I hope this weekend will go ok. I wish I could tolerate antidepressants

I feel you. I hope my weekend is better than today was?. I'm tired of being in bed. Like you I can't take AD's. my pdoc isn't having it. I hope your weekend picks up.

[fighting_2_overcome]

hello all, im new here first time ever posting on a forum im kinda nervous, but i feel this will be a good outlet and a good way to find good friends and convos who are battling with the same issues as me.

[comicgeek007]

Been so hyper today. Thoughts racing. I hope I'll be able to sleep, I have stuff to look forward to tomorrow.

[james70]

been up and down lately hope it goes away soon.

[Cocosurviving]

I had a fun & productive day. I did some packing, went to a football & finished my laundry.

[roads]

Went to performance of Mozart's Requium. Mozart!! I love all things Mozart ... or used to. Now, it wasn't even boring--it was empty.
What has happened to me? Will I ever be me again? To find no enjoyment in music anymore ... leaves nothing.

[Cocosurviving]

Originally Posted by Roadie

Went to performance of Mozart's Requium. Mozart!! I love all things Mozart ... or used to. Now, it wasn't even boring--it was empty.
What has happened to me? Will I ever be me again? To find no enjoyment in music anymore ... leaves nothing.

I completely understand. Certain things I use to like and enjoy do nothing for me now. I don't know if I'll find me again or if I'll recreate myself.

I must be getting back to my normal BPD2 self cause I am back to racing thoughts, "feeling" everything, don't wanna go out (but I am going to go in spite of myself) and I feel hopeful and hopeless at the same time...well one hopeful thougt is punished by a reality thougt of "eh, it'll never happen."
It's gonna be another NSR day (No Shoes Radio).

[james70]

feeling a little crappy and irrated today.

[Moreta]

I'm ok today, but I'm having issues waking up in the morning. I was late to work again today. I am just so groggy in the morning, until I take my provigil, and then I'm still a bit groggy after that. I didn't take my meds until 9 last night b/c we ate so late, so that was part of the problem. Maybe I should take my Gralise around 5 pm or so, so the sleepiness will wear off sooner. I don't think you need to take it with food like the Geodon.

[comicgeek007]

I'm not as hyper, but I have thoughts going at the speed of light and I'm just SO awake, despite not getting hardly any sleep last night... again... In stead of hungover yesterday I was hyper as fudge.

Can't seem to stop the head games, the mind games with myself.
I KNOW things are alright but my brain doesn't want me to live with that. Ugh.

life today is like every other day. There are set boundaries that I have to stay within, regardless of any mental state. If I stay within these boundaries, then I am free to deal with any changes in my mental state without complication. It's almost like a game with those around me. I know what they are looking for, what they react to, and as long as I show them what they need to see, then I am free to deal with my illness without the drama of, "You need to do something. You are hypo, I can't live like this. It's all your fault. Everything you are doing right now is not right. It's all because of your illness." I hate the way people react like that to knowing that there is some change in my mental state. I personally feel that they don't deserve the right to know that I have changes in my mental state. That is my business, not theirs.

So I guess I am angry about it today. about playing that game. hope others are having better morning than I am.

[roads]

I just got off the phone, trying to find a way to cope with this. So frustrating! You are far from alone, and we share your anger. By inches I seem to find more effective methods, but too slowly for me.

[Cocosurviving]

My day was ok. I ran some errands and went ceramics class. Class was relaxing as usual. I've been feeling heavy hearted abt moving soon. The purpose of my move to for me to have family support. As it gets closer to my move date I find myself crying. I love the city/state I live in. I'm moving b/c of BP. I hate BP.

[Rose76]

Hypomania used to enable me to get a lot done. (Diagnosis: possible bipolar spectrum } according to my doctor.) Since developing real major depression, I just don't seem to get constructive hypomanic intervals anymore. Every day is a slog.

Today, I feel pretty good.

Been trying to change my mood from fine to nothing but today was good, real good and not even manic. Maybe the psych meds are working.

[comicgeek007]

So hyper all day, but I feel like I'm running out of steam. It's been almost a week like this.

Maybe I'll get a good amount of sleep tonight...

[ellipsisdream]

Insomnia again... this is getting old.

[~Christina]

I have appointments and various places to be in about an hour, well loads of things to take care of ... Only got maybe an hour of sleep last nite... so this should be a very interesting day !

[Cocosurviving]

My night was bad, daughter had insomnia and kept me up. We finally got to sleep ard 11 pm. When 6 am came ard I was extra sleep, she was a burst of energy. After taking her to school I slept for 4 hrs. My body felt so drained.
I don't feel tired now although I feel depressed. I'm trying to find the strength to get dressed.

[Moreta]

My back is not up to par today. It's a bit better now, but I still can't stand up straight.

I'm still angry at people in general. I just want to go live on a deserted island with my husband for a while. I guess I shouldn't have high standards for the people I work with. I'm going to totally avoid the people I work with at the bakery from now on, and go in around 7:00. I just can't take their stupidity anymore.

[james70]

a little wound for sound today....