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Feb 08, 2013, 05:03 PM
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Ok. I am getting drunk now. I think I over enjoy my break but I can't stop. How can I defeat this monster? ****, just enjoy me getting drunk while it last. I still don't get it right. I still don't get LIFE!
Last edited by Christina86; Feb 09, 2013 at 04:34 PM. |
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Feb 11, 2013, 04:52 PM
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Chris, are you in therapy or a least getting meds? As you know, drinking isn't the answer.
What's happening that's making you so miserable? 
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Feb 11, 2013, 04:56 PM
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Drinking isn't the answer but I can't say I can't blame you. I dd the same last night actually. But try to be careful and seek therapy or meds ASAP, therapy helps me deal with life alot.
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Feb 11, 2013, 05:21 PM
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Although they call it drowning your sorrows, they don't breathe air so they don't really drown. They just kind of get hazy for a bit. I know it's hard to break free from things like this without a lot of help and hard work.
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Feb 12, 2013, 02:19 AM
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I hope you soon feel better. I was in your position last Friday and I certainly paid for it. Please try restrict alcohol to a minimum - it just makes this journey even more tricky
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Feb 12, 2013, 07:14 AM
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There is an addictions forum that may be of benefit to you. I am not saying that you have an addiction, but the posters there can offer first-hand advice.
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Feb 12, 2013, 01:30 PM
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I am not ready to deal with addiction. I like drinking. That's one of the major problem. Sigh.
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#8
Feb 12, 2013, 01:44 PM
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what do you like to drink? there is such a fine line between abuse and pleasure when it comes to the eccentric mind... damn!...they come so close like really close they get so close the eccentric mind and the loss of control end up together like lovers in mutual collaboration! and...? whats the whole point? to avoid pain?...to get pleasure...or do they cross over? I'm sure millions of distressed humans struggled with this over millenia and millions do immediately now I know they did! ... and I know they do!...if they didn't then how much more foolish would we look? cos I aint much different to you ...so what is your choice? and how do you deal with the complexities of alcoholism and how do you find a way to not just replace but to combine the shame with integrity? some tricky questions my friend...
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Feb 12, 2013, 02:00 PM
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What do you like to drink?
I remember when I was a like to want to smoke and drink like my father whenever I think of my father, whenever I long for him. I use to still my grandmother smokes and alcohol. Whats the point? To be connected to someone I think is important to me. There is a deep longing for something and alcohol numbs that and gives me some pleasurable moments. What's my choice? I know the only way I can make my life meaningful is by being responsive. I also know that every time I try to quit alcohol, I ended up in a worst state. Feeling quite helpless now. |
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Feb 12, 2013, 02:18 PM
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ok...
then ... heres my interpretation of alcohol... "before and after means nothing!" so why do I want to be without boundaries? cos I feel restricted.. and why do I drink? so I no longer feel restricted... bipolar assaults my mind with just way too much! alcohol helps me regulate....far from convenient in the real world right? but the real world has some other ideas huh? |
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Feb 12, 2013, 02:29 PM
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I like this, "The real world has some other ideas." Is it for me or against me? Can I fit in? Or should I create my own reality that can fit in this real world? Am I able to do it? What is the meaning of my life? |
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Feb 12, 2013, 02:58 PM
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depends I guess if you just want a visit from Jack or a terrible friend... here's the thing yep... I'm full of questions??...most likely the damage comes from all my answers. I have issues...loss!...failure!...grief!...misery!...insecurity I did nothing I did nothing I did nothing I can't do nothing! ...and here?...within lies the lies I always did everything I could ever do.. I loved more than I hated and I know this cos when I hated more I hated it so much I loved myself better again and however? whatever I did to achieve this makes sense to me... I'm the ultimate back door to everything... |
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#13
Feb 12, 2013, 03:23 PM
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I like the way you post, dubblemonkey. It allows me to connect to your inner life, allow me to gain a little understanding of your thoughts, emotions and reasonings.
"I have issues...loss!...failure!...grief!...misery!...ins ecurity" That hopelessness. "I loved more than I hated and I know this cos when I hated more I hated it so much I loved myself better again and however?" That paradoxical will. "I'm the ultimate back door to everything..." A realization in your own truth. |
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