...??

ok lets just put aside the manic depressive emotions for a bit!

hey thats a massive ask ....HUGE...impossible!....right?

ok...consider this!!

(this is spoken in my own voice)

...do you get irritated before you get satisfied?
...do you get agitated before you get mystified?

do you get emotional before the reason for it?

...does this continue past the point of useful?

like you are crippled?

do you suffer from absent mind?...like you arrived already
and whats the point of catching up again it was easy anyway but now it's suddenly hard trying to prove it was easy!?

and do you fail so bad at the regular crap!...?

drifting elsewhere toward a personal utopia?...mental Nirvana?

harmless beautiful....sacred !...nuthouse extraordinaire?

weirdo magnificent self destructive?

a cartoon of a human?

do you drift into your own caricature....just to get by

and then stuff it right up?

then it's quite possible you are a freaking genius!!

very cool

[AeonDM]

Me: What's wrong?
Madness: I feel like I am in a mental hospital.
Me: You can always leave if you want to. Anyways you and I are going to dinner afterwards.
Me: Let me introduce you here. This is Thor(my higher intelligent) and Ema(my deep emotions) They are your doctor here. I am your nurse here. I am going to nurse you back to health. I am going to be with you all the way, I promise you.
Me: Here, take your med.
Madness: What is this pill?
Me This is a promise pill.
Madness: Will it work?
Me: Give it 2 weeks. If it is not helping you, Thor and Ema is going to come up with a new med. They are very smart and super intelligent. You are going to get well, I promise you. We are going to do wondrous things together when you are well.

...do you accidently contort into unfortunate shapes indistinguishable...?

mentally engrossed in discarded importance?...

ripped out of reality as it seems into reality as it also seems...leaving no mistakes!

no questions as if?...everything is known!
despite the unknown being the real reason for losing it?

searching for the gaps?
despite overwhelming pressure to avoid them!

prepared to die?....

just to feel something that matches your mind

and so what!

[AeonDM]

LIFE is mysterious. That's when the fun begins... or trouble?

No, no, no, I can't think like that. Not trouble but opportunity.

Let me try again.

LIFE is mysterious. That's when the fun and opportunity begins. Hmm...

[manioso]

bleep me, this is the first post that made me warm and comfy since I signed up. Big paw for that.

I just *saw* the face of Al Pacino in my mind, saying the things you just said - "Nuthouse extraordinaire, weirdo magnificent, the story of my mind by manioso". (Followed with a big "Ha!" afterwards) and I just burst into laughter, just hilarious

Although on topic, which I haven't got a clue of, umm, yeah. I tend to drift a lot, as in, if I can't get enough stimulus I tend to escape into my mind.

Carrots, cake and casual sex. While on wine, regrets.

Sometimes stuff just pops out, while one dwells inside, as in above. On other times this might cause some issues, but it's mostly other people. They don't suppose that a 38yr old is supposed to burst into an open laughter, just like that, without a warning. And the giggling part comes after that, although knowing you shouldn't giggle isn't helping at all, it's only making things worse.. Can't help it.

And the more you concentrate on the things you see in your mind, the more detail you can see, and this isn't helping either.

If I can imagine a purplish-green octopus on my bed in the morning asking for breakfast and hoping for cereal.. just.. try having a vivid live video made up out of your own thoughts while trying to behave like all the others do and not bursting up once in a while.

Thank god for brains and the flow of thought.

Guess I could babble here all night, thank you, all

[Gaijin]

No, I'm not a genius. . . but I think I am.

[RiotOfWords]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...do you accidently contort into unfortunate shapes indistinguishable...?

mentally engrossed in discarded importance?...

ripped out of reality as it seems into reality as it also seems...leaving no mistakes!

no questions as if?...everything is known!
despite the unknown being the real reason for losing it?

searching for the gaps?
despite overwhelming pressure to avoid them!

prepared to die?....

just to feel something that matches your mind

and so what!

This is beautiful. Amazing. Sometimes I amaze myself by being able to feel so incredibly much that I make myself violently physically ill... and yet, other times I'm able to shut my heart off as if with a switch, complete, apathetic P.O.S, totally not phased by the outside world..

I loved everything you posted.. and.. you should put it all together, keep going. It's poetry.

I second that! book please lol

[supernova001]

Originally Posted by dubblemonkey

...??

ok lets just put aside the manic depressive emotions for a bit!

hey thats a massive ask ....HUGE...impossible!....right?

ok...consider this!!

(this is spoken in my own voice)

...do you get irritated before you get satisfied?
...do you get agitated before you get mystified?

do you get emotional before the reason for it?

...does this continue past the point of useful?

like you are crippled?

do you suffer from absent mind?...like you arrived already
and whats the point of catching up again it was easy anyway but now it's suddenly hard trying to prove it was easy!?

and do you fail so bad at the regular crap!...?

drifting elsewhere toward a personal utopia?...mental Nirvana?

harmless beautiful....sacred !...nuthouse extraordinaire?

weirdo magnificent self destructive?

a cartoon of a human?

do you drift into your own caricature....just to get by

and then stuff it right up?

then it's quite possible you are a freaking genius!!

very cool

I don't think I'm a genius, but I think i have moments of genius when i enter that "white" euphoric phase of hypo-mania.....it's not simply delusions of grandeur---my memory suddenly sharpens to a fine point, my ability to articulate and express ideas astonishes me. My brain teems with ideas, I can multi-function like an android, I understand Einstein's theories visually, I become engrossed with abstract mathematics/philosophies, my poetic abilities flow with ease and I create my best work during these moments. (I'm an artist). The problem then occurs when the white phase starts moving into a chaotic rush of too many branching thoughts, too much over load, lack of focus till the over-stimulus fries the beautiful dance that was previously moving together in perfect consort. If only it would stay in that earlier phase.

One thing's for sure...from the few stays i've had at psych units, i have found that bipolars (even the uneducated ones), had a creative/intelligent spark above the average joe.

[BlackPup]

Used to be but now my mind is mush.