I'm seeing my T tomorrow. I can't sleep. I'm worried bc today I had a little episode. I kept calling my therapist and the front office would hang up on me. I freaked out and called my sister (the supportive one) and had her call. Well I guess the phones r down or something. I called my T yesterday like 4 times. She did call me back early this morning and left a message.

Well I have a peer support person there. She is very similar to me but she keeps lecturing me on my meds. She is VERY sensitive so today she did it again (she also has bipolar and PTSD) I told her, her support feels conditional. She got REALLY offended. I said it gently. Idk what to do paranoia is blurring my perception I think. You know I think I've lived with paranoia to a degree all my life it SUCKS anybody else relate? Any insights would be appreciated. Thanks for reading.

[optimize990h]

Hi passion sky.

I read your post, but sorry I don't experience what you posted. Sometimes if you use the
"search function" you can come up with members who experience what you do. Then PM The ones you would like talk to.

[vokoya]

Hi, I kind of know how you feel, even though I'm not exactly understanding the situation your were in. I just call it a minor freak out. Sometimes its impossible to know which way the situation really is. Were you being paranoid, or were you responding to a real situation the way a "normal" person would? The best we can do is stick to our meds and hope tomorrow will seem clearer. I do lamictal. The doc just took me off lorezpam and seroquel just last week. I'm scared to start the lithium for the mania and for sleep. I will take it in the next day or two, just scared if my body doesn't like it. I will take it also because I fear mania like the plague

[minefield]

I don't think you are being out of order for not wanting to have to account for your actions. It would have been more productive if she had a calm discussion about meds, and when you say everything is fine for you to be believed.

Do you think she may be right at all in her concern for you? If you think that even a little it may cause you to go on the defensive as well.

You were right to tell her how you feel even if it did offend, now you can clear the air and move forward rather than quietly resenting and not getting the help you need. She is not a pro though and needs to learn how to be a support to someone whilst learning about herself in the process. I would not like being criticised, it natural to be off standing as a result the key is how you deal with that.

I hope you guys find a way to work through it xxx

[hamster-bamster]

If you are still not sleeping on such a high dose of Amitriptyline, you might need another medication, or an additional medication, for sleep.

You probably do not need a super-sensitive peer person around now - her presence is not only not supportive, but also rather counter-productive.

[hamster-bamster]

Just because she is called a "support" person does not make her supportive automatically.

Thx everybody. I slept yay!!!

Ok abt peer person this is the thing her and I are a lot alike. We r both 1/2 Native American and 1/2 Caucasian. We both have PTSD AND Bipolar. But where we aren't alike is I have lived with this illness untreated for yrs. I have developed coping skills as a result. However, I see her only using meds as her coping skills. Jmo, from what I've seen so far. Abt the meds she may b right but she doesn't respect me when I say ok I see ur point but I will just discuss this with my pdoc ok.

What really irks me is she is so SENSITIVE and insecure. I feel like I'm walking on eggshells around her. Don't get me wrong here, I know I can be that way at times especially if I feel misunderstood but she is getting paid to help me not the other way around.

I see my T today and I'm gonna discuss it with her. I adore my T and trust her. She goes every 5 yrs and spends a yr working with the girls over in India that were forced or sold into prostitution. I really admire her. That's another thing with so called support person I feel she's jealous that I admire and trust my T and not her, it's weird.

And I feel that she thinks we should be on the exact same meds. For instance we were talking abt anti-depressants one day, well I take zoloft she takes Prozac. She said Zoloft made her really agitated, I said Prozac did that to me. Then she said I think u just like being manic, wth. I said no meds effect everyone differently. I could tell she was like I don't buy it. She is not professional at all imo.

Honestly I already called the other agency that has peer support ppl. I told them what is going on with this woman. I can have both so I'm not totally giving up on J that's what I'll call her, but I may bc I don't need any additional stress right now, I just don't.

[hamster-bamster]

The support person is wrong in two very important ways:

1. PTSD cannot be fully treated with medications
2. Medications act differently on different people (you said it already)

Originally Posted by hamster-bamster

The support person is wrong in two very important ways:

1. PTSD cannot be fully treated with medications
2. Medications act differently on different people (you said it already)

Saw T went great. She's leaving it up to me what to do. I will be seeing j next week, I will see if we can work it out. If not I will just tell her thanks but not going to work. Today was a good day.