paranoia

Anybody else always have a low grade paranoia? I don't know if it's part of bp or ptsd.

I have a lot of it. It's low grade but gets more irrational sometimes.

Me as well.

I get anxiety and then short spurts of paranoia that last for a few days. Very recently the paranoia has surrounded all sorts of doom fearful and unrealistic expectations about death, such as the risk of dying at any moment and the idea that life after death is painful. :/

I know it's irrational and not worth thinking about but it grips my mind. Furthermore, I will wake up in the middle of the night with it on my mind, and I'm in such a disoriented haze that it's difficult to take control of it.

I'm just about constantly paranoid in varying degrees. It sucks.

I was just thinking how I'm feeling paraoid as I clicked on the bipolar forum, and there it is at the top. Some of my paranoia lasts for only a few moments, then I realize its irrational. But I do have some real reasons for it, but not getting enough sleep certainly makes this problem worse for me over the years.
Odee, I've been dealing with the same thing lately! You are right, it doesn't help thinking about it but its been hard for me to shake off too.

It's good knowing I'm not the only one. Not good that u guys have it too though, lol.

I think I've had it most of my life, I always thought it was just me being self conscious. Until this last episode when I knew I was paranoid. Then I was like I'm like this (to a lesser degree, of course) all the time.

i get it too, but i thinks its more like social anxieties mainly. sometimes i cant batrely call my sons school cuz i think they hate me, they prob do, but i can't change it and shouldnt let it hold me back from things i need to do for him. i get anxiety about driving, might be paranoia. i feel safe in my bed, ...

For me sometimes like when I'm grocery shopping I think everybody knows I'm bp. Sometimes I think my family wants me institutionalized. One of my sister's in particular. My other sister's tell me it's not true but she's the one that is the first to say you need to go to the hospital...She has no clue what its like in this particular clinic I'll call it.

The actual hospital isn't that bad but they only put you in there if your suicidal or homicidal. The other place is like a warehouse she would never send her kids there but me she's fine with. It's like let's lock her up and heavily medicate her so she's quiet and conforms. My other sister's say she doesn't want that for me but she's always saying maybe you need to be on more meds. Yeah so I can be like you a cold, lack of compassion mass of ice.

Sorry rant...

I get paranoid a lot. I think it's low grade.

Like in the hospital I thought they were taking a long time tho help me because I woed them some money.... hmmm owed them some money.... fromw hat.... from when I had my baby earlier in the year. I kept complaining to my husband and he had to keep calming me down.

I have it .. it blows

So it's not as uncommon as I thought. And Christina it does blow.

Thanks for the responses everyone.

It sounds like you're anxious/worried about what others think about you and it seems specific to mental illness (others thinking you have BP, others wanting you hospitalized). If you're in therapy, maybe your therapist can help you get to the bottom of it. Maybe also if you remind yourself that you can't know what others are thinking (sounds silly really, and probably easier said than done, but again, I think a therapist might be able to help you). It must be awful thinking that others are thinking such things. I hope you can find ways to feel better!

I get it too plus anxiety. You're not alone.