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How can I be (not happy) in an overwhelmed, frustrated, agitated mood one minute and the turn around and within 30 minutes to an hour later be depressed, no energy and suicidal that quick!!!!!?????? I don't understand!!! If I need to (because of company, or the phone rings,whatever) I could turn around and be happy and on top of the world that quick again!! Like a dam chameleons!!! HELP!!!! Don't know how to stop it! Maybe it's not all bad! I don't know! I mean is it normal?

Hi winkynjr.



Sorry you are not having a good day. It sounds like cycling where a mood swing cycles up then down. The speed of the cycle can be a terrible feeling as well.

Hopefully, you are seeing a T who can adjust your mediciations if you are on any. A Therapist who knows you can help you with therapy to reach your goals for treatment.

You can also start a post in the bipolar forum. Members of PC who may suffer from similar experiences may be able to provide you with feedback. As I am not sure whether you have been diagnosed, I can only suggest possible forums for support.

I do not have a T nor am I taking meds!!!

Wink, I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes, I go through those cycles w/in minutes of each other. That's how the diagnosed me. I didn't it 5 or 6 times w/in an hour. It is hell. But, I've learned a little to know when I'm swing like that and get myself to a safe place.

I'm sorry you're going through this. To state the obvious, you're clearly having a lot of trouble regulating your emotions on a moment to moment basis. You say you don't have a therapist, but is there any way you can get one? I think I read elsewhere that you're not interested in taking meds at the moment (don't know if that's still the case), but either way I think therapy may be able to help a lot. It's hard work, but often worth it!

Good luck.

I NEED to do something and soon and I know it but yet pushing myself to do it is another!!! its like if someone could do it for me would be the only way!! crazy!! I am getting so tired of trying to find a T and they either do not take my insurance or something!! I have lithium here at the house but yet I refuse to take it!!! YYYYYYYY??? I would rather just lay down and say f it!!!!!!!!!!!!

B/c if you lay down and say f**k it, the Bast**d wins. We can't let that happen.

so how the heck do I find the dam strength to continue this fight and find help because the ONLY reason I am even around right now is that God knew what he was doing when he gave me my son who needs me....sorry I am going to bed and pull the cover over my head now...

Wink, I know exactly what you feel like. Some days, I don't have the energy to fight, but fight I must. Your son is a good enough reason right there. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Don't give up. Please don't. It will get better. It may not feel like it now, and I know it's hard, I'm fighting the same feelings now, but we have to just keep trucking along.

The bast**d I refer to is that little and loud voice that is in the back of my head that is always negative. I can't let it win, I won't let it win, and I hope that you won't either.

I know this feeling very well and I'm so sorry that you're going through it. Take things one hour or even one minute at a time, and find the strength wherever you need to.

I agree with jeffro, don't let it win. That perpetually negative voice is lying to you. You have a LOT of reasons to continue even if you can't really see it right now.

I hope you feel better soon.