[Mack2]

I seem to be constantly making a "fresh start". Sorting out the finances, trying to get back a routine, trying to find my life again until the next time it all goes Crashing down again. It's just one long cycle like bipolar. Life then no life, routine then no routine. Trying to start over having messed up your life one more time. I've been clean from my addiction for 3 days and I'm proud of myself, but where do I begin. I have no idea. I don't really know life without my addiction. I do know I'm free of it though.

[gayleggg]

Congratulations on being free from your addiction for 3 days. That's a great start. Keep up the good work.

[Meveret]

Same issue here. I keep having to start over and then it all falls apart again. Honestly I have no advice. People tell to just keep at it.

I guess.... try again? Maybe it will turn out ok?

[unaluna]

Progress not perfection. Altho somebody on here had an even better saying than that recently, but now I forget what it was! I made a 10 month plan with my t. I got lost on week TWO! But started recording again on week three. Do you have somebody like a t who can be helpful, not mean?

[Mack2]

I have many people who are here for me but none know of my addiction and they've all heard it before about my 'new start' I'm full of good intention but it never lasts. I'm trying to be positive. Although I know for sure my addiction is over its just the whole 'new start' bit I've yet to perfect

[deelooted]

Damn, how I can relate with this! Sorry, no help here but I can offer my encouragement.

I am in the middle of crashing, but I can say that the last year has been the longest I have kept it together... barely. I totally know what you mean about "one long cycle like bipolar". What helped the most was staying off the dope more than being on it.

[Dylanzmama]

Yep, starting over all the time! This time is definitely the worst. I'm 40, I can't keep doing this!

[~Christina]

No one can just " start over" there are steps you focus on getting from step one to step 2 etc etc ... Sometimes when we want everything to get better and starting over with it all seems the only way .. Its often winds up a setting for failure...

My advice .. Step 1 to step 2 and enjoy step 2 maybe stay there for a bit and know that YOU accomplished it.. Then you move on to the next step...

Chances are your life didnt turn into a mess all at once so reason says it will take time to repair the damage .

Slow and steady wins this race .

[LadyShadow]

I often feel this way too. I am 33 and having to start over all over again. Have to look for a new job because I failed at the last one I was at, forcing me to quit. So here we go again.

But, I have to keep moving on, hoping that next time I will be able to move on and find something better that will stick.

I agree slow and steady wins the race, just pick up and keep going.

Congratulations on being clean for three days, that's really an accomplishment!