[sleeplessinva]

Hi,
I was diagnosed with bipolar a few years ago, I was unhappy with my medication and treatment, so I stopped it. Everything had been going very well for about a year and a half or two, but now I think I'm having a manic episode.All I can think about is sex. I usually never think about it that much. The past week, it's been taking over my life. I stay up all night, or at least very late, I am sending naked pictures to strangers I meet online, I am acting very reckless. I can't focus on anything else...my house is a mess, I am letting everything else fall to the wayside, as I obsess and obsess over sex. I don't know what to do, or how to make it stop. I really thought I was doing good before, and I don't want to go back to seeing a doctor...I hate being medicated!! I don't want my husband to find out what I'm doing, it's embarrassing, and I have no one else to confide in...but I know this is not normal. I don't know what to do, or how to make it stop.... I am addicted to answering and posting sex ads on craigslist.... I've been spending every waking moment doing that for days...

[Victoria'smom]

for now get melitonin and take it around 8 am &pm. Can you increase the amount and intensity of sex you have with your husband? Masterbation is a wonderful thing get some new toys and have fun 'breaking them in. There's not much you can do other than disconnect your internet, exersize like crazy, and cut all junk food and caffeine until it passes.

[BlueInanna]

It is embarrassing I know!
I rarely contact my doc in times like that, I wait u til the depression crash hits and she pointed this out to me last week.
If u don't want doc or meds or to be unfaithful, consider MM good advice above. Also... Does your hubby know you have bp? Can you tell him you need to play NOW? I've done that before with bf & sometimes had to talk him into it, or make it clear I'm going thru something & it's all I can think about, so can he just help me out. Then poor guy I go thru the times where I'm uninterested for many months straight.

[sleeplessinva]

Thanks for your responses! My husband knows I'm bipolar, but I don't think he understands about mania. He just thinks he's really getting lucky right now.

I have some toys, and I can't stop masturbating... when my kids are at school, I've been doing it for hours on end. But it seems like I keep taking it to a more dangerous level. I've been letting men from craigslist tell me to do things, like write nasty, horrible things on my private areas, and then send them pictures of it...I worry that I might totally lose control and agree to meet up with some of these men and have sex with them...I don't want to. But I feel so out of control.
I'm afraid my husband would be disgusted by my secrets.

I feel as long as you are able to confine your activities to home you should be ok but moving to the internet (my hub works in cybersecurity) and possibly out of the home puts your physical safety at risk and possibly your family. Its just my opinion but I feel some kind of help is needed even if just going to therapy since you dont want meds.

[Confusedinomicon]

Taking inappropriate photos and sending it to strangers is a form of cheating unless you are in an open/poly relationship where arrangements allow for partners to seek more romances. Just because its online and not physical doesn't mean it isn't damaging. At least see a therapist.

[monochromatic]

You're lucky your husband doesn't mind the increase.

I've always had a higher drive than my boyfriend, which is usually content with less often sex. It makes me feel rejected, which often makes me more depressed or angry, if i'm up.

[Victoria'smom]

You need to find out where your husband lye with what is and is not cheating but NOT NOW. I really suggest the melitonin for a little because it can be sedating and I doubt you're sleeping. Therapy is a wonderful idea because you will crash. Can you text your husband through out the day and leave him voice mails through out the day? Would he mind you waking him up in the night when you feel like having sex? It really sounds like your not having sex enough and not intense enough.

[BlueInanna]

A little bit of med can make a huge difference if you're willing. I'm worried you're about to do stuff you'll regret like I have . There's a lot at risk, think of diseases, strangers knowing where you live, fall in love with you or vice versa, potential stalkers, etc. you are playing with the fire. Be well

[Alokin]

Be careful! You have to stay in control. My sexual mania does not manifest in the same way, but I understand, i really do, it will pass.

[vans1974]

So sorry to hear...I can relate and appreciate what you are experiencing since I am hypersexual at times as well! Mine is due to being bipolar and when I'm in hypomania sex becomes an obsession and an addiction that is difficult to manage! For me medication is the only answer. I hate the meds as well, but staying on mood stabilizing drugs like Latuda and Lamictal keep me in line. So, does taking a benzo or a sleep aid help! All the best!!