[russells]

I'm not feeling suicidal, I don't want to die, but I feel like hurting myself.

I have sudden impulsive urges to swallow lots of my medication which involves anti-psychotics and anti-depressants. I have 120 pills in total.

I doubt I'll take action, but I wanted to vent this anyway.

Sometimes I get these urges, I don't know why and it's quite scary at times.

[gayleggg]

Is there someone safe that you can turn your medications over to until these urges pass? I can understand how it can be really scary when you get urges such as this. Glad you came here to vent. Venting is definitely a better way to deal with tough emotions than taking too much medication. Medications that can leave you alive but damage organs such as kidneys, etc. If these urges presist please get in touch with you doctor or go directly to the emergency room. Wishing you well.

[Skittles56]

Urges are dangerous. They turn into action all too often, especially in the case of a disorder like bipolar which can suppress our behavioral limits. I agree with Gayle. If you have someone who can vend the pills to you, that would be the best, but if the urges won't subside, seek help sooner than later.

[x_BabyG_x]

Sorry you are feeling bad Taking a freezing cold shower usually shocks it out of my system and snaps me out of that way of thinking, if only temporarily!

[mel77777]

interesting.... I get those thoughts as well. To go and grab my pills to hurt my self. I fight the urge by thinking of my children.

Im another who gets these types of urges regularly. I wait for them to pass, they always pass.

If I feel unsafe with medication or sharp objects I steer well clear of them. I have been known to give my meds to neighbours to keep me safe but havent had to do that for a fair while because I've learned even if I get these urges I very rarely will act on them.

[Wham6429]

Originally Posted by x_BabyG_x

Sorry you are feeling bad Taking a freezing cold shower usually shocks it out of my system and snaps me out of that way of thinking, if only temporarily!

I agree, but I usually do the opposite and take extremely hot showers...

[token451]

I have had to give all my sharp objects to friends before and avoided visiting home for a while knowing the gun collection my brother had amassed.

[otroo]

Originally Posted by mel77777

interesting.... I get those thoughts as well. To go and grab my pills to hurt my self. I fight the urge by thinking of my children.

I am the exact same way.

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[Rrancher]

I get these too. I can't talk to the people in my life about it... definitely not when it is happening... because then theyfreak out that I'm ssuicidal and it becomes a big deal. maybe it is a big deal but it is a normal thing I deal with.

[Side of the Angels]

me me me. omg when they first put me on Seroquel every time I poured them into my hand to grab one I immediately could not stop imagine eating all of them. It fascinated me that I could kill myself this way. I dont take them anymore and it doesn't really happen with my million other pills, I think it was because they were so tiny but powerful and eating just a handful would kill me. U do need to mention it to doc though.