[tigersassy]

Does anyone else have a problem trying to start suggested self help things? I've been told to try meditation. Last night I gave it my first go. Less than 5 mins in I got so frustrated at myself that I threw my guiding book across the room. I feel like my brain is so against me trying to mellow that there is no point in anything. But whatever. I just want to give up trying to deal with this whole thing, but my spouse won't let me.

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[Victoria'smom]

Yes, all the time.

[Trippin2.0]

Funny you should post this thread right now. Though not funny in a haha lmao way...

I just read an article a few hours ago about how many people don't follow through with improving themselves because our brains are stubborn a.s.s.holes who don't like change. Especially if there's hard work involved and sometimes we even finds solace in our efftupness, its what we know, what we're accustomed to, and changing that is scary, albeit subconciously.

Take diet and exercise for example, some people manage to lose say x amount of weight in 3 months. Then they go to 1 buffet and a skip a week at the gym, and a lot of that weight returns in no time at all.

So in this scenario a lot of us say "fk it I'll just stay fat, healthy is too much effort"

Anyway, my rambling aside, I do think many of us do this at some point, but we either have to get motivated despite the setbacks and kick the challenge's a.s.s or become bitter and give up before even giving it a real shot. And the force behind which option we choose is our perception.

Meditation isn't easy for anybody, and I know personally the frustration of which you speak. That's why its recommended to start out with 5 min exercises and build up from there.
I also know that all that hard work, book throwing frustration, and screaming at the rebellious brain pays off eventually. Big time.

[tigersassy]

I really do just want to say f it all. Doesn't help that I am (hypo) manic and can't stay still for long not to mention the rushing running thoughts that don't feel like my own. How can I make myself sit and clear my mind if everything is in such upheaval? I'm tired of the mental health song and dance. It seems it would be "easier" to just give up.

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[Trippin2.0]

Maybe easier to give up yes, but would it be better?

Meditation takes A LOT of practice, but it is starting to pay off for me - after a years of feeling like I was getting no where I can now meditate for longer periods of time. Im still not up to a full hour a day yet but I am getting there, slowly but surely.

There was a time in my life, after I had tried many many things with no success, that I just stopped trying. Well I got jack of that after a while, its horrible to be a slave to your moods. Now Im trying again all the things I tried years ago, and at this stage of my life they are making a huge difference. I dont know if maybe I wasnt ready earlier, now I am in a different phase, the meds are working, smoking weed etc but what ever it is, these alternative and extra things I am doing are improving my life dramatically.

When you give something a go its no use doing it once or twice, its very unlikely you will get any benefit at all. Try working these strategies into your daily routine. Not necessarily at this time you must do this thing, but more every day I will try to use this way of coping somewhere throughout the day.

Excusing yourself from trying by blaming symptoms will get you no where fast. Everyone has struggles, its how you deal with these struggles that will help you live your life. The only person you are hurting by not being proactive is yourself. It is brilliant you gave it a go, but try and try again until you get it. You didnt give up trying to learn to walk when you were a baby, or learning to write, learning takes time and effort. I think we forget that in adulthood.

[thickntired]

Try to set smaller goals and take it easy on yourself. I'm hardwired for instant gratification as well. I started with a self guided meditation app. I really want to lose weight and obviously do it in like 3 days *eyes roll. I guess trying to find support and keep a positive attitude are helpful. That and remember this isn't a race or feat of perfection.

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[tigersassy]

[/QUOTE]
Excusing yourself from trying by blaming symptoms will get you no where fast. Everyone has struggles, its how you deal with these struggles that will help you live your life. The only person you are hurting by not being proactive is yourself. It is brilliant you gave it a go, but try and try again until you get it. You didnt give up trying to learn to walk when you were a baby, or learning to write, learning takes time and effort. I think we forget that in adulthood.[/QUOTE]

I didn't realize I was blaming my symptoms for reasons for me not to try. I have been trying. I just got so frustrated with it that I needed to get it out. I am still unable to get to 5 mins. But what can I do....

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[tranquility84]

I read a quote earlier about not measuring your day by the harvest you've reaped, but by the seeds you've sown. Perhaps you can take heart in the efforts you've expended in at least trying the meditation. Like Supanova said, just try again til you succeed. I guess things get better the more u try wishing u strength in these difficult times.

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