[wildflowerchild25]

So I believe I MAY have POSSIBLY clicked in to hypomania. And I am so frustrated because I am so happy and I want to do so much but my body is just not down with it this week! I have a cold so I was physically exhausted for the last three days - but brain was like NO stay up and do your plans! Read a book!! Do research! And today I feel more energetic finally but I somehow hurt my back badly - I can only walk in a slow, stiff shamble. And I sure can't clean or do any of the things I normally do when hypo! It is so frustrating!!! That's why my name is all over the board - I can't physically act out my energy so I'm here bothering all of you

Has this ever happened to anyone? Or even the opposite maybe - super tired from depression but body can't relax. It must be infuriating!

I have injured my back like this before so I know it takes about three days to become functional again. Sadly I cycle so rapidly that if this is an episode, I may have crashed by then! How sad! And it's supposed to be so nice weather wise - finally! Ugh.

[Lobster Hands]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

So I believe I MAY have POSSIBLY clicked in to hypomania. And I am so frustrated because I am so happy and I want to do so much but my body is just not down with it this week! I have a cold so I was physically exhausted for the last three days - but brain was like NO stay up and do your plans! Read a book!! Do research! And today I feel more energetic finally but I somehow hurt my back badly - I can only walk in a slow, stiff shamble. And I sure can't clean or do any of the things I normally do when hypo! It is so frustrating!!! That's why my name is all over the board - I can't physically act out my energy so I'm here bothering all of you

Has this ever happened to anyone? Or even the opposite maybe - super tired from depression but body can't relax. It must be infuriating!

I have injured my back like this before so I know it takes about three days to become functional again. Sadly I cycle so rapidly that if this is an episode, I may have crashed by then! How sad! And it's supposed to be so nice weather wise - finally! Ugh.

Oh man can I relate to this. Literally ever day for I don't even know how long I had that feeling...it was like I couldn't decide if I was tired or I was super hyper. That may not make sense.

But yes, I do really feel hopped up super tired a lot. I'd say it is a pretty common symptom with me whether I'm depressed or manic. Except theres a difference...when it happens to me while depressed its more just super restless energy while being like a mega sloth. Where when it happens during mania (very mild mania I think (a lot of the time I never get tired during mania)) I have all these "really important" plans that I have to get done but I'm tired and I end up pacing around yelling at people and brooding on what I'm not doing.

I don't know...that's a good question and it kind of confuses me when I think about it. I really only remember small details from my episodes because it just blends together. The parts I remember most are from being tired and pacing around though.

Sorry for the bad answer Child of the Wildflowers...

[Mickey4333]

wildflowerchild, I love it when you are "here bothering all of" us! You are a good chatter. Lobster Hands..., no need to apologize "for the bad answer". It was a very good and relevant post.

I also relate. Right now I feel "stable" but my mind wants to do a lot, but I can not make the body to do much of anything! My last episode was a mixed episode and I wonder if maybe it is a result of that. A "leftover" or a very mild mixed episode. I guess it is OK. It is tolerable.

[~Christina]

Yes ! Wildflower .. even tho I have been pretty quiet lately I always enjoy your posting

[wildflowerchild25]

My back is better today lol so I was able to do more! I hung up my students' posters finally. And I played handbag bingo at my school and it was soooo much fun! I can feel a little bit of a switch coming on so I may take my prn Seroquel. But it any event...thanks for the replies lol!

By the way...it is going to be gorgeous this weekend. But we're looking at a possible HUGE snowstorm in Tuesday!!!! I can't take it! If I lose ANOTHER day of spring break I will FREAK OUT!

[BipolaRNurse]

It's been that way for me lately too. I've been in what I finally acknowledged was a mixed episode, and it's either been my mind saying GO and my body saying NO, or just the opposite. Never could get 'em to line up with each other, which was probably for the best because it kept me out of trouble, even while BP was kicking my @$$.

Mind and body not aligning with each other? I know that feeling. Since I started Depacote in October, I have been that way. My mind keeps going, but my body won't. The medicine has me less manic, but I have no desire or ambition at all. Only way I can describe it is when at times through the years when I would self medicate for a while and then stop. I would feel like this for maybe a week or two.

I'm beginning to wonder if I should stay on this medicine. Not being as manic is probably a good thing, but I've got to get some ambition/motivation back. I've got to find employment somehow. My blood pressure the other day was 182/99. Mental clinic folks have been on me about it. They don't understand that I cannot afford to go to a doctor and get medicine for it. Nearest place for free service is 35 miles one way. If I walk there, maybe I won't need blood pressure medicine anymore as that would be some great cardio.

Whenever I get colds or physical problems my mood improves. Im not sure why, but it does almost everytime. Not to the point of mania, but usually when I have a cold or the flu my mood is pretty great. Not gastro though haha, Im full of anxiety if I am that physically sick.

[PsychSurvey]

Just wait for your back to heal a bit, then enjoy the weather.