[r010159]

I am finishing my day on a more relaxed upbeat mood. I feel more confident. I still am having some problems with anxiety. I might just attend a support group soon.

[Sad&Bipolar]

Feeling awful again. It always feels so much worse late at night. I wonder when I will get the right med, or get TMS?

[Curiosity77]

I've been feeling a bit unstable since my experiment with stopping saphris for a five days. I'm mostly back to normal, except still feeling a little hypersexual and my judgement isn't the best (embarrassing but true). I was texting with a guy i met online and made plans to see him tomorrow, and now i'm nervous about it. I think he's ok, but we said a lot of things, and i hope he's not expecting anything for sure. I should probably stay off the dating sites when i feel this way for safety, but i don't care at the time i'm chatting with the guy. So now feeling a little pathetic for wanting that kind of attention, and i want to meet up with this guy because he seems cool, but i don't want to get hurt. All of this has little to do with bipolar, and more to do with my personality and self esteem i think. So i don't know if i should call off the plans. I want to meet someone because i don't want to be single forever, but i wish there was a better way to go about it. Makes me sad.

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[tigersassy]

Doing ok. I'm a little peeved at work because they expect me to do something in a timely manor, but I have to spend 30-45 mins looking for the equipment required to do the job everyday.Tonights dose will be Day 4 of the lamactal at 25 mg. I'm hoping this med works well. Trying to stay positive which is sometimes hard. I'm really tired this morning, might have something to do with meds or going to bed later than I should. Kindda want a nap already.

Tig

Still feeling very down. See my pdoc next Monday, so hopefully he can work some magic.

[shortandcute]

I'm feeling very tired and depressed today. Just went through a manic episode and I'm exhausted. It seems like every time I go through mania, I end up getting sick.Not sure why that happens.

[Standup2me]

Feeling good, feeling like a part of the world.

[in-balance]

Waiting to go in for therapy. Feeling anxious, trying to "do" distress tolerance as much as I can.

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Saw my drs today, therapy went well I enjoyed the comments I got that I looked good today (healthy and dressed nice) Although I have been stable for a while on depakote, I have also gained weight, started losing my hair and have tremors so...I asked to go back on lamictal and topomax and pdoc agreed. So lets keep our fingers crossed it goes well!
Also spent time putting my meds and vitamins together...I take a lot of pills!
Depakote, lamictal, topomax, luvox, amoxapine, synthroid, zocor, vayarin, GNC multivitamins and
AZO cranberry pills. Ugh (I'm titrating though)

[Roblovescats]

Tired.

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[Phoenix_1]

I've had a bad headache for 3 weeks and now I'm nauseous. I sure hope it's not a side effect of my meds. Because I'm feeling stable right now and I don't want to change my meds.

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[Roblovescats]

I've had bad headaches too! Think it's Springtime. Allergies

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[Standup2me]

BF threatened to leave if I got a dog

I said that nobody is stopping you - there's the door

P.doc told me that I really need a dog as a therapy animal. My old girl died a year ago, and I've been a mess ever since.

Severe depression, but at least I have physical energy. (So what's new, right?)

[tigersassy]

I know i'm looking at 2 weeks before i'll notice if the new med is working, but I wish it'd kick in already. I'm still experiencing symptoms and I just want it to stop. I want stability. Instead of this overreactive bs. I'm trying different things, but I will say this I was finally able to sit and read a book. So thats a plus. But who knows if that'll last. Fingers crossed.

Tig

[Standup2me]

Tig - sending you good thoughts

[moremi]

I havent been sleeping for a few nights but its strange because im only having racing thoughts. Im tired but my mind wont turn off. Usually when I dont sleep this ling im atleast hypomanic. Its strange.

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[charo224488]

Originally Posted by tigersassy

I take viibryd. It got me out of my last depression.

Tig

I also took viibryd- it was a great med and actually worked for me. Then in the second week I got a bad rash and had to stop it. I'm allergic to it.

[charo224488]

I've been too depressed to even post on this thread for days. Zoloft sucks again- should have known since it stopped working last time. Kept thinking how comforting driving into a tree would be. You know that depression that comes at you in waves, so strong that you can't breathe? That's where I am. So tired.

[in-balance]

Good day in general. I'm very proud that I handled a stressful call to a bill collector calmly. (And that took a bit of doing, emotionally.) Instead of yelling at a woman who was undoubtedly just doing her job, I was able to give voice to my stressed emotions in a cool, reasonable way: "When you said [that]," I told this woman, "I was feeling really...alarmed." And, eventually, everything got RESOLVED!

[tigersassy]

Not 100% sure what the hell is going on with me. I know new med shouldn't be working yet. I can tell its not truly working too, but i'm feeling mixed again. Or maybe something else. I don't know. I'm feeling lost and confused and overwhelmed so my anxiety is up, but what can I do? I've got racing negative thoughts which i'm trying to replace, but I can't they keep coming at me. I just want to scream and rip my hair out. Sleep seems like the best escape, but my wife won't let me.

Tig

[Flummixed]

I am having a very high anxiety day today. I find myself so sick and tired of being anxious all the time. I get upset with my doctor because I talk to him about it yet he never seems to try to help me with it. My stomach is in knots from the time I wake up until the time I go to sleep (if I do sleep). I feel like people are out to get me and that I can't even trust my own wife. I keep trying to say to myself over and over in my head that everything will be ok. I'm right there with you sassy. When I sleep things seem to be better but then the wife complains that all I do is sleep. I just can't freaking win.

[Moreta]

I went and got my hair done, and it's back to my natural color....grrrr.....I wanted blonde, but the hairstylist didn't want to fry my hair. At least the red is gone. She said we could go lighter next time. I just really hate brown hair.

Depression continues. Husband is gone today at a work-related function, so it's a unique kind of Saturday in that way. Just passing time between internet and t.v. waiting for 5 p.m., the time I go up to my bedroom and disappear from the world.

[Curiosity77]

I really need to study because I start a difficult preceptorship on Monday, but i can't concentrate for more than 2 minutes. Getting really frustrated

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