[wachiki92]

My biggest regret now is failing out of college. I told everyone that I had just lost interest in it all, but the truth is that i fell into depression for a little over 2 months and barely got out of bed. I had stopped taking my medication earlier that year in the previous semester. If I had just continued taking just 2 pills a day things might have been different. Maybe I would have graduated this year. I'm currently trying to get back into school. I've been accepted and am registered. the biggest thing is moving back 5 hrs away. I'm just worried about all the new events and stress. Full time student, new job, and moving. I don't want to overwhelm myself.

[IchbinkeinTeufel]

Neither can I, wachiki92. I hold onto my regrets like I hold onto each breath of Oxygen. I don't know why, and I can't seem to stop, but they drag me down so much, sometimes. I still hold to my heart regrets from when I was a child. I know I should let go, ... I'm a man, now, but it's not that easy. I must admit, confronting those regrets, and talking about them, has helped a bit.

You're doing better than I did, by the way. When I was younger, I peed away my entire education - my only education (although rather a lot) has been from home, teaching myself German, the guitar, computers, English, and whatever else that perks my interest. I think you're doing well, all things considered.

I think it's good that you are aware that things could get overwhelming; it means you can preemptively get some extra support.

[r010159]

I have a mountain of regrets the is eclipsed only by Mt. Everest, both what I have done to myself, and what I have done to others. I have many missed "once in a lifetime" opportunities because of how I had been unstable.

My regrets are dragging me down too. I am trying to forgive myself but I dont know how.

[Skitz13]

Originally Posted by wachiki92

My biggest regret now is failing out of college. I told everyone that I had just lost interest in it all, but the truth is that i fell into depression for a little over 2 months and barely got out of bed. I had stopped taking my medication earlier that year in the previous semester. If I had just continued taking just 2 pills a day things might have been different. Maybe I would have graduated this year. I'm currently trying to get back into school. I've been accepted and am registered. the biggest thing is moving back 5 hrs away. I'm just worried about all the new events and stress. Full time student, new job, and moving. I don't want to overwhelm myself.

Wow, you're going to have a lot on you're plate. Try and pace yourself and practice self care.

As for going off your meds, we've all done it. Don't regret just let it be a lesson learned and move forward as you are. Just pace yourself

[Skitz13]

I could sit here and regret every stupid thing I do but really, all it's doing is making me feel worse than I'm already feeling

[outlaw sammy]

THERE IS NO PLACE FOR REGRETS IN THE SHADOW OF BIPOLAR DISORDER!!! Why blame yourselves for that of which you haven't any control?

Certainly, the heart attack victim may blame themselves for the catastropy in spite of the fact that it may have been brought on by genetic factors - but of what value is such self-destructive admonishment? It only causes pain and often blocks initial actions towards recovery.

In a similar way, the sufferer of bipolar disorder is naturally inclined to blame themselves for the harms they've caused themselves and others as a result of a decompensation episode - but to what end? Oh sure, the episode may have been caused by failure to take medication, but human beings naturally make mistakes - and a mistake does not define culpability for the result(s).

I accidently got my medications mixed up about one and a half years ago where I decompensated into manic-psychosis. A series of tragedies followed where I was made to suffer dire consequences after returning to normal. Nevertheless, I refuse to blame myself for anything. I have a crippling illness, and if that should cause me and/or others harm, then it's unfortunate but nothing more.

If you still insist on blaming yourselves and carrying the guilty, then at least learn to forgive yourselves.

[r010159]

Originally Posted by outlaw sammy

THERE IS NO PLACE FOR REGRETS IN THE SHADOW OF BIPOLAR DISORDER!!! Why blame yourselves for that of which you haven't any control?

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If you still insist on blaming yourselves and carrying the guilty, then at least learn to forgive yourselves.

Wise words!

[tljim]

I know this can easily be taken as only words, but you must forgive yourself. You can't change anything in the past no matter how much you want, but you can change the future. Take it step by step and love the precious person that you are. So many people not suffering from mental challenges fail out of college too. We are here to continue to provide encouragement. It sounds like you are making great strides. You can do it. You just have to believe in yourself and try to throw out the self doubt. I wish you the best!

[wachiki92]

I just came across a quite by George Eliot that pertains to my post. "It is never too late to be what you might have been."

[Angry1541]

Yeah...there are maybe a few things in particular that I regret...the rest, I guess I gotta chalk up to learning experiences, or let them go as best I am able, because I can't change the past...can only live in the now and look to the future.