[Victoria'smom]

Ones again seemingly out of episode I have paranoia, not that bad today. I don't get it its not fair. I think its stress related but.., I really don't need this or get this. I'm taking my seroquel but it makes me so uncomfortable if I don't go to sleep right away and for a while after I wake up, plus I'm gaining weight but I have to take it or my husband gets the brunt of it, plus its not good to go on a 14 hr car ride with someone that you are terrified of ( so not rational) . I know Friday my t called and he spoke to her. I have no idea what he said. I asked him if he said I was having a bad day all he said is "paranoia is really getting to you". He never answer the question. T's really the only one I trust.

Is this part of BP or something else? If so what? How do I get rid of the uncomfortable feeling drugs give you? What is that? Does anyone other then me get stress related paranoia? My next and last appointments are the 7th and I can't see them sooner. It'll be the first and last appointment with my new pdoc. How do I tell a brand new Dr what's going on? What do I do if I get paranoia on my trips?

[Skitz13]

You've got some real stressors. I tend to get paranoid at times but I recognize it for what it is and can talk myself down and rationalize it.

My hope is that you can get settled soon. Everything is so up in the air for you right now.

FWIW, given your situation, you're hanging in pretty good.

[BipolaRNurse]

I agree with Plzsti. You've got enough on your plate for four or five people---frankly I'm happy you're doing as well as you are. I think I'd be bat-crap crazy with all you've got going on.

I think all you can do when the paranoia hits is to remind yourself that this, too, shall pass---it always does with us BPs. I don't know if this will help you, but when I get paranoid, I talk to myself OUT LOUD and remind myself that my interpretation of the situation is not correct---the neighbors are NOT spying on me, in fact, they don't give a rat's arse about me. That car isn't following me up my road because the occupants mean to do me harm. The government is not out to take away my freedoms (well, yeah, they are, but that's a whole other discussion).

Just thought I'd throw that out there, it doesn't work for everyone but it does help me more often than not.

[Victoria'smom]

I conclude I may be in a hypo mania. Which I wouldn't recognize because I have so much to do anyway and its me, even with meds I'm extreme . it would make sense why were out of grocery money ( going to a food bank today), not really sleeping without the seroquel ( unless my body is now use to the seroquel), and paranoid.

I wouldn't recognize, distractibility, racing thoughts, agitation or other hypomanic signs because I'm to busy with moving and let's face it I don't know what light mood is. What if the restlessness I blame on the seroquel is actually just me. My husband would have no idea but it could just be anxiety also.

What do you guys think?

[wildflowerchild25]

I've had a couple of stress induced hallucinations so I imagine that you could indeed have stress induced paranoia as well. I know you're really worried about being able to keep up the facade when you are away with your parents. The anxiety must be making you quite uncomfortable. Of course you could also be in a hypomania - you said it yourself, it's difficult for you to recognize your own mood states.

As for dealing with drug side effects, I must take cogentin with most antipsychotics to combat stiffness, restlessness, etcetera. It sucks having to take another med to balance out the first med but that's what I have to do. I know you hate medication and I'm so happy you're taking the Seroquel in the first place. Cogentin might help with restlessness if it is from the med and not from hypomania. But that's totally up to you.

I hope things calm down for you soon. I can't tell you not to worry about your upcoming trip but just know I'm sending positive energy out in the universe for you.

[bleutamales]

I get super paranoid from time to time just sitting in my house. I can only imagine what you're going through. I remember from another post that you said your meds are kind of messed up right now because of your move and all? That could be part of it. Are you having any sort of caffeine? That right there will throw me into paranoia if I'm already stressed. Stressed=not sleeping=lots of caffeine to get things done=paranoia from too much of it. At least that's what happens to me. Of course I get paranoid without the aid of caffeine also. Are you close to that time of the month? That makes me paranoid for no reason too.

My lifesaver is ativan. If you are that stressed and it causes paranoia a benzo will just make you feel normal. I don't know if you are prescribed anything like that but it will take the edge off.

I hope you start feeling better!!

[Victoria'smom]

I'm so happy you're taking the Seroquel in the first place. most people seem to be, I swear my t was going to jump up and give me a hug when she found out I was taking it full time. She had an ear to ear grin between that and finding out I tried to go to the crisis unit.

remember from another post that you said your meds are kind of messed up right now because of your move and all? I got my meds fixed kinda sorta. I'm being passed to another psychiatrist for one session but at least if something goes wrong I'll have someone to call. It certainly could be part of it.

Are you having any sort of caffeine? I actually stopped all caffeine about 3 weeks ago because of my weight gain. Yes, guys I'm still drinking liquids its just now pink lemonade.

Are you close to that time of the month? Nope, I finished it right before this started.