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Old Apr 20, 2014, 12:15 AM
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A new one to start off again....
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 03:33 AM
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I guess I'm the first to post to the new thread.

It's night 3 of no Saphris. So far my mood is staying stable, and I'm not having any withdrawal symptoms other than insomnia. I was up until 6 am last night, and managed to sleep 4 hours. Now it's 1:30 am and I'm pretty wide awake. If I don't start sleeping this could turn into a disaster. I'm hoping I'll be able to stay off this med and stay well. My pdoc thinks it's a bad idea, but I feel like I have to at least try.
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 04:41 AM
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I am feeling just horrible. I have been like this for a while. Now tonight I read info on this site about Borderline and I am worried that bipolar may be the wrong diagnosis for me. There seems to be a lot of overlap between the two.
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 08:21 AM
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Stayed up late last night fell asleep on my mother-in-laws couch got home stayed up for a bit them went to real bed at 1ish this morning. Now its 9 am. I don't really want to be up, but no choice i'm awake now. Yesterday I had a mini breakdown while my wife and I were hiking in a national park. I really hope that tomorrows pdoc appt my first in a long time goes well and can lead to something being "fixed". I want to know what is wrong with me for sure and for it to be fixed. I want to be better and not feel like I'm all over the place. Baby steps I have to keep reminding myself, tomorrow is just a step. Its not going to be fixed in one visit with any dr. At least its a step in the right direction.

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Old Apr 20, 2014, 09:24 AM
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Still depressed but am glad to be getting out of the house to go to Easter mass and then to my brother's.
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 01:00 PM
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Still feeling somewhat stable. I've been separated from my abusive husband for 5 years so I'm tentatively sticking my toe into the dating pool. I had a first date last night. We went to a movie. He seems very nice. I'm scared to tell him I have BP2. His daughter has BP1. He may freak and run away from me. Would it be a terrible thing to tell him I have cyclothymia instead? I feel that my BP is pretty well controlled on my current meds.

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Old Apr 20, 2014, 06:50 PM
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Not thinking of death, not feeling much of anything but bone crushing exhaustion.
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 06:55 PM
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Not stable. Need to get back to mood charting. Need to do many very important things, but immobilized by overwhelm and fear. By even the least of them. Disproportionate irritable outbursts. Agitation, sometimes to the point of desperately wanting to crawl out of my skin, and writhe on the ground unto expiration. One night, coinciding with so wanting to be glad, because BF was talking on interesting things. The kind of conversations I enjoy, but I couldn't keep track. Mind was in total scattered overdrive and body was in squirm. Feeling like a POS in nearly every way. Almost walked out of work the other day. 40 minutes late another day. The list goes on...

I'm tempted to say mixed. But also hesitant to, because the one of 1 1/2 years ago was of such massive proportions, that to use the same word seems wrong.So let's go with agitated depression.

Surely stress-triggered. Each facet a novel. Big decisions. Paradigm shifts. Provider dilemmas. Physical appts (after years of inaccessibility while falling apart). Mental appt. with a lot of big topics. Son (21) having mental symptoms scaring him enough to summon up the courage to call (the mother who knows "crazy" first hand after all) to talk about them. A week ago, I signed papers beginning the disability process. Of course involving admitting -- to strangers-- the extent of my problems. But I finally have to acknowledge it. I can't do it, and trying to is destroying me. It's time. I have nothing to lose anymore.
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Old Apr 20, 2014, 07:37 PM
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Strange thoughts and feelings continue and it's approaching the danger zone. Imagined hitting a pillar on the highway with my car again. Felt real. But they're not my thoughts and feelings it's coming from outside of me somewhere. Like the last time and I don't know who or what or why but it's not safe. I have glass and I will use it and I don't want to and I wish whatever it is would leave me alone.

So I buckled down and took the Seroquel. I hate the side effects. But I can't lose my life or my freedom. Just my mental freedom.

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Old Apr 20, 2014, 08:30 PM
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It's day 3 off saphris, and i've been sleeping 3-4 hours per night. I am feeling a little anxious, and i can't shut my brain off to rest. I'm wide awake, but i have no energy or motivation to do anything. I should study, but i'm too unfocused, i don't think i can even concentrate to watch TV. I'm not sure if this is all saphris withdrawal, or if this is the start of an episode, or if everything is fine and i'm just worrying. Not sure whether i should just start taking the med again or whether to push through.

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Old Apr 20, 2014, 09:05 PM
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I'm getting a dog!!!!!!

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Old Apr 21, 2014, 09:51 AM
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Depression lingers. I'm tired of the same crap, different day routine but feel powerless to change it. Each day just drags on so . . .
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Old Apr 21, 2014, 10:13 AM
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Still feeling somewhat stable. I've been separated from my abusive husband for 5 years so I'm tentatively sticking my toe into the dating pool. I had a first date last night. We went to a movie. He seems very nice. I'm scared to tell him I have BP2. His daughter has BP1. He may freak and run away from me. Would it be a terrible thing to tell him I have cyclothymia instead? I feel that my BP is pretty well controlled on my current meds.

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I don't think you are obligated to tell anyone anything that you are uncomfortable with. I wouldn't say anything for a while, until you see where the relationship goes. And if you want to say cyclothymia, there's nothing wrong with that! Good luck to you!
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Old Apr 21, 2014, 10:14 AM
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So sad today- not sure if I prefer this or the emptiness. Don't even know why I'm sad. Probably crashing again, which is terrifying and exhausting and I just want to sleep. This is not a life.
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Old Apr 21, 2014, 10:20 AM
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Anxiety is super high today. Get to meet my psychiatrist for the first time in about 2 hours and 45 mins. I'm ready for this to be over with. I'm not sure what to expect since my therapist isn't in his office to update everything for him.

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Old Apr 21, 2014, 12:38 PM
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Going to meet with my pdoc of ten years. This is good news! I am going through waves of minor depression. So the Lamictal seems to be working. But I have episodes of agitation. Maybe an increase of Zyprexa is warranted?

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Old Apr 21, 2014, 02:56 PM
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I am feeling sad and agitated. But I have allot of emergy. I am right now at my pdoc office. I hope this goes well.

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Old Apr 21, 2014, 03:53 PM
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Starting lamactal tonight lowering seroquel to once a day staying on' viibryd and buspar. Fingers crossed this works. The dr who took my intake is leaving at the end of may though so added anxiety when I have to go to the dr again. He was nice. Seems to agree with my pcp though about the bipolar. We'll see.

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Well my doctor increased my zyprexa and pxed trazadone for sleep

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Old Apr 21, 2014, 04:46 PM
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I found that trazadone works very well for sleep. I can't take it anymore because of my new AD, but I took it every night when I was on celexa.

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The sun is shining
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Old Apr 21, 2014, 06:14 PM
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Really just want to scream curses. Too many intrusive thoughts. Really feel in danger but holding on to hope in the form of Seroquel. Hoping my therapist lets me go home without speaking to my husband. Still haven't told him any of the craziness.
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I've been feeling really down this week; have been mostly just wanting to sleep, and haven't had much interest or motivation to do anything else.

Have a weekly medication group appointment with my two pDocs and some other patients today; not really looking forward to going, because I'm not looking forward to reporting how poorly I'm doing. Often when I'm doing poorly, I feel like I've failed.

But I know I need to go...sometimes it really sucks that although it's not my fault I have this disorder, it is my responsibility to deal with it. Some days I just wish someone else could fix it instead. But I know that's not going to happen. So...it's off to the appointment with me.
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