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What your describing sounds like an episode coming/overcoming you.. Is your PC willing to increase your Trazadone? Sometimes Pdocs are willing to use a strong AP for a few days to help you come back down.. Worth a try asking. I personally don't think you should wait til Friday, You could a hot mess by then.

Odd, Lexapro can sometimes flings BP'ers into an ugly mania .

Again I would push the issue with Pdoc you need seen earlier or he/she make a med change or adjustment now .. Before your on the moon.

Pdoc increased trazadone. Friday soonest get in. RN has been in touch with me. What is AP?
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AP = Anti psychotic

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Psychosis

This has recently freaked me out. Did not know about this. Now I know I have been there done this. But not sure how to know if it is "live or Memorex"? Like I now know that when I was sure I was going to hit a pedestrian so much that I changed the routes I drove to and from work, told spouse it was becuz of potholes, that it was psychosis. How do you know you are psychotic and do you need APs all the time? Are the meds I am taking APs?

Lexapro
Trazadone
Topamax
Abilify

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Saw pdoc yesterday. Stopped abilify started latuda. Turns out I do not have psychosis but do have morbid OCD and bipolar 1 mixed. See pdoc again in 10 days. Was worried she would hospitalize me. I am taking a week off work. Really need to be away from that toxic joint for a bit.

I am seriously OCD. This combined with the anxiety, I am obsessing now not only on the bipolar but now on the OCD. I still don’t have a tdoc. I am going to call my pdoc’s RN Monday and ask for names of tdocs. My pdoc said that she would give me some names at my next appointment which was yesterday. I know I am not ready for therapy but I do need to talk.

Stop ... Just stop , You are freaking yourself out... Ap's are given for a lot of reasons and it doesnt mean your psychotic .. AP's have a sedating effect on most everyone. So they are often given to settle an episode down quickly.

My Pdoc and I agree that there is no reason to give me a bucket full of lables ... Damn near every Bipolar person has anxiety and panic attacks ,ocd? sure loads of traits of it. It kinda all fits under the umbrella of Bipolar ....

Right now try and distract yourself , movie? book? silly games online ? just find something(s) to distract yourself ...

Make sure you get the list of T's and if you dont just goggle your area and start making calls yourself..

Your going to be okay hun Dont let Bipolar be any bigger than it is. Breathe

This is why APs are now called neuroleptics.

Thank you! Going to read The Cruelest Obsession: Obsessing about Obsessing By Jonathan Grayson, Ph.D.

I am frustrated. With myself obsessing over learning all I can about bipolar and now morbid OCD. I am also frustrated with the need to talk about this but having everything I do or say being taken as me being manic or OCD by those around me.

Talk here all you want about it .. "We all get it"

Thanks I have reduced obsessing over labels and reading about bipolar and OCD. Partly because I think the meds are working and helping me focus and I saw my PDoc Friday who reminded me to focus on getting balance and sleep.

I do need to talk though. I seem to be having extrapyramidal effects from the antipsychotics in that I walk like a zombie, as in shuffle, and have BAD Charley horses / spasms / cramps in my legs from the knees down. I am bit irritated with both primary care and PDoc as both want to put this off on the other and all I want is relief. I think the meds are working and do not want to stop them, just want the pain in my feet and legs to stop!

I am not sleeping well yet. I fall asleep great and sleep 2-3 hours, then am either awake to stay or go back to sleep only to keep waking up every 2 hours or so. I have been getting up at 4am even on weekends. I am NOT a morning person but have turned into one lately. Freaks out my normally AM person spouse, who likes it but knows it is NOT me.

Now, my spouse and family. I think I am making them crazy with all this. However, I do wish they would stop picking and choosing what they think I am doing that is bipolar or OCD to suit themselves. I am me, much of who I am was made by the bipolar and the OCD but not everything I do is pathologic!!!

I also feel flat, zombie like. Not sure if this is depression or the meds but NOT liking this. I took this week off from work because I need the break. They are not leaving me alone. Long story.

As much as you're getting use to the new labels so are they. I t'll take awhile for them to reseperate you from your lables. Here is a good place to talk.

Got labs run yesterday, gloriously normal. Talked to PDoc today. Stopping Latuda. Check in on Friday and go from there. Feeling very depressed today.

Your in the stupid stage of Bipolar , Well thats what I call it ...You want/need to figure it all out and wrap it up with a pretty bow on top ... Yep , That never happens. Its hell when trying to find a good combo that weight out the good and bad effects of meds.

So your feeling depressed, Could just be side effects of the meds going in and out right now.

Do you chart your moods?

Ive only ever charted my moods like for a month or so before I get bored with it and stop doing it. Do you ever use your mood chart for pdoc etc?

My family and friends call it stoopid = bullheaded subborn.

I do chart my moods. Looks a bit like a weird roller coaster with high and low flat parts, no surprise there.

I thought we were on track with abilify but pdoc not happy that migrainces kicked up.

Will be glad for muscle pain to go away!

Glad I took this week off work since I am kinda of a mess.

Yeah I kept forgetting to a lot of the time .. My T finally got me to commit to a 90 day deal... At the time a med change was involved, It did show me a pattern. I do mine on good ole fashioned paper as its easier for me to scan across it and see a rise or a dip, Takes me 1- 2 minutes to fill in the spots before I go to bed.. I know alot of people use an app on there phone .

I do find it helpful in catching a shift before it really takes hold.

Im glad you have the week off to just plain feel better. Argh Migraines, such hell. I use to have them a few times a week , wicked pain

Keep up mood charting especially if your med changing .. Its funny how things show up there before we realize they do.

Paper or App whatever works for you.

I hope your feeling better really soon

Starting Lamictal tonight. Had to stop Latuda, caused me horrid muscle pain. Last few days have been rough emotionally.
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You really need to catch a break Hopefully Lamictal will be helpful , It just takes time to ramp up the dose safely.

All the best with the new meds.....hope they work for you

Pdoc is increasing dose slowly. Seems I am sensitive to the meds. Hope to sleep tonight. Been a rough week.
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Thanks, love the "side effects"

Started Lamictal last night. Also took Seroquel. I went on an online shopping spree in the middle of the night Thursday night. Pdoc said to take Seroquel as needed so I did last night and I slept for 8 hours. Have not done that in months. Woke up having turned off my CPAP holding the mask in my hand and have no memory of that. But I slept!